Sunday, July 30, 2006
Juz went to his blog, he doesn't have a tag board.
At first i wanted to leave some comments.
Budden i saw wad he wrote and i collapse.
I cannot take it anymore..
My mind is in a whirl, i am very confused...
I dunno wad i should do???
Its like ten millions of swords pierced through my heart...
Its like my flesh had all been thorn..
Its like i am no longer me anymore..
He tore me apart..
i Know that i muz endure...
I uz be brave on the outside even though i am sad on the inside...
I need to be normal..
I cannot cry...
I musn't cry...Even though i can't take it bud i knoe that i muz endure...
And climb on my feet again...Although that hurts...
Bud i muz do it..
I clearly understand that no one can help me now...
I am the only one that can help myself bud i muz rest...
First, i muz pick up all the bleeding pieces of my heart and try to rebuild them again...
At rod my half built heart may be broken again
bud i really need to rest...
I am exhausted...
I dunwan to carry on anymore...
Wad is the purpose living on without them...
I am really suffering...
THat morning i am still very happie and tok a very nice neoprint
bud that night, everything fell apart...
MY sky toppled over me...
I had nothing in mind anymore...
anymore...
anymore...
寻找梦想 4:37 PM
Very sad todae...
Although i say i dun mind but it still hurts on the inside..
Yes i mean i like other pple too but it all came as a surprise...
Yes i admit i still have a little feelings for him...
But i guess he belongs to someone else now..
I am not obsessive of him... Its just that i still canoot let go.
I know its almost two years and all but i still cannot let go.
From his blogging i can tell...
There is nothing much i can do now...
No turning back...
Yes i know that i should be devoted to the crush now budden i still feel very sad.
I tink that it will be a double attack as i knoe that
the other one will definitely reject me..
How can you be together with stranger...
He doesn't know that i existed..
However the other who know that i existed had left me for good..
I really cannot take this blow...
I am suffering...
Maybe i should cry it all out bed i am already too sad for tears...
This is the first time i am feeling this way which means that i am really very sad...
I just dunno wad to do its like i am being dump in
the forest all alone with nothing NOTHING at all...
I am a pathetic gerl with no love, no care, no NOTHING...
Its like my soul had flown away with him...
Lost in the galaxy...
I am just a empty shell...With NOTHING...
I wonder wad will happen to me when the next blow come?
Will i just collaspe and never wake up again?
Never have to face the whole world?
Never have to face the both of them again?
Is that wad i wanted?
Or do i want to fight back wad i've lost?
Do i have the courage?
Who will i choose then??
Should i choose the old one or the new one or someone else???
WAD AM I SUPPOSE TO DO???
寻找梦想 4:08 PM
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Saturday, July 15, 2006
Heyylo pple,
Long time no see le ba...
Srys...
Recently i had become addicted to youtube so every time i on my com
is to watch tsubasa...
Therefore left my blog aside for sooo long...
Aniwae nothing much to talk about...
I'm going to watch tsubasa now...
Byebye...
Ps...youtube rawkz...
寻找梦想 5:20 PM
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