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cantiaohai aka mini_ds

Wah, like quite a few days never blog le budden
like kinda busy coz now we still have lectures in the holidays.
ohwells, this is it and i can't grumble about anything.
Life is even more busy with all the work going on.
there is a lot of work from physics and it's tedious.
hiaz, and i got loads of things to fret abt recently.
The ncc chalet is like may clash with my work and i may not be able
to go or something ldat. okies, thats one thing.
Another thing is that there are several courses coming up.
First thing is that this thursday and friday
there is this s'pore youth flying club event and they say that we will
be able to learn how to fly a plane. So i think that this
is too good an opportunity to lose especially when i fulfilled
almost all the requirements except for a few difference in height.
It clashes with lectures and my job so my mum was actually quite pissed with me.
However, i managed to persuade her to lemme go.
Haiz, problems, there will be combat engineeering
course coming up and it clashes with work again.
I've been dying to go since last year when it was cancelled.
This time they took piority for girls and how i wish i can go.
Budden only 8 can go. To not piss my mum off, i know that i only have one choice.
Flying or combat.
And guess wad, i chose flying. I dunno why, budden maybe it's becoz
i am more interested in that bah...
Haiz, i know that i juz gave up a nice camp that i dunwanna lose.
No matter how unwilling i am, this is it.
Later come out that the flying course need us to pay.
I'll get another hard time persuading my mum.
If i can't go both, thats juz my fate.
ohya, time to say something happier.
I went rockclimbing on sunday at west coast recreation centre.
It was really cool and i managed to reach the top for all i climbed!
I'm super happy for one coz i thought i can't climb anymore
with a huge blank patch ahead of me without any tiles.
I dun have long hands and legs...
ohwells, i made a brave move and ended up in a weird position.
No matter,i still reached the top. yippee.
That's something to be happy about.
homawork and homework and homework
and mourning over the fact that i can't go for combat
and mourning over the fact that nobody tag on my taggie.

寻找梦想 8:07 PM

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i am sooo bored...
juz watched tokyo juliet...
i think that it's very nice but also sometimes make
me angry and sad larh..
Anyway, i see till the ending thn shld be betteer le bah..
Omg, lemme tell you that i read a book called zai ying hua shu xia de yue ding.
It's like soooo sad and touching.
The girl is called li pan. I didn't think it was that sad when she died coz
it was sorta like expected de budden the ending is super sweet!
The guy who liked li pan, named kexuan married after
many years and he named his son luo pan.
there is another two classmates of li pan that also got married
many years later and they had a little girl named chen pan.
luo pan and chen pan met at the sakura tree juz like how
kexuan and li pan met when they were young.
this is like super touching lorh, i'm sooo the touched!
Well, today got ack my report slip and i think it's ok larh... average.
Then i realised that they moderated my physics paper
which make my marks even worse than before lorh...
So unfair, pple can get higher budden i dun!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! I'm super unlucky.
Going rockclimbing on sunday,
i think that it will be quite fun and it's a good chance to train
and learn how to really rockclimb!
I'm sooo happy budden another good news and bad news are that
i think all the pple who registered for the youth flying club
will be able to go! Now that is a super rare opportunity
and then it clashes with our lessons.
ARGH!!!! haiz, actually i also have nothing much to blog about recently lorh...
Coz like nothing much happened these days
which make me even more bored but no matter how bored i am
i think that from now onwards i will not slack around
le, it's time for me to step towards my dream.
Although it may be a very small step but i'll jiayou de!!!

寻找梦想 5:58 PM

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OMG OMG OMG!
You know wad??? Look at my last post lorh...
It's 3.30 plus lorh and i said that i got nothing to do coz
i forgot that there is prince of tennis larh...
How can i forget when i have prince of tennis songs at my blog.
It's like right in front of me and i still can forget lorh...
Today at school very sian lorh coz we got nothing to do.
Actually i rather that we have pe lorh...
At least we get to scream and shout and play around.
Haiz...the CO room the dvd player is like that same as my grandma's lorh..
Coz cannot watch shaman knig also.
Still, mine rox bah, tmrw like will be very busy lorh...
I dunwan lessons to resume lorh.
How we learn larh when all our hearts and thoughts like fly away liao lorh...
I'm watching tokyo juliet. it's a drama but quite nice lorh...
It'll be nicer if the thing is not that bitter larh
and full of revenge mah, i like those sweet sweet dramas.
It shld be a bit more humourous then i can laugh.
Now is cannot lol and cannot cry also larh...
Halfway stuck in the middle very painful de leh.. hehe.
Tmrw i also wanna slack, but i guess no choice bah...
I will peng chang de! Jiayous to the pple presenting.
My cid marks get back le and not bad bah...
at least i pass mah... Yesterday went huiyuan's house
to play again and it's superb.
Except that i went on losing like forever lorh...
haha. guess that i'm still lan4 as always when it comes to gaming.
Nvm, other things good can already lke mah... hehe.
Seeya.

寻找梦想 4:26 PM

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I just watched princess mononoke and it's nice.
I think that the author like draw everyone the same lorh...
Hatkun in spirited away, howl in howl's moving castle
and now ashitaka in princess mononoke all look alike.
But it doesn't matter to me lorh, coz they all look nice
and only that is important.
The storyline is nice and quite heart- wrenching larh...
Able to capture my attention, not bad.
But wad i dun really like abt the gong qi jun works
is that it doesn't really have a sweet ending where the male
and female lead both get together.
In spirited away, chihiro left and in princess mononoke, san left too.
Haiz... although everything was saved, i still want them to be together.
They may be young but a sweet ending is still nice.
But it's still a great animation.
I came up to blog abt the show mainly coz i got nothing to do.
It's really very amazing except for the cutting of heads and hands part.
It's more real, and it really did convey some msg to me.
Go watch pple, it's amazing, it's another type of anime
which is equally nice as those romance and action and fighting anime.
All worth it.

寻找梦想 3:33 PM

I think that the shaman king ending not bad leh...
Maybe it's becoz i have a very nice imagination or
maybe it is becoz pple keep telling me that the ending sux like shit
so it came out a lot better than wad i have expected...
Anyway, it is a really nice anime lorh...
Finally going to start on my dramas liao...
Tell you wad... the exams papers are all back already larh
and all i could say is that i did all right lorh..
Well, the biggest blow that i have is physics lorh...
The MCQ i failed and i was quite sure that i'm the lowest in class.
And then after a nice break i get my paper 2 section B back
and i juz failed too... So, i was super depressed and
looking at all those happy faces around me,
ijuz couldn't take it anymore.
But miraculously i did not cry... Maybe it's like sorrow beyond tears.
But, i told myself i shouldn't be lidat just for a damn physics paper.
So i kinda cheered up a bit... But i know for sure that i will fail.
I was sooooo afraid that i would get my first F9, i think i will collaspe lorh...
I was soooo scared that i will be the lowest, i was so scared that i willl get 30+
and fail my overall and that physics will pull down my GPA.
So when i get back my physics paper i was super stunned...
Although i did fail but it's really just fail lorh...
I didn't get F9 and i'm not the lowest in class and
i can pass my overall with a C5!
To others, it may not be that great, but to me that was like A1.
Becoz i thought that i will fail very badly and looking at my marks,
relief swamped over me immediately...
I was sooooooooooooooooooo happy! VERY HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!
Even happier when i got A1. I stared at the marks and the tears juz welled
up in front of my eyes. I didn't cry coz i failed, but
I cried coz i didn't fail that badly, weird rite?
I know that some of your may not be able to understand how i feel,
but so long as i feel happy, no one else comments matter to me.
Paper 2 section A saved me and i feel that for this part i did my best,
except for one question that i got careless, i got nothing to grumble about.
I think that the one that pulled me down was the MCQ, i dunno.
Maybe i panice and everything juz went blank le, well that's that.
I'm happy and that's enough for me!
I think i cried is becoz all this while i have been worrying for my physics paper
and finally i can put my mind down a t ease, so i'm really super happy!
yesterday is promo day and it's a holiday for all of us!
I think i shld give myself a treat and so i went sakura with
constance, huili, haiwei, huiyuan, jennie, jifang and bozhi!
It's really nice juz a bit pity that dun have oysters lorh...
But i still had a fabulous lunch, then we fooled around in the science centre.
After that called more pple to join us in arcade at je.
Zilie, ziwei, xianglonn, serming, anna and kexin joined us.
Played the drum game and i think it's more cool on the drum lorh...
At first wanted to play the shooting game but constance dunwan
then i like nobody wanna play with me a bit sian lorh..
After that we wanna go to IMM the comics connection
but huiyuan suggested going her house but it seemed too late
and if only play a while then not shuang le mah...
So we went IMM in the end. I want posters posters posters lorh...
but dun have then a bit sad lorh...
after that went Giant coz haiwei her shoe like duan4 or something.
Then we bought donuts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
like super nice lorh... At first i say i wanna change skin but noe like lazy lorh...
Later gonna watch princess monoke...
Should be quite nice, i'm still considerinf whether i shld watch DN angel
haiz, depends larh, monday go ask haiwei what's the storyline!
Holiday prolonged, sian sian...

寻找梦想 11:11 AM

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I wanna vomit blood now larh...
My com like omg larh..
No mood to blog le larh.

寻找梦想 2:51 PM

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Oh my god! Shaman king really very nice leh...
The songs also very nice!
NOw, i also begin to like tao ren le.
I think he'll be really handsome without that sharp hairstyle.
Doing cid conclusion now lorh...
And i think that the teachers really dun intend for us to play lorh...
They give back the papers liao le, and i feel that i'm a total failure.
Although pple said that they are going to die but in the
end they passed with flying colours! Wads the meaning of this lorh...
When i say i will die means that i really am dead.
Coz i really am! pple can get so high and i am like...
Ain't i a total failure.
Should i even exist in this world????
Actually i very sad de lorh...
Esp when haiwei and pamela hugged me, i really felt
an urge to cry, i did really badly.
But i told myself i can't, i can't cry.
I told myself that didn't i promise myself that
i muz smile even it's the end of the world...
So i told myself to smile and face it!
No matter how hard it is, i told myself i cannot cry...
Even it is qiang yan huan xiao also nvm...
This is just a small obstacle in my long long road...
I can just kick the stone away.
Haiz.. guess that's just the way.
Budden it's still very difficult for me...
It's so hard for me not to cry in front of every1 even though i wanted.
It's even harder not to sulk and try to be myself and smile.
It's just so hard and i wanna scream out loud right now.
I dunno why but i think that if i cry, maybe
pple will think that i'm such a weakling and sooo irritating...
Indeed, why am i sooooo stupid!!!!!!!!!
To flunk everything, do i really wanna be kick out of school.
I guess even though i am sad, i am still the happy one.
At least i still have my mum who gives me support.
I dunno how i can live on anymore...
but i will still smile at every1 de. :D

寻找梦想 8:09 PM

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Haiz.. the cid really takes up alot of my time lorh...
Like today need to go to huiyuan's house to do the proj
and then i sacrificed my time to watch shaman king larh...
They say that tmrw we will get back our physics paper 1,
the one that makes me dead totally and literally.
And i think that i am seriously going to die larh....
Oh no! Wad am i going to do???
But one happy thing is that ok, i managed to borrow rave frm yantong!
Goodie goodie... :D
Nice nice nice larh.... Only nice thing.
And guess wad, coz i reach home like around 7 lidat.
Then i was reading rave on my walk home and upon reaching
the door of my house i got a strange nostalgic feeling.
Then i rmb like 1 plus 2 years ago, i was walking
at the same corridor to my house but just reading tsubasa book 2.
I rmb it very vividly coz it's the sad sad part...
At that part, my house was still under renovation and
my mum was like waiting for me outside the door.
That kind of feeling really very good lorh...
How i wish my mum can do that to me again.
Seriously i really dun mind my mum treating me like a child again.
I very weird rite? pple wanna grow up but i dun.
I hope that she will bring me to the doc when i am sick
and wait for me at the door when i gets home too late.
Hope that she will cuddle me when i fall asleep...
And how i wiah i was a baby all over again.
I really dunwanna grow up, being a child is sooo much better
than being a teenager. I dun care abt the freedom.
When i am a child, i dun have any troubles, dun have any stress
and i can juz simply enjoy my childhood,
collecting loads of ang baos and no need to fret over my pocket
money at the end of every month.
There will be no need to worry abt my phone bill at the end
of the month as well, no worries, juz a blissful life.
I think that ignorance is really bliss.
Juz live in your small little world admiring the clouds thats on the sky.
I dunwanna be sooo busy that i dun even have the time to look
up in the skies to say hello to the clouds and the stars.
I hope that i will still be the child that makes a wish at the first star i see
and to exclaim in delight that there is a certain shape form be clouds.
I will definitely be that person.
Haiz... i think this com is like breaking apart lorh...
Oh ya, on sunday my aunt gave me my belated bdae prezzie.
She bought it in Switzerland during her honeymoon.
So sweet larh, honeymoon also will think of me! Awww....
It's like very very very cute lorh...
It's a musical box like a farm then got two magnetic cows that
can take off de. Watching them turn round and round is like super xin fu!!!
Sometimes, their ears will get entangled and then it'll be very funny.
Guess this is like the last moment i will be able to enjoy.

寻找梦想 8:06 PM

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Haiz... i on com now like not for fun lorh...
It's for that cid report lorh...
WAH...today at pe i very de high lorh...
coz i realise that next week that we have two holidays!!!!
hari raya on monday and promotion day on friday!!!!!!!!!!
I can watch all the shaman king i want lorh.... ARGH!!!! it rox!!!
Budden peeps say that the ending not nice lorh....
Actually i got the idea that yoh may not be the shamn king for maybe some touching reason like for his friends or something along that line...
But like not lidat lorh... they say that the last episode sux larh...
But the beginning is like soooo cool and it got me so high and hooked on
but i juz can't accept a bad ending for it lorh...
Pple say that you have to imagine your own ending lorh...
But nvm larh, my imagination very pro de mah...
Today cca ok larh, but i really wanna go for that flying course lorh...
I think it'll be damn cool lorh.. If only i'll be able to go.
Wah! I hope they can like accept my height lorh...
It's like a few cm only mah and somemore so nan de
that my eyesight is able to make it lorh...
I think it really will be very cool to fly some planes...
I think it will be the most fabulous thing that happened to me!
It's like i know that i'm going to flunk my EOYS...
A little excitement shld do me more good.
Graduation ceremony for the sec 4s tmrw morning and i already feel quite sad now.
I dunwan them to go leh...
Can i like wait for my seniors at the bottom at the stage
and hug them like at ROD...
I am sooo definitely gonna miss them...
Life feels different when time is like a bullet.
It's like even faster than light, which is dunno wad 3.0 * 10^5 m/s or
something along that line bah...
Did i rmb correctly, i think i mixed it up with the pressure thingy.
But anyway, it means really fast lorh...
I wanna play and the teachers are like spoiling our fun by
saying all those sad sad things and make us feel all sad too.
I really think that i can't make it lorh...
I dunwanna transfer school. where can i go???
Haiz, lets not think of those sad sad things already.
Shld be high and happy like today everyday!
lalalalalallalalalalallalalalalalalalalalallas...
I am gonna smile and be happy even in the darkest period of time
becoz if everyone is gonna sulk, wads
the world becoming to! thus, i need to be happy
so that the world can be slightly normal.
This is wad i am going to say to encourage myself...
I am gonna smile, no matter wad!
ROCK ON!

寻找梦想 8:19 PM

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I am at home now, omg! I need
to say sorry to constance and jennie lorh...
Coz they asked me out juz now budden becoz i wanna stay at home and watch shaman
king then i turned them down, coz of that they not going liao lorh...
I feel so guilty and so bad.
but my progress is like super uber slow larh...
I'm like at the ninth episode only lorh...
Yesterday, i went t my grandma's house
and i expectantly brought the disc there so that i can watch
but in the end i dunno wads wrong with the dvd player
ther lorh, it say the disc cannot be played.
I like totally go mad about it larh...
Then my aunt still tease me about that.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! It's like when it's very very jing cai!
Anyway, i dun feel like going to school tmrw!
Why muz they lenghten our school holiday juz because we are IP?
We are humans too lorh and we definitely need a break!
We get more stress than the others why the others can get a longer break?
It shld be the other way round.
The sec 1 and 2 are like less stressed than us and
they still can go for a longer break?!
Don't WE deserve a longer break for the hard work and effort we put in???
Haiz, dun talk about that idiotic thingy!
That video i put on my blog, pple go see it.
I sacrifice toushiro's pic for that lorh...
I accidentally found it and it's like quite nice lorh...
But i am like totally hopeless at html and i dunno
where on earth to put that video so the only place i can put on
will be on toushiro's pic.
But nvm, once like i've seen enough, i will take it down. No worries.
Enjoy!

寻找梦想 12:17 PM

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HELLO PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, its so hard to live w/o my com for almost three weeks!
Cool ain't i? :DDDDDD
These three weeks have been a tough one for me.
the first week i've been busy mugging like it's the end of the world.
Then the next two weeks are the real exams!
At first it's still ok and talking abt chinese compo
i wanna apologise to constance coz i somehow took her idea and
it result in our compo being almost the same.
I'm sincerely sorry. D:
Then chem makes me half dead... OMG!
It's like i dunno. Scary.
Math also make me three quarter dead already and that's
only paper one lorh... I think this is such a horrible way of dying.
Next, PHYSICS paper one and i am CERTIFIED DEAD!!!!!!!!!!
Haiz.. yesterday the math paper was... guess wad?
I drop dead in hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wad did you expect me to do, think and say?
Hello, i am already dead.
Alright, although i am dead, i still had fun yesterday.
Heyy, it's the end of the exams. A short break for my misery.
I went to huiyuan's house yesterday and we played ps2.
At first i dunwanna play de coz it's like i dun like to play since young le mah...
Budden their game i slike super nice larh...
I think i suck at these king of games lorh...
Budden i like lian da, the result will be having a big blister
on my hand and my middle finger is like tuo pi lorh...
IT'S SUPER FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The blister is really painful though.
Today is like the most relaxed day i have larh...
Damn cool de lorh...
Like there is no more thing holding me back i can fall through
the clouds down the cliff and when i looked down i see pple waiting for me.
Isn't that an absolutely nice and great feeling!!!!!!!!
ok then, i think i'm gonna miss prince of tennis again.
But anyway, never mind larh...
I know the ending of the match!
SEIGAKU ALL THE WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

寻找梦想 10:46 AM

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