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cantiaohai aka mini_ds

Reading books is one huge interest of mine.
I love to just sit there and read and read and read.
Of course, I still love to shop and talk too.
One sad thing is that I haven't written for a very long time.
My inspiration just flew out of the window.
And I am through sitting here waiting for it to fly back.
Because apparently, that's so not happening.
I have to go find it, and I am not opening any windows again.
That is, if I find it back.

1) Run
2) Read
3) Daydream
4) Relax at secret hideout

Uh huh, OL life is so not going to get my inspiration back.
Yes, even though my calendar is filled with dates and outings, but still nights are not enough for me.
I want the whole day free.
To be able to wake up in the late morning, breathe in the fresh air and wonder how beautiful any day is. And go wander around parks and bookstores.
Do you have any idea how blissful that is?
Now I do.

Woah. Woah. Woah.
I just refuse to believe it. I don't want to know, seriously.
So long as the letter doesn't reach me, I am so gonna heck.
If it reaches me, well, I...
I am so gonna freak.
I freaked already, by the way.
Dilemma, dilemma, dilemma.
I laid out all the pros and cons for those three, and I ignored the obvious biasness.
I chose to ignore the answer that my heart is whispering to me.
No, strike that, my heart is yelling it out at me actually.
I dunno why. I just need that last, extra certainty.
Well, you gave me half of what I needed.
You pointed this fact out to me.
The fact that deep down, I already knew what I want.
That I have already made the decision.
You knew me best, I guess.
Only you realised and noticed that.
I look forward to it.
To everything.
To back to school, back to studying.
And with you in this package.
Time has never flown so fast. I dunwanna wake up and realise hey, 3 months passed and I practically threw my life away, wasting my time!
Seriously, just for the money?
This is a really important lesson for me.
I am really not cut out for admin. And this, amazingly, helps me in my decison making.
Well, a little.

I love today.
Going back there after so long.
Meeting up feels so natural and comfortable.
I will always be me around you.
No need to pretend, no need to create polite conversation, no awkward silence.
Woah, I long for that so much.
Uh huh, that's why I arrange so many dates right.
To get away from the "serious" me.
So, being with the people who know me, and still love me for it...
I can, just be me.

寻找梦想 9:42 PM

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UNIVERSAL STUDIOS!

It was fantastic! Brilliant! Awesome!
Ate breakfast at harbourfront mac. Hotcakes ftw!~
And I couldn't believe that and a couple of twisties at 5pm lasted me the entire day!
We headed off to sci-fi city first.
Had some problem with the lockers.
We didn't know that we weren't suppose to bring ANYTHING up on the rides.
No wallets, no phones, no cameras!
And we went around like that, empty-handed all the way to 5pm.
And we sat on the coolest CYCLON!
Woah! I came off it feeling dizzy and groggy.
First time, for the very first time...
I actually feel scared while sitting on a roller coaster IN SINGAPORE!
It's great!
The HUMAN was not bad too but still CYCLON is the best!~
The mummy ride in egypt was cool too with all the effects and the backdrop.
haha I mean literally BACK DROPPING!
We sat on the cyclon and mummy twice!
The waiting time for the jurassic park wet ride is IMBA.
80 minutes for some water tour and slide?!
Honestly, I totally think that it was a scam.
Haha but the tunnel that is pitch black is really kinda scary.
I couldn't see A THING. NOTHING.
And then we felt that we were lifted off groud and the next thing we know,
the gates opened and off we slide!:D
I didn't really get wet because I was sitting in the middle.
And I love my jumpsuit!
It's pretty! And it's almost waterproof! <3
Then we went to walk around.
I didn't know Egypt is just beside Jurrasic Park, which is beside Far Far Away, which is beside Madagascar, which is beside Hollywood, which is beside New York City.
Quoting Constance: Well, how big do you think Sentosa is? :D
We took loads of pictures and had loads of fun!
Dinner at pastamania at harboufront!:D
Hmm, it didn't give me a very good first time impression lols
I didn't finish half my pasta coz it's a tad too dry.
Ohwells, but still...
I love USS and love the sporting company that went goofing around with me!<3

寻找梦想 8:14 PM

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Fantastic week! <3

Free pizza for lunch on tuesday!
Well, quite a number of staff are on leave so the few of us are lazy to go out for lunch, so we ordered pizzahut!
I heard that half is on the house and the other half is paid by one of my colleague.
THANK YOU!~
Lovely dinner date with shiyuan and tongjing!
Ate at foodcourt because I am super broke.
But in the end I splurge at paper market!
Ohmygod! Fantastic shop! I love all the things there!
I can stay there FOREVER!
Lols and I wanna learn scrapbooking!
But I buy got purpose de leh, doing birthday surprise for ___ <3
If I say it out, it won't be a surprise no more:D

Today is great because there is this NTU comm studies pre-admission reception.
At conrad hotel!
We kinda couldn't find our way there, and another girl helped us asked the directions. But in the end, she lagged behind us.
I feel kinda bad for not striking up a conversation with her.
ohwells, wah the hotel is super grand and pretty!
Ohman, why can't our prom be there huh?
Went there with anna, and saw quite a number of RV people.
Like francesca and xueqiang and eileen and sherry and mun weng.
They said they were on the shortlisted list.
Hmm, I didn't even know there's one. I thought it's either accept or reject.
But still, this means that there are still chances!:D
And the reception is not bad.
Just that... I dunno what they fill the food with.
I ate a teeny weeny bit and I felt super full :/
But the cakes were great!~ I ate a chocolate one and a fruit one! (Y)
The talks got more and more boring by the second, and we started doodling on the paper!
Journalism and advertising and public relations sound interesting!
But radio is in broadcasting and cinema studies.
Speaking of which, I kinda feel like sending in a tape to the radio stations of me introducing myself haha and hope that they can offer me a part time job lols
But sounds rather incredulous huh?
The talk dragged, and there are no shuai guys to be found :p
After the talk, we went to Promenade station and saw the girl we first met, Melody.
Yup, this time round we chatted abit, but still not much la.
Like a bit neglect her. Oops >.<
But seriously, really a bit limited topic.
Reminds me of the SMU interview guy...
Ahwells, free dinner and met up with loads of people:D

Came home and told my mum about it.
But somehow the topic shifted to our taiwan trip.
And she is kinda against it now.
So we had a little polite argument.
I feel kinda bad actually, for not being able to understand her pov.
But she agreed.
She agreed before.
I dunno. We didn't really quarrel so I guess everything is ok.
And USS is coming right up!
And no amount of argument can stop me from being happy!~

寻找梦想 11:08 PM

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Apologized to my supervisor today, for the big hoohaa that I've caused.
And I am feeling much better.

Fantastic night tonight.
Techinically, last night since it's over midnight already.
Goodness me, our clique is awesome!
Nothing seems to have changed and even though we have not grouped up like that ever since last month, hellooo no awkwardness! :D
That's what I love about our group!
We can be so natural together.
And we can laugh for no good reason and just talk!
I LOVE YOU GUYS!
Waited outside secret recipe for almost an hour before they have table for 11...
Hmm, my stomach is growling like mad!

OH! not forgetting to mention that...
DENG DENG DENG DENG!~
While waiting for everyone else to arrive, I went to buy KEITH!
Finally bought it~ The movie that Jesse starred in! :D
And I bought a 39 bucks wallet from MANGO!
Woohoo! Changed it immediately! Mine is totally hideous!
But now, IT'S LOVELY~ <3

But, I dropped my earring and I stepped on it.
Now I am only left with one.
Sighs, that is one of my favourite pair!
*heartache!*

Nonetheless, ate chocolate indulgence and chocolate banna cake for dessert! (shared of course!)
But I still think the CI is better! :D
Oh Oh oh and I wanted white chocolate macademia in spite of my bloated stomach.
But the guys are afraid that it's too sweet...
So we gave up, pfft...

Then we went to Sentosa Board Walk!
Super cool and pretty!
My first time there!
Woohoo! And we crapped on the travellator!

Reached home at around 1120pm and my parents are all asleep!
Woohoo! First time ever! Superb!
Awesome night! XOXO




Lovelies forever!

寻找梦想 12:12 AM

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This week was...is...
Sighs.
It started off with rather heavy monday blues.
It's so heavy that I have to google "Solutions to monday blues" at work.
Yup, that's how bad it is.
Haha but I took the advice of lunching with a friend.
And I spontaneously asked huiyuan to lunch at dohby gaut.
Rush like mad! But chased half the blues away:D
And I stayed up really late chatting on the phone.
Crap talking is relaxing.
But seriously, sleeping at 1am still makes my monday blues evolve to tuesday blues.

Highly anticipating the moive on tueday night.
Makes time go even slower than usual.
And my mouse went hay-wire. So I was more pek cek.
But movie date was fabulous!
Rio is superb! Was like laughing ALL THE WAY!
Haha I dapao-ed Yakun bread and egg inside!~~~
Nachos is (Y)!
And company is lovely <3

Today was fine.
Until my supervisor called us over to tell us a major problem.
Apparently, the HQ people are accusing us of not printing the certificates within the 2 hour time frame.
But it's so ridiculous that we are quite pissed.
I wasn't the only one who is implicated as it seems.
Because they traced and checked all the way back.
But I am doing the printing now, so I feel ultra stressed.
And while they are investigating, they discovered that one of the case was caused by one of the colleague forgetting to print one type of cert in that hour.
So it was delayed.
I was feeling weird and awkward.
When they were pin-pointing the blame..
But I have no time to feel sorry for others.
Turn out that I made the same mistake. T.T
Sighs, I am feeling super guilty.
My colleagues comforted me somemore, made me feel even worse.
Sighs, I hate this.
So maybe I have wednesday blues too.
Whatever happened to HUMP DAY?!
Grr, this week sucks! >.<

Next week is SUPER packed.
Tons of dates!<3
And Universal Studio!! :D
Oh and Delta outing on friday, but I am still not sure whether I can go :/
And another date on sat!:D
Hope next week will be AWESOME!

Oh, I got accepteed by SMU school of economics.
Friday, come quick already!
Blasting myself with Jesse to keep out the bad things!
ARGH! Should I ask him out?
So long never see him le! I miss him!
But... Argh!!! T.T

寻找梦想 8:48 PM

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Tanya's concert was ok.
Abit sian coz we dun really know her songs.
But she sings pretty well.
Kit chan was amazing! I have goosebumps all over me when she sang!
Goodness!~~

Planned Taiwan!
And I am really looking forward to it!
Booked USS!
Really excited!~

Bought 2 pairs of really nice earrings!
And I slashed the price!
The service of the salesgirl is great:D
And she said that my voice is sweet~ Heehee!

Hmm, when I was going home via the mrt, I was in the carriage with a bunch of guys.
Immature guys.
Super immature.
Guys have to go through NS to grow up.
But still, some guys are always immature.
Shouting aloud in the mrt is not cool.
And peeping over someone's shoulder to look their iphone games is rude, not funny.
Clustering at the mrt doors and trying to push your friend out of the train is super immature.
Grow up, seriously.

I hate guys who think that they are the whole of the girl's life.
Wake up. You are so wrong.
No one is the whole of someone else's life.

寻找梦想 9:39 PM

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HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY JESSE MCCARTNEY! <3


(You will always be the number 1! 6 years and counting!)

寻找梦想 11:57 AM

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I just dunno what to think.
Well, after the first wave of shock, anger and hurt blew over, I became pretty normal.
Yes, I knew all along.
But it still kinda hurt when the situation arrives.
And it led me to think: Will others do the same? Who will do the same?
"My faith in you was fading."
I can't forget, I can't forgive yet, and I can never pretend.
I need time.

And thanks alot to those for listening to me rant.
I dunno whether she allows me to tell the story but I seriously need to vent.
Thanks for being there for me<3

On the bright side, I recovered pretty fast.
And I am ohkay already:D
I just dun really know how to deal with the problem yet.

Tanya's concert tomorrow night!
I only have 4 tickets, so I am not able to ask alot of people along.
I just asked those that I think might be more interested.
If I didn't ask you, it's not because I dunwan you to come or anything.
It's just that I dun think you are that into it.
My dad's company is the sponsor for quite a lot of concerts!~
So, there are plenty of chances!
And I will ask different people for different concerts according to their interest!
So... yup! Anticipate~!

寻找梦想 9:18 AM

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I took leave yesterday so as to go to the SMU interview.
So happy to wake up at 9am and dilly dally.
Ate bread for breakfast and lunch and indulge in shows.
Ohmygod! How long have I not done this already?
But in the end I went out of house later than planned and ended up reaching there just in time.
The interviewees are all kinda nice and outgoing.
So we hit into conversations immediately.
The interview was not so bad, and I am not really stressed up by the 2 professors either.
It's just that I was expecting them to ask general questions.
And yet, they asked specific ecnomics problems related with current affairs?!
God, I could totally hear screws dropping all over in my brain while it tried to start up.
I didn't think I did fantastic.
I think I did good enough, but not amazing.
But the interviewees were like: Ohmygod! You speak really well!
And: You are from RV? No wonder you speak so well!
Err, thanks for all the polite compliments but I think they all did pretty well too!
And I think being in RV has nothing to do with it.
So, after the interview, all of us parted ways.
And the guy offered to lead me to Bras Brasah Complex since it's on the way.
*grateful*
I will be utterly lost without him.
So, we chatted and reintroduce ourselves again because I guess both of us were too nervous to notice the introductions at first :p
He's quite a nice guy, but our common topics are a little limited >.<

Ahwells, I bought the book I wanted at Bras Brasah!
And lagged at the NLB for a while before meeting up with my mum to buy new shoes!:D
Then we went to visit my grandma at Tan Tock Seng.
Sighs. Seeing her with all the tubes make my heart kinda ache.
But at least she is conscious.
Wah. I nearly cried when she gestured for us to sanitized our hands.
I mean she is not able to talk due to the tubes and yet she is concern for our health?!
Ohman, ahma, get well soon!~

I am a sucker.
I can't believe that I fell all into it again.
But I tried ok. I really did.
I am not sure whether he felt the distance, but I did.
But he was saying all those stuff, and the hurt in his voice...
And, sighs, I gave in.
It just seems so natural at that time.
And I said it back to him.
Or maybe... I really do feel that way too? Still?

寻找梦想 11:46 AM

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6K'10 Chalet~
I stayed for a night and came back now coz I can't really take it anymore.
Going to KO soon >.<
Went to wild wild wet with siyu!
Super fun! I love the rides and the adrenaline rush!
It's my first time in the water ever since sec2!
Thank goodness no need to wear swim suit, I dun even know where mine went.
And not even sure whether it still fits lo.
Somemore, mine is the 2 piece kind, er quite childish luh.
Haha love the water and just lazing there and floating around!
But I swam abit and realised again that my stamina sucks.
So even though I am super tired and just wanna lie around and watch movies and read my books all day today, I have decided to go and run!
Hehe FINALLY!
But before that, I shall go and sleep first!
Although there is a VERY high possibility that I wouldn't want to move after I sleep...
BBQ was funny...
I was walking out of the room with a whole bunch of marshmallows when this guy asked me for one stick.
Lols asked me for the roasted one somemore!
haha I asked him to wait patiently then! But according to the rest, he got help us quite a lot, so I very kindly went to give him a couple of my nicely roasted marshmallows!~ My skills quite zai de ok!
Slept quite a lot for this chalet!
Gossip a lot with mr chua also!!:D
Ate mac hotcakes for breakfast and the coffee stopped me from sleeping for the rest of the morning -.-
but definitely not now!
Then the rest went to escape, while me, xinyu and lihui went home.
Slept all the way on the train with Jesse blasting in my ear.
Wonderful time~
(Pity didn't get to cycle, dunno whether I still have phobia after tha fall >.<)

寻找梦想 1:52 PM

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Everyone in my office is interested in which uni I will choose.
Sighs and honestly, I can't choose if NUS don't reply me.
People do all sorts of weird things in my printing room.
Change clothes, adjust pants, gossip loudly...
Well, I get entertained.

I have decided.
I am going to give up the zara skirt so that I can book better seats for lion king.
And I am intrigued by Macbeth as well.
38 bucks, I can afford that:D
Mr Andrews will be so proud of me.
(Provided that he still remembers me of course, but I doubt so :D)

Went to the Harvey Norman electronic show at Suntec today.
And on the way, I satisfied my craving for Starbucks!
White chocalate mocha ftw! :D
Oh, and the guy who took my order was too busy flirting with his colleague to notice what I am ordering.
What the hell is white mocha?! And I asked for whipped cream.
Grr, I totally give him the exasperated cum devil stare.
But thankfully, I got my order right afterwards:D
Bought my camera!
225 bucks for 3 years warranty, 14 megapixels, 8 GB SD card, 7 times zoom.
Ohkay la hor, it's a half price cut!:D
But it's not cannon leh, it's olympus.
I debated with myself for a while because of that.
Seems to me that I am rather brand conscious hor, but I didn't bend to that in the end.
Well, mainly because for the same price range, the olympus one is indeed better.
Well, and the salesperson is a little qian bian.
He totally gave the satisfied look when I went back to him to make the purchase.
And told me: "I told you you won't get such a deal anywhere else."
Fine, but you don't have to be so smug about it right?
But I got what I want, and he is quite a good talker.
I am going to give him credit for that.

So...
1) Lion King
2) Macbeth
3) Wallet
4) Universal Studios
6) Rio
7) Tops and skirts

Still, I am going broke. T.T

寻找梦想 10:21 PM

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