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cantiaohai aka mini_ds

I just can't stop reading Skip beat!
尤其是像现在这种白热化的阶段！
他们嫉妒，我就好兴奋！
他们想要把她抢过来时，我就好开心！
这种剧情是我最喜欢的！
但是，但是，但是！
那么多的功课还没做。。。
我得冷静！我得控制我自己！啊!~~~~

这几天的不舒服，让大家都担心了。
真是不好意思哦！
还要感谢很多关心我的人。
你们的关心让我有继续奋斗下去的动力。
让我知道还是有很多人关心我的。
谢谢哦！我会振作起来，又成为大家熟悉的，开朗的嘉仪的！

寻找梦想 5:53 PM

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Whenever I am stress, sad, depressed;
I will spam myself with fairytales.
Those happy endings just make me feel tons better.
Cliched they may be, but they gave me hope and faith.
To recover, in this context,
and to hold on to the remnants of my dream,
and walk the remaining path.
Be brave and courageous like the prince.
Be brave like Prince Phillip, and ultimately saving Princess Aurora.
Be courageous like the Prince in Little Mermaid, and fight for true love.
Never give up like Ariel, no matter how depressing is the situation, how despair she felt.
Have faith like Peter Pan, hold on to his dreams and ambitions.
And stay in the wonderland of childhood, remember those times of childishness.
Take a chance like the Beast.
Trust like Belle.
And ultimately, I will be able to regain the confidence of fulfilling my dream.

寻找梦想 11:33 AM

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又生病了。
怎么我的身体那么的弱呢？
咳嗽咳得快断气了。
什么力气也使不上。
想要借此机会多读点书也不行。
成天只能睡。。。
不管睡多少都好似无法养足精神。
或许，病的不只是身躯而已。
累的还有心灵。
因为压力，无奈，彷徨，失望，而崩溃了吧。
因为不想面对早已在心里萌芽的恐惧？
当引导自己走向未来的曙光熄灭了，所剩的应该只有害怕而已吧。

寻找梦想 3:23 PM

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Went to watch Inception with Jennie today.
Rushed there after school.
And oh my gosh!~~~
I dare say that it is the best film ever!
The plot is simply fantastic!
It's the first time ever that I am able to swoon over the plot!
The plot! Yes, the plot!
You didn't see it wrongly, I said I love the movie because of the plot!
Not becase of the character, not because of the actor,
but because of the plot.
It's understanding woven in between confusion.
The plot links up seamlessly!
I would love to take a look at the brains of the scriptwriter and the director.
It is simply brilliant and fantastic.
Tension. Panic. Basically every emotions that you can think of.
And finally understanding.
It's definitely Oscars-quality film.
I can watch it like, forever!~
The confession, got me spilling my tears everywhere.
But the ending...
It got me screaming. So, did it stop? Or not?
Wow! But it's these small agonising details that make the film so amazing!

You are waiting for a train. A train that will take you far away.
You can't be sure where it will take you. But it doesn't matter.
Because we'll be...
We'll be together.

Dare you take a leap of faith?
Or become an old man, filled with regret, waiting to die alone.

寻找梦想 9:16 PM

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今天所发生的事情。。。喜忧参半。
一直以来的忙忙碌碌似乎把他给遗忘了一些。
总以为早就成功地把他给放下了。
但是，唯有他。。。。
唯有他轻轻的一个挑眉，一个微笑，一个打招呼，
所有的情愫想波涛汹涌般向我涌来。
原来一切从来都没有改变。
原来我始终没有放下。
How?
How to do it?
I can't stop the curvature of my lips when i see him.
I won't miss him if i don't see him for a couple of weeks straight.
But if i did, he would occupy the entire space in my mind.
告诉我，该喜还是该忧？


I don't understand it!
How can he look at me with such hatred?
Aren't we supposed to be friends? Best friends?
Apparently, i am wrong.
This is not the first time that has happened.
I guess i have not been in his inner circle of friends at all!
He hurt me before. He laughed at me before.
I know that we were never very close.
But everyone around us said we were.
And so i thought.
But turn out, i was right, wasn't i?
I treat him as my best friend and?
He treat me as...?
And somehow, I am not as pissed as before.
Is it because i have gotten used to it?
You set the distance. You hold it.
You pushed me aside, then don't expect me to go running after you.
Ever again.

Mug and ate and walked with Anna!!!!
原来我们的未来可以那么相似。
本以为我未来的路。。。会很迷惘。独自一人，很害怕。
但是，知道你有可能和我一起上学，一起上课。
午休时可以一起吃饭，考试时可以一起读书。
天大的事都不会拆散我们！对吧？对吧？
想到这里，我就好开心好开心！
只要想到有这个机会，有这个可能，我就真的是满心欢喜！
姐妹，你呢？
能看到我们的未来吗？
我知道，路很难走。
可能你被选中，而我落选了。
可是，我们暂且不要管这些好吗？现在的我们一起努力就好。
一起。


尹思语！十八岁生日快乐哦！

寻找梦想 7:17 PM

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Was feeling quite down today.
Coupled with a few blows...
And all i can say is that i am indeed blinded by darkness.
Claustrophobic.
Everywhere i walked, and i mean everywhere, i am bummed.
Felt like there high walls all around me.
Walls that i can't seem to climb over, no matter how hard i tried.
No matter how bloody my hands have become, after slipping down the cruel, hideous wall a thousand times, i can't seem to conquer it.
And then i have to watch the flame in me slowly die away.
I have to endure the pain when darkness swallows me whole.
And then?
All hopes and dreams got sucked away.
I am left soul-less, just like i had a Dementor's kiss.
Where is my hero, when i needed him?
It doesn't matter, does it?
It just all boils down to "Depressed".
I very much want to say: "Please, just leave me alone."
But, i realised i can't.
Because i need you. I need you to be by my side.
Telling me that all is not yet lost.
Yes, i need that.
No matter how superficial that might sound, i need that.

And i can't bear the fact that you can simply walk past me, without talking to me.
Without smiling at me, without acknowledging me.
It kind of hurt me.
I hope we can be chummy again. Because you mean a lot to me.
这辈子，你甩不掉我了。我也同样不会抛下你的。
姐妹，对不起啦！我是真的很抱歉哦！
你啦！看到我就碎碎念。。。害我都没有机会给你看我喜欢的衣服啦！
约会时一定要的啦！一定哦！

寻找梦想 6:12 PM

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Can't believe that i have fallen sick on my mum's birthday!
Throat infalmmation and high fever of 39.1 degree celcius!
Oh gosh!!

寻找梦想 2:08 PM

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Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever when you feel you've lost your way

What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
to fight and never walk away
Coz here I am still holding on!

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath its harder to believe

You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take it by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit to stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
But nothing's gonna bring me down

Jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I risk being safe I always knew why
I always knew why

So here I am still holding on!

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath its harder to believe

You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take it by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule coz there's nothing between you and your dreams

Adam Lambert's No Boundaries
Sang the very words in me.

寻找梦想 9:50 PM

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I lost the motivation all of a sudden,
and I feel stark naked in the middle of nowhere, lost as the time wheel turns.
Felt like I have been left behind.
I miss all the others around me.
Ironic.
That's because I feel so far away.
Searching comfort in the never-coming-true fairytales.
Dwelling in the worlds that do not record my existence.

Evangeline... The second star to the right...
Can't believe that although I seem to have lost hope in the reality,
I still believe in the many heroes in my life that I have no chance to reach.

I don't know why am I feeling so angsty these days.
Is this late puberty???
Oh my, that had better not be it.
I am losing my inspiration as well.
The ideas that came, are just not as brilliant.
I am reverting to the most original, the start of it all.
Where simple motions touched my emotions,
where simple words stir my heart.
I hope sincerely that this will bring the long lost me back.
I am sick and tired of stereotypes.
I am different, I am unique.
And I don't fit stereotypes, stereotypes don't fit me.
I guess this is all part and parcel of the process of finding myself again.
It didn't seem so difficult 6 years ago.
I guess, things change, people do change.
But deep down, I know that I am still there.
I am just waiting for it to resurface again.
And I believe it will, eventually.
Even if the road in front of me may be covered in darkness, I shall persever.
Because I still believe that fairytales and dreams really do come true after all.

寻找梦想 7:54 PM

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为什么每一次努力，换来的都只是失望？
我已经厌倦了别人失望的眼神，惊讶的表情。

What exactly do you expect?
And why do you have to show me your disappointment when I didn't live up to your expectations?

我的心连自己的失望都承受不了了，又怎么能够承受你的。

原来连哭，都需要找场地。

哭，不能在家里。
因为不能让妈妈担心。

哭，不能够在学校里。
因为我不想看到同学怜悯的表情。

结果，我就沦落到在巴士上含泪。
看着风景有规律的穿过眼球的范围，感觉自己很渺小。

在巴士上，一群一群的陌生人，不会再回头看我第二眼。
所以即使哭泣，也不需要在陌生人面前顾虑太多。
毕竟，这次偶遇后，不会再有下一次。

即使，我崩溃，也不会有人来安慰我。
让我在悲伤与绝望里继续沉沦，豪放的让苦涩吞噬着我的心灵。

这时的我，不需要去在乎别人的眼光。
不需要为了别人的心情，强忍着眼眶里的泪水。

但是哭过了又能怎么样？
事实是不会为了我的泪水而改变的。
哭，仅仅是我发泄情绪的一种方法。

尽管有多不甘心，还是得继续奋斗下去。
为了未来的一切作最后的冲刺，为了胜利，为了存活。。。
为了什么？梦想？
是梦想吗？我的梦想是什么？

在被伤得遍体鳞伤的时候，眼里的泪水会不会模糊我看未来的眼光？
我在乎的人，在乎我的人，被泪水蒙蔽了双眸，我已看不清了。
看不见，不想看见。

只想静静的，就那么静静的呆着。
做什么？需要知道吗？知道了有意义吗？
还有机会吗？真的还有挽回的余地吗？
还是一切都已注定，再多的努力也是枉费，白费心机。

因为，我不可能攀到那个最高峰。
因为，我累了。
因为，我只想独自一人。
因为，我在黑暗的世界里，迷失了。

寻找梦想 8:45 PM

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Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that i heard of once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops that's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Blue birds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow why oh then why can't I?

When happy little blue birds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why oh why can't I?

REN IS ULTIMATE SHUAI~!
(oh crap, i am addicted!)

寻找梦想 5:44 PM

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"If you ever meet a girl that is too good for you, marry her."

'Why do you have to be so sensitive?"
"Because you are so fragile."

"She is like sunshine, everything is better when she is there."

"How did you get along so well with your wife?"
"I married my best friend."

寻找梦想 10:12 AM

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我觉得自己还真是有点色呢！
看到又帅，身材又好的男生，遂脸红又心跳，但是还是会继续地盯着看哦！
看到了那个那个彭于晏其实还蛮帅的！
呵呵！
我要看更多更多的帅哥！

寻找梦想 11:09 AM

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Ate durian! My hand still has that smell!
AHH!!!

Come, tell me your choices:
Jeans VS Shorts
Shirt with jacket VS Thick Knitted shirt

For my MOIVE OUTING WITH BELOVED!!~~
HAIWEI IS WATCHCING DESPICABLE ME WITH ME!!!

寻找梦想 12:14 PM

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IT'S OVER!!!! LIKE FINALLY!
I can relax a little and do not have to worry about anything (until the results come back, that is.)
Love ECLIPSE!
Love DESPICABLE ME!
Love INCEPTION!
So many movies to watch!!! Who want to watch with me?
Hmm, what should i wear?

寻找梦想 9:30 PM

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