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cantiaohai aka mini_ds

im useless.
and no matter how guilty i feel.
that's it.

寻找梦想 10:16 PM

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wah! these few days keep doing pw...
make me no time to watch my drama!
im sleep deprived too!~
today i stayed in school from 8am to 630pm!
sobs big big sacrifice leh haha
btw, me and cass and chloe were talking abt having a pw outing...
lols like these few days meet so much liao...
then after OP, will not meet le then abit weird huh
so haha go pw outing!!! YEEHAA!

寻找梦想 9:21 PM

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hahaha happy things juz keep happening!
haha even though they are amongst those unpleasant and frustrating ones.
but still, they make my day!
my aunt called me juz now and said that she got a free ticket...
TO 张韶涵音乐会！
OHMYGOD! OHMYGOD!
我是幸福小女人！
so happy and super looking forward to it!

haha today went national lib for pw lols
met at 930am thinking it was very early...
i missed my bus stop so i went to bugis mrt,
to wait for shiyuan and go toilet haha
then when shiyuan came... simon says he is on his way too
so me and shiyuan went to ya kun to eat breakfast while waiting haha oops
wow the half boiled eggs are so nice la!
btw, i made my own half boiled eggs at home leh
but then abit fail ahh coz like abit not cooked...
still watery and gooey de. ohmygod... but my first time leh
so i ate it. so lucky nvr diarrhoe... lols
then 3 of us went tgth and we were like abt 1 hr 15 mins late oops! sry!
then at the end of the mtg...
me, chloe and cass went to take the nlb lift!
super nice! ^^
then we went to eat! i ate pepper lunch! <3
haha at first got this shop have promotion.
3 scoops for 3 bucks! ohmygod! we were thinking we are so gonna
eat it aft lunch. but then we are all too full to even share it.
haha and the flavours not very appealing lah... lols
although i think the 3 scoops will look fantastic! haha
and i finally bought my egg tarts at crystal jade!
last week i see spencer eat the egg tarts make me damn tempted!
hmm~ hmm~ egg tart with a cup of milk! YEEHAA!
and i wrap all my chinese books juz now! <333
all set to read them le!
MY DARLINGS, HERE I COME!

寻找梦想 9:11 PM

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闷。。。
无聊。。。
没灵感。。。
没事情做。。。

好像出去走一走。。。
散散步，可以有个人来陪我。
握着他的手，可以什么都不用去想，什么都不用在乎。
从他手心里传来的温度感受到无比的安全感。

我是个怪咖！
i dunwna watch hot shot anymore...
not rly, i mean 我不舍得看。
看完了，该怎么办？i want to slowly savour it.
所以，哈哈，先去看精彩的幕后花絮好了！

寻找梦想 4:58 PM

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请叫我花心大萝卜兼三心二意的臭丫头！
我的妈啊！混乱混乱！天昏地暗！
到底是谁？他。。。还是他？
我想可能都不是。。。只是他们的举动太让我开心而已。。。
我就是会因为那种细节而心动的女生嘛！
偏偏他们又那么绅士，还我都混乱了。
不过，感觉并没有那么强烈。。。
可能是一时神经错乱啦！我还是继续迷恋我的言承旭吧！

today went to holland village de coffe club to have pw...
haha their coffee got a lot of varieties and look very nice...
but the taste is quite normal, somemore my mochaccino is not chocolatey enough...
and it's ex lo even more ex than my granade starbucks white chocolate mocha...
not worth it totally...
OUR mi mi ji di better leh!
cheaper and the design nicer and the taste better also!
although the coffee club there quite ulu
and the ambience also not bad
but still a lot of pple go leh!
our place is still the best la YEEHAA!

寻找梦想 8:35 PM

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我发现啊！我看人的地方。。。很不一样。
有些男生第一眼会看女生的腿，或者是眼睛什么的。
而我啊。。。第一眼看的是鼻子，再来是眼睛。。。
然后看手掌。最近我发现我还喜欢看男生哪里了。
这样说好像有点怪，不过啊，我喜欢看男生的锁骨。
就好看的锁骨，很难找耶！哈哈！
以前，我不是一直在找人实验吗？
因为阿夹，所以要男生牵着我的手，背着我往前走，好让我看看他们的背影还有手肘后面。。。
哈哈！怪吧？记得，constance and zhengyang 的都很不错。。。
他们都很符合，和阿夹的差不多。
不过啊！让我一直不能忘记的，是他的。
当下他给我的感觉超像阿夹的！所以，我也有点吓到。
他。。。应该不会要我说出来吧。。。
他自己可能都不知道呢。。。呵呵！明年毕业时再告诉你吧。。。
希望那时，知道了以后，你会笑着在牵我一次。
不过，以你的个性啊，有点难咯！
新的实验是：
大手牵小手！因为看到言承旭在戏里牵女生的手时，他的手差不多整整的包住了女生的手。
光看，我都觉得很幸福了。
哪天找个男生和我试试。哈哈！but i think anna and tzehui can do it too!
还有啊！言承旭的轮廓超分明的！肌肉线条也很完美！天啊！

寻找梦想 11:09 AM

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原来男生用球衣抹汗也很帅！
他笑起来，唇红齿白！还有酒窝！迷人啊！
打球的时候帅到爆炸！还我口水狂流一地！
哈哈！求情成功！可以去 5k bbq 了！

寻找梦想 3:38 PM

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4I CHALET!!!!!
woots! i reached like arnd 7 plus on the first day coz
i got PW meeting haha and they alr started the bbq...
i din have a lot of bbq food.
coz i was like playing arnd and kept talking to pple...
so quite hungry la lols
haha din rly sleep for the 1st day...
not like the pigs arnd me mwhahaah
but hor... as we have limited space on the bed...
wah super not comfortable leh... im like squashed btwn a lot of pple,
lying on a lot of pple haha...
then we played cards and ate cup noodles in the middle of the night...
haha i slept 1 hour though. frm 8am to 9pm! LOL
hmm... then i think we lagged until abt 11am
then we went to downtown arcade...
haha and me, erjie, haiwei, huiyuan and jennie took neoprints!
Totally very long nvr take neoprints le leh
and hor i love the machine!!!
they make my eyes look bigger and look more pretty! YEEHAA!:D
then we went seoul garden! haha and ate and ate!
1st time i went there! super nice leh
although im like quite full aft i ate a little.
lols and erjie, haiwei and zhengyang made me a super nice egg! <333
then at first thinking of going escape de...
but then alot of the rides close leh and the price abit ex hor.
haha so in the end nvr lo... haiz a lot of plans foiled leh.
wna go watch movies de... but then dun have cloudy chance of meatballs!
somemore so many horror shows... eeyer dunwna liao lo...
haha but we went cycling... and,
I LEARNT HOW TO CYCLE LE!!!!!~
ohmygod, all of you, proud of me not?
muz thank all my teachers! all of you'all teaching me the way
and haha giving me all the encouragement!
thank you! <3333
nxt time dunid ma fan you'all double bike me le!
yays then we can go cycling tgth le! YIPPEE!!!
although my skills at turning still suck!
but i believe i can do it de! YEEHAA!!!
then we went to the playground to play...
LOLS got this turning thing damn fun! but then hor...
keep on turning until me and anna wna puke...
haha oops! i guess im not rly cut out for turning stuff...
last time go funfair also sat on this turning thing...
sobs until i headache leh...
haha but then the ultimate good news came! :D
PW is cancelled! so i can stay longer and have breakfast with the rest!
haha the 2nd night we slept even more la can!
lols but me and haiwei are the latest to sleep!
we played STRESS for like abt an hour lo!
we laughed loudly and became damn high lo!
but then hor... the pigs arnd us, as usual din wake up with all the noise.
lols and my nose went keesiao too...
sniffed tgth with ziwei! LOLS and i used super many tissues! haha he too he too!
lols and i started imitating the breathing sounds of the pple sleeping...
lols! MAC BREAKFAST!
haha and i went home feeling a little sad.
coz ohman like so fast ended liao lo.
but i din rly have much time to think abt it coz i immediately KO!
lols PW also nvr do leh...
OOPS! sry! i KO-ed and KO-ed...
hahaha and i slept at 9pm and woke up at 1130am today!
sleep damn a lot hor..
watched drama again today and rly rly fell in love with jerry yan!
he is like super super shuai!!!!!<333
HE IS PERFECTO!!!!
ahh! *drools*

but...how i hope i can have chalet everyday of the year.
mum and dad started controlling me again.
and i totally dunno how to communicate with them.
tired of flaring up, tired of trying to reason with them.
i knw when to watch drama and when to read newspapers ohkay..
so juz stop trying to control me already...
i dun even think i can go to the 2 outings this week le...
my 5k bbq and Ncc rod...
good job... not. haiz
i guess good things are always accompanied by the bad.
sadded.

寻找梦想 4:21 PM

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CHALET!!!!
eh? but why am i still here? at home, watching drama...
i got PW mtg at 4pm lo...
so have to go later. but im still very excited.
haha adrenaline pumping in my blood. woohoo.
看篮球火，感觉起伏跌落的。
我不喜欢那个女主角！东方翔对她那么好，她还那么气他！
不过，我对元大鹰改观了哦！
哈哈！其实除了他人还蛮欠扁的，其他的都还 ohkay 耶！
还有还有！会打架的男生真的很帅！
男生跑步时，也很好看。错！修正！修正！
高挑的男生跑步超帅的！

寻找梦想 1:36 PM

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原来我的偏心胜过我的理智。。。
我超喜欢东方翔！所以，好像很自然的去讨厌元大鹰！
不过，他在戏里的角色很不讨好耶！
偏偏又是我最讨厌的类型。
啰里啰唆的， 很吵，又很烦！
自尊心太强，但实力有不怎么样。。。
真的蛮讨厌他的。。。
还有，我会因为他和那个女生太靠近，而为东方翔感到心酸。。。
明天。。。就是疯狂了！

寻找梦想 2:06 PM

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哇！他谈谈笑的时候超帅！
他狂妄的时候超帅！
他吃醋的方式特别帅！
他连眨个眼睛都很帅！
打篮球的时候更不用说了，帅到暴了嘛！
铁定 180cm 的身材！春超性感的啦！
完美！perfecto!

寻找梦想 9:19 PM

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im still worried abt my ear though.
but the mere thought of shopping for earrings simply made me thrilled.
one more day and then we will be free from school!
ONE MORE DAY!
haha but there will still be pw though. ohmygod more intense than ever.
haha watching 篮球火now...
ohmygod! 言承旭 is like super shuai!
and ohmygod he is like soooo my type in the show!
ahh! mad and drools!
haha lols i wna watch more more more more!
and i feel that my love for all these stars will not last any longer...
my love for kim bum has slightly faded.
my love for lucas till is already subsiding...
and for 言承旭, i like him b4 in meteor garden le lo..
so shldnt rly make a diff here..
but who knows...
who knew! <333

寻找梦想 5:01 PM

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历史性的一天在昨天过去了。
my ear will never be the same again. haha
when i saw haiwei and anna at cck mrt, im more and more scared and nervous.
when we walkeed into lot 1... ohmygod!
haha then as we go up level by level... i freaked out!
when haiwei brought to the shop, i hyperventilated!
my hands became cold and clammy and i was so scared when i saw the shopkeeper
take out the staple. AHH!
haiwei chose the black earring, i chose the turqouise one! :D
honestly, it's painful.
but i feel very proud of myself as i din cry, i din jump!
but the very sad thing is that the one on my left ear was off.
haiz guess i have to live with it.
haiwei's recover very fast leh.
while mine was still stinging and feeling numb... hers felt perfectly normal.
haha and now i looked into the mirror and smile to myself!!
MAC MCWINGS LUNCH! and then KBOX!
sang alot of chi songs!!! :D and my dad fetched me home...
so no scoldings abt reaching home too late!
yays haha
im counting down to the end of term! 2 more days!
im counting down to the day where i can wear my fav earrings!
YIPPEE!!!
btw, i was so afraid to go into the showers...
and im so afriad to turn the earring! haha
不过，吴嘉仪是勇敢的哦！

寻找梦想 8:26 PM

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对于明天... 我好紧张噢!
怕痛... 呵呵!

我想每一件完美的事必定会有一点美中不足.

寻找梦想 6:12 PM

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原来被男生用单车载的女生都会露出幸福的笑容。。。
真搞不清楚女主角为什么要作出那么损人又不利己的事呢？
那种没有信心的爱情应该只会带给双方更多的伤害吧？

我很努力的像要挽回我们的友情。
但是你已经变得不堪入目。
以前，我认为很真诚的你，很特别的你，早就不见了。
你变成了一个造作，很在意外表，很在意别人的看法的人。
是个肤浅的人。
如果你是因为那个男生而改变的，我看不起你！
如果你只想和他搞暧昧，变成别人的话题，我鄙视你！
但你坚持自己没变，可是你已经离我们认识的你很远很远了。
我。。。有一种想要抽离你身边的我。
因为你不再是我的好朋友。。。
你。。。本来就不是那种温柔体贴，小鸟依人的女生。。。
但是却忽然之间变了。
不知是收敛起你的暴力。
现在是怎样？打雷你也怕！
拜托！我们不是那个喜欢你的男生，所以请不要在我们面前装腔作势了！
我不认识你了。

昨天 i went to a wedding dinner!
lols not bad la!
but the place is a little small... but the plus point is that the food is nice! ^^
quite tired coz i still have CIP　in the morning.
wah! the cip is super tiring lo...
must go house to house... 3 times leh!
ahh wells!
我想和外星人谈一场恋爱。

寻找梦想 11:30 AM

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YAYS! home early today...
i think my luck is turning for the better. :D
jiayous oh!
还有我发现男生在骑单车时特别帅，
男生穿篮球衣时特别帅，
男生帮女生挡别人的欺负时最帅！

寻找梦想 4:03 PM

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i dun feel like going school liao lo...
im like in the hols mood le...
haiz... totally nothing seems right for me this week lo.
2 days nvr go school liao...
today take the bus seems abit weird.
and to tie my hair, i woke up abit earlier ohkay! haha and make me nearly late somemore. hahas
i juz wna watch my drama!!! :D

寻找梦想 5:18 PM

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在看原来我不帅。。。
看着不戏，给我很多感想耶！
虽然小莊（林俊杰）不帅，但是他人真的很好耶！
看久了，不对他心动也难了。
而且，我看到了男生追求女生的努力。真的很感动。
他那份不要求回报，但是默默爱着她的那份心意，看久了心都会溶化。
而且，不帅归不帅，久而久之，还蛮顺眼的耶！

最近啊！我看完了那本寻找四片叶的奇迹。。。
还不错哦！
那个男生。。。原来达从一开始就喜欢那个女生了。
那个女生也不是什么温柔体贴，又淑女的人。。。
可是那个男生就是喜欢她的真诚，她的真实。
我觉得啊！这样的男生才算是成熟的吧！
我看过的男生都在憧憬着像公主般温柔，小鸟依人的女生。
拜托，其实我很想对你们说。。。 你们也太肤浅了吧！
这种女生。。。不就是那些装腔作势，假扮楚楚可怜的女生吗？
偏偏你们这些男生还是那么情愿的上当。
看看我，眼光就不同啦！
别以为我会向往那种王子般的温柔。
大错特错。喜欢的类型就是要不一样才会有创意，有性格啊！
虽然很难找，但是我相信一定会被我遇到的！
哇哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！

哦！对了！昨天看到郑元畅上了娱乐百分百。。。
才赫然发现原来他的身高是我在找的 perfect height!
188 cm！ 哇！天啊！
不过哦！它的唱功不是很好耶！

还有。。。为了恋爱，人是不是会傻掉啊?

近两天一直有相邀去秘密基地的冲动。
或许是太寂寞了吧。。。

寻找梦想 10:48 AM

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眼睛好象很容易疲惫。
然后想一想才发现自己好象经常虐待自己的眼睛。
看书啦！看电视剧啦！还常常哭。。。
我好象没有好好照顾我的灵魂之窗！
所以现在他再和我抗议了吧！
一会儿一会儿痛痛的。。。
唉！自作孽不可活。。。
读完了一本书。。。 本以为不好读，因为前面显得拖拖拉拉的。
但是到后来才发现还不错哦！
这样的男生，有点童话梦幻型，又有点真是！棒啊！
下次再说。。。 本来集中力已经不够了。。。
加上眼睛刺痛。。。我去休息了。。。 唉！

寻找梦想 6:10 PM

at home alone...
feel a little pity somehow...
today school ends like super early? 1240pm leh!
but i cant go to school!
my eye is still red... sobs :/
ytd i think i freak out a lot lo...
my left eye is like totally blood red and swollen.
im scared... thx many many to those who are concern abt me and send me your regards.
thank you! i will get better de! :D hopefully...
thank you loads siyu for accompanying me to the doc! <333
i would never have done it myself...
i nvr go to the doc myself b4.
thx for comforting me and accompanying me all the way to the clinic.
thank you! for listening to all my nonsensical worries.
although my eye is still swollen but with all the pple wishing me well,
i know that i will definitely get better!
but... there is also a weird taste in my mouth...
make me feel like puking leh...
ohnos it's here again... why? ohnos!
i hope i will be fine by nxt week, i dunwan to spoil another plan...
today im supposed to go out for lunch and shop... and starbucks with pam!
ahh! this week is just not my week. :(

寻找梦想 10:44 AM

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好久好久没有过得那么悠闲。
今天让我整个心情都超好的！
好开心哦！
今天以大早起床，吃了早餐，看了电视，就好期待接下来的安排。
本以为迟起所以会迟到，但是爸爸接我去哦！所以准时了！
还吃了午餐！ 棒极了！
我们啊！竟然也不怕迷路什么的。。。
直接朝一个陌生的地方出发！
不过，去得还真是对呢！
虽然下起雨了，但是到了那里，我们就觉得那里的气氛超好的！
已经去就有梦幻的感觉！完全就是我想找的 feel!
走过那些漂亮的被子和蛋糕，心情就变得超好了！
当我们进去时，我们是唯一的客人哦！
超有气氛和隐私的！
坐在角落的位子，很兴奋。
平时，有人帮我拉椅子的时候，我都特别紧张不自在。。。
我以为只有男生啦，我才会这样。。。
但是今天那位女服务生也帮我拉了椅子。。。我也显得格外不自在呢！
哈哈！不过我会慢慢适应的！
点了一杯 mocha and tiramisu!
超好喝，也很好吃哦！
简直就是在梦幻的天堂中享受了一个下午。
悠哉的看书。。。发发呆。
特别喜欢这样的感觉。。。
谢谢你陪我度过那么愉快的下午哦！
别忘了我们的约定！:D

若大家想知道那间 cafe 在哪里的话。。。
我不想在这里说。。。
因为那时我们的秘密基地！
如果你真的很想知道，并且亲自问我。。。
我可以考虑考虑。。。看要不要告诉你。呵呵！

寻找梦想 9:46 PM

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wahaha went huiyuan's house today to play mahjong!
yays! her mahjong set look super cool la!
*jumps*
i wna play all day long...
haiz and im getting very sensitive when pple mention that topic...
easily emo-ed...
but i think i controlled it well today bah..
but i juz cant stand the way the pple gave me the sympathetic look...
like ohmygod...so low... but nvm la
that kind... see their shocked looks...
then i feel down, yes again.
but ohwells, i promise i will make miracles happen again...
make all of u wna hit me...
not give me the 'ohmygod u get so low' look...i wont get despised.
even if i do... i will juz make ur specs drop!
wait for it!
^^
haha which top shld i wear tmr?

寻找梦想 8:43 PM

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发现宝物了！
我误打误撞接到了一本有关于泡澡的书。。。
有教导我们用什么东西泡澡对身体最好哦！
去台湾的时候，便可以派上用场了哦！
所以现在我在猛抄-ing!哈哈！
抄下那些比较简单又方便的！
女生们，要秘笈的话，可以和我要哦！
不错的呢！
对了！我发现这次决定去台湾真是明智之举！
因为越来越多好事发生了哦！
我的另外几个表弟也要去呢！
所以终于找到人陪我坐过山车了！

好期待！
和某女友人的读书秘密幽会！
pamela 请我喝 starbucks!
和 haiwei and cons 的打耳洞约定！
和4I 大家的 KBOX！
和4I 的chalet!
和 haiwei 去 zoo!
去台湾！
YAYS!

寻找梦想 9:10 PM

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