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cantiaohai aka mini_ds

retarded that is...

寻找梦想 8:49 PM

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ohmygod watching campus superstar now haha coz got fahrenheit!
haha yanyalun is like so the damn shuai la!
woots i din go to sch today leh. coz i sneeze like hell last night.
so i ate medicine and went to slp till 10 in the morning today...
i totally pia my gp today but then still cnt make it leh...
halfway through lidat sure die lo!
ohwells, haha i receive quite a number of sms today and i felt warm!
thz everyone who missed me and asked abt me! *loves*
alrights, thats abt all lo... stuck at home doing gp...
my life is great man, totally haiz...
feel the stress again argh!

寻找梦想 8:41 PM

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haha ohkay i shall blog abt sat and sun!
sat i go JJ concert!!!! wheeeeeee!
we went to city hall then take 16, i was so sorry coz i was like late for 15mins...
ohwells, the bus 16 a lot of pple take lo... first bus zoom past...
the 2nd bus can take la, but still got a lot of pple!
ohmygod, i juz step up one step only and i was totally being pushed up la! ohmygod
then i feel got a person stick to me very closely then im like ohkay... hmm...
haha then my back felt boobs so i think that it's a girl so it's ohkay lo...
but i still turned arnd and ohmygod it's a guy! i like immediately try to step away frm him a bit lo haha but forgiveable la since he doesnt look that bad hehe
i went to the kallang shopping centre to eat subway again lo haha
then we went to the entrance... haha im afraid that my chips will like get confiscated or smth
but the person did check us hehe
he check at random lo lols then we went to the seats! lols i was so excited! haha
sat down there and saw liting coming down...
she gave me the poster lo coz she have already yay!
then the concert starts and wooooooo im getting so high!!!!
i love the songs he sing and ohmygod wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
i love the part whereby he sing 简简单单and then only the piano as music and then he let us sing the chorus and the whole stadium boomed with the song! everyone was singing and i feel so touched! he said: 好美的声音！woots! im like so happy la
haha then got this lucky girl went up to stage and sat beside him on the piano seat and then they went down to the backstage tgth la! so 幸福！
ohman, we missed the last song lo... juz to catch the public transport...
i reach tiong le still needa take cab. honestly i quite scared la, midnight leh.
so dark and like no one lidat argh!
but i did reach home safely la yay!
haha slept until 10 plus today then have to get ready to leave for taman jurong
wah i think that this is a very meaningful cip leh...
we can understand some to their problems and emphatize with them lo.
haiz, some are juz so sad. and i meet a lot of pple which is another good thing.
i was talking to charles and roland abt our sch la then roland was like saying that he knw a guy whose son is currently studying at rv as well... and guess who he says...
jiangyan! argh! when i heard that name i shocked and qianhui burst out laughing...
ohman, why do i like see him everywhere and hear him everywhere????
still got teased by charles and roland! argh1 im going mad!
and i think that im down with flu or smth. sneeze like mad! haiz

寻找梦想 9:54 PM

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scholar leader meeting... hah got back my personality results and i have to say that they are quite accurate haha, on the other hand, i knw myself well.
im feeling sleepy now but then i definitely need to pia my hmwk...
hoho went to eat with my mum juz now and i saw a bunch of campus superstar pple.
lols, they were like down there eating and i cant help but wonder why i always see those pple on the streets but none that i like?
zzz, none that i can go mad over and like jumo in front to get the autograph.
NONE
of all the singapore celebs that i have seen, none make me have the urge to go up to them.
and i have to remind myself that im in singapore.
wad can i get?
i cnt possibly expect haruma miura to suddenly walk past me right...
that will only happen in my dream...
is it in our genes? that singapore pple juz dun look as good as the pple from other countries?
basically, on the whole we are only considered average...
well, i cnt deny that some look quite good, but haiz, they are always not the pple arnd me...
whereas u go to taiwan, japan and USA and europa and australia and NZ, u can spot many shuai guys along the streets. It's kinda unfair u knw.
even our own celebs are not shuai... haiz...

so... anyway, im still looking forward to JJ concert.
anticipating and excited

寻找梦想 3:25 PM

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风吹过了峡谷，吹到了南极，吹到你耳边，传递了我的心思。

虽然有少少的不自在，但是我会习惯一切的。
我是不是很脆弱呢？什么都想哭。
想一想，其实我也应该算是蛮敏感的吧？
哈哈，什么时候我可以大吃大喝, 尽情地玩？
像小小滴的雨点飘啊飘啊！

juz all crap la. juz im a little deprived of not writing all these kind of stuff for a long long time.
ohwells, i pia-ed math with shiyuan and tzehui at theh library today...
then me and shiyuan went subway to eat again...
same guy... embarrassment argh! he laughed at me again... ohwells...
had fun! woots! happy!

JJ CONCERT!!!!

but sadded got loads of gp hmwk...

寻找梦想 7:42 PM

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*jumps about hit the knee and cry*
i hope i can cry it all out wad with all the stress pressing on me now.
but i seldom cry coz of stress or results now, dunno why. maybe i have grown up. haha
maybe i shall go watch koizora again, then i will have a reason to cry.
school has been alright... working on everything and i dun have enough time at all.
haiz, tests coming up in april. how long do i have to endure this la...
endure all the way until after 'a' levels and then enjoy during my uni time! hah i totally hope that will come soon and i can get into the course that i desire.
ohwells... ohya! i hit my elbow on the toilet bowl last night.
i 'ouch' softly and turn it arnd and i saw it bleeding la! Pain!
haiz... washed the wound and put on a plaster....
i think that only with pain then i can feel that im alive.
my life is totally a routine now and i think it suck.
my life... i have no life at all. at least last year, i still get to write and draw and think about all the inspirational stuff and write novels and participate in this course and that...
now, i wna participate in a certain competition also needa think twice.
i think i wna die.... gosh. 2 years
wads 2 years to me! Jiayi can do it!
thats the only motivation i have now...
haha
btw, i was sooooo hungry today. no break at all leh coz of the GP 'test' la...
argh, during econs tutorial, i drew drumstick and this and that and look at it and chew..
haha kena spotted by miss lee... haiz, hungry la!
but she's nice to let us off slightly earlier to eat smth.
i swalloed 4 fishballs haah!
<3 fishballs!

寻找梦想 8:37 PM

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yozzz!
lols today ohkay lo, nothing much rly happened...
haiz but im kinda stressed over all the gp things and the cca stuff lo.
Champs lesson got talk abt careers... ohkay la, i have high hopes for my future.
but i dunno whether i can make it a not..
i will definitely try my best! and i will 努力！

习惯。每天仰头望天变成了我的一种习惯。
微笑。呆呆的看着你傻笑。这是一种喜欢，还是一种爱？
动力。你变成我生存下来，继续努力的动力！

我喜欢这种喜欢你的感觉。爱一个人有时会比被爱还来得幸福。
很庆幸在这种悲伤的时刻，喜欢上你，让我的心也有一种寄托。

寻找梦想 8:55 PM

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wah... i feel even more busy now even though it's like after the hols...
hmm... today my mood is like so-so lo...
ohkay, today's PW lesson is ohkay la, continued to crap lo.. coz ahem nvr come in lo.
haha so today still quite ohkay...
haha during chem tutorial i think im like quite lost coz mr wong kept looking at me. oops.
tmr got cca, even more stressed now...
oho, but now abit emo... now even more so, but now is more of a little pissed and a little 无奈。。。
今天，看到了zhengyang and haiwei, 不看到，感觉还不会那么起那个列。。。
看到过后，我才真正发现自己是由多么想念他们。。。
想回去以前的时候，可以一直在一起。。。
看吧！我马上就那么感伤了。。。

还有还有，我不明白。。。 为什么有些人那么的故意。。。
是他们的个性吗？不想告诉我的，何必暗示着暗示哪呢？
拜托，你又不是第一天认识我了，你明明知道我没那么敏感，反应有一点迟钝。。。
我是不可能了解你在说什么的。
haiyo, i dunwna care le la...

寻找梦想 8:04 PM

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ohoho, today wake up then i gave the damn sian diao face to the ceiling... ohman...
i not willing at all lo, flipped over my bed and off my alarm...
thinking abt having to wake up everyday at like 6 plus makes me super sick.
i actually wna pon today's sch de lo coz i like have pe first thing in the morning...
argh! and also dunno combine with wad class la...
haiz, then still got 3 hr consecutive break. soooooo tempted to pon. and juz slp u knw.
but in the end i still dragged myself up. i always lidat de lo. see i so nice hor haha
went to sch... i like totally deely and dally here and there and walk slowly....
haha but im still not late. lols NZ pple coming to our sch today! and i got a couple of frens hosting them so i can like ask them more and can interview them too hooray! hope we can meet the edit deadline safely. hoho some pple asking me whether they can join edit a not.
ooh edit is expanding! im glad lo! haha ohkay...
今天一大早心情就特别好。i ran 6 rounds today.
supposed to be pretest of napfa. haizzz i was still wondering without haiwei how am i gna run well la. sec 3 and sec 4 we were the best running mates lo! ohman, she run like abt the same speed as me and we like can totally pace each other and motivate each other de la.
our timing always go arnd 15 mins and 14 mins lidat!
i rmb the first 14 mins run in my life is run with haiwei de lo. 14.41 haha lols then u knw wad u knw wad! haha today i ran 14.49 leh! aft i run past mr john tan, he said my timing and im like ohmygod wooooooo! haha damn amazing la. at first i run with shiyuan and tzehui.
lols for the first 2 plus rounds i think. then shiyuan totally speed up!
she run very fast leh... then me and tzehui lagged behind lo.
then like 4 round plus lidat i lagged behing tzehui le... totally cnt make it.
then i walked for awhile then run on my own lo. 5th round, hmmm i got walk a bit also.
haha but the result is amazing haha i shall run at their pace for the real test!
so that sorta make my day! haha 心情很好。
then got the three hour break, ate and printed all the stuff and also did my econs case study.
haha i did quite a lot but also make myself damn sleepy.
haizzzzzz, nearly lost my thumbdrive today.. went arnd telling pple and sulking...
then in the end it was like at some small corner at the com beside tzehui lo.
i muz have left it there when i talked to her. ohman, i stupidly forget to take it with me...
but thank god i found it back... so my 好心情is back too!
haha geog din do anything much... mainly admin and ms tan tell us abt our graded research paper. lols this is much better than test la. i think test i will die.
so much info how to memo la zzzzz
ohkay, then my 好心情 totally continued on for the rest of the day until...
err, we were like very lucky to have mrs lee lee mui as our PW teacher also.
ohman, i have never been taught by her before and i think that i will be quite scared of her leh.
although throughout my 4 yrs in rv, she din scold me or anything, but argh!
dunno la, stressed leh. scared will be criticise by her then i break down or smth.
haiz, 见招拆招。。。 船到桥头自然直。。。
all i can do is now is hope for the best lo.




如果放手对你来说太难的话，那我会尽量去避开。
让你我都受少点儿伤。
心上裂开的伤口，就让它慢慢的愈合吧！

ooh haha lols no inspiration now la... juz now i bathe that time still have de lo ohwells.

寻找梦想 6:16 PM

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lols haha today is the day we went to the marina floating platform.

寻找梦想 8:20 PM

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wah.. com lagging again.. dunno wads it problem la...
hiazzz, school is like reopening 2 days later and i still have loads of hmwk unbale to finish.
i think im like gna die a terribel death lo.
haha yea, ohwells. but im still looking forward to tmr class cip,
i was still wondering how to go lo... my dad said wna bring me there.
the key word is BRING! not DRIVE! argh!
then like wads the point la... dunno why he doesnt like to drive the car back frm his office. ohwells. luckily my classs peeps meeting tgth at city hall, otherwise...
GP... total killer, cnt finish anything la. i completed the readings ytd night...
i read until 12am lo! wah! argh and i havent complete the allocated tasks yet...
and geog! DRQ qn i also havent set.
i think im rly dying la. ytd got edit cca. haha went to jennie hse and i practically raided her hse of food. lols i keep eating classic lays and fishballs! the classic lays is nice! but i did share ohkay!
haha fishballs, haha did i mention that i love fihsballs? haha
i went to eat a lot and a lot. and ohmygod, i choked on it la
damn scary... i can rly feel a small piece of fishball stuck in my throat...
then no one came to help me leh... constance was like sitting by the com staring and laughing at me and jennie very helpfully screamed to the whole world: Our president is choking.
lols wth how helpful.. ohwells i managed to get that little piece out of my throat.
ohya, we were all quite amazed at jennie's terrapins and how one committed sucide.
haha lols she said one day it suddenly disappeared and they highly suspect that it climbed out and jumped down the balcony... ohwells maybe being a terrapin is tough too.
haha discussed quite a lot of things and i din notice the time flying. lols
haha after that we took several relevant pics and all went home
except for me coz i requested jennie to accompany me to north point to take a few pics.
haha we ate the ramen there and of course it is nice! i recommend de leh haah
so we ate and i rush down to bugis to take some more pics and
ate chicken rice with my mum. haha my mum loves to take me and go eat chicken rice at soem ulu corner of the world... we ate chicken rice at some chinatown alley last time...
but i must admit that the chicken rice there is nice haha!
still got small dishes! lols ohwells, bought a lot of wrapping paper. nice and cheap.
btw, im still being buried by that pile of humungous workload...
haha oh and ya, somehow i feel like bringing nothing to cip tmr...
coz like nothing to bring and i think bring a bag for the sake of bringing a bag is sorta dumb...
lols so i shall not bring a bag haha and i shall change my wallet for the day, coz
my toushiro wallet is too fat to be fitted into my back pocket... hhaa
i debated with my mum over this coz she wanted me to bring water and umbrella.
but dunwan la, lazy hehe hope me and siyu wears the same pants tmr! jiayou!

寻找梦想 12:14 PM

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haha today a lot of 感触。
今天自己一个人在家里。。。 闲着无聊，胡思乱想了一下。。。
我想起了以前教过的学生。amos...
小小年纪给我大大的安全感。长大会变成更好的男生呢！
被人欺负的我，有它为我出头。他才小三耶！
哇！太感动了！ ^^
他会和别人说其实我很好。。。
好久没有看到他了，所以，有一点想他。
我和他根本就没有任何可以联络的方法。刚刚自己就在想，以后还会不会遇到他呢？
遇到了呢？他还会认得我吗？还会记得我吗？
他在我十六岁的阶段里留下了很深刻的印象。
是他，保护过我，为我出头。
我根本不像他的姐姐，反而他比较像哥哥。很可笑吧，明明就我比较大。。。
他给我安全感。。。 为什么他不要早出世十年呢？
或许，那样的话，我根本就不会遇见他。
缘分，希望我和他的缘分还没有走到尽头。希望有一天能再一次碰到他。

今天的感触真的很多。也没什么心情做功课。
想到三浦春马，想到爱樱井弘树。。。
如果真的能够认识他，那该有多好。
飞轮海要来开签唱会了，我该不改去呢？
不知道啦。。。 乱麻麻的。
还是早点睡了吧，明天还有 cca 呢。。。
加油了，同伙们！

寻找梦想 8:21 PM

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hoho today i din go for the students leader workshop...
felt a little guilty, coz editorial wont have representative.
haiz, but i rly cnt go. i gog flu...
sneezing like mad today... and sniffing.
so i decided against watching koizora again coz i knw i will cry like mad and that will definitely add to the sneeaing problem.
dun manage to complete a lot of hmwk today. i think i will die.
and hor, siyu msg me that i din submit my math assignment.
i did i did!
i submitted ytd lo, ohwells i shall submit again then...
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

寻找梦想 7:27 PM

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haha went to watch departure le... lols bought popcorn! solo-ed!
haha but in the end i cnt finish la haha lols
cry until cnt finish....
lols this is a movie that din prick me deep in my heart but left me crying nonetheless.
this is not the worst that i have cried. ohgosh and shiyuan they all are
like saying that i cry until very bad le leh
like the whole theatre can hear me cry, they can hear me sniff.
budden hor, they see me cry for koizora i think they will be damn stun.
coz i will cry until like mad... my veins on my head nearly popped up.
i think this movie is not bad... sad and nice...
but i think it's not the best. it's quite slow... haha but i had a fun time...
ate KFC haha nice lols and went to walk arnd... haha
saw this M shop haah forgot the name.
then i saw rings! similar to those in koizora.
damn tempted to buy!!!! i even found the size!
budden hor, i found the guy and the girl ring! wooooo
super tempted to buy! haha
but sadded la, no one wear with me. xinyu say can wear with her...
haiz, she is my bf la budden hor haha she is more like the girl than me ahah so is qianhui...
lols see the rings then like no one wear tgth with me then im like *sighs*
then put back lo! i rly like it! haha see how, if one day i rly decided to buy, maybe i buy the girl's one only bah, or maybe i buy 3 girl's one... no... a lot of girl's one and give all the girls i love! ><

寻找梦想 8:38 PM

see see see today i very early wake up leh...
ohgosh, i woke up at like 830 am to pee but then hor.. saw a crockroach and im like argh!
then i jumped out of the room closed the door and slept in the living room.
but i couldnt get to slp so wake up, played a few games on my phone and did the profilinf test.
ohkay la i think quite fun leh ahha
later go watch movie at vivo with a few pple frm 5k.
we watching departure, haha hope will be nice. popcorn and nachos here i come!
u shll be my lunch! mwhahahaha
later also doing hmwk shiyuan... first time starting since the hols.
muz work extra hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wheeeee

寻找梦想 10:11 AM

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ahh, dun understand dun understand! *pulls hair*
why is everything so complicated?!
i thought i was your best fren? but then im like... dunno anything abt you!
you changed... changed to someone i dunno.
you told me one thing and then u did another. you were so certain and yet wad did i hear???
i thought i was your best fren? and yet i have to hear things of you from the others?
u cnt trust me with your truest feelings? thats why u had to lie?
haiz, im waiting. waiting for u to tell me everything.
i juz want u to knw that no matter wad u think and how u feel abt me.
i will always treat u as my best fren and i am always behind u...
supporting u and will be there for u. thats wad frens are for, right?

how can i be doubting her and how can i be doubting myself?
but your actions tell me otherwise. ohgosh. feel like crying.. but no tears flow.
is it because deep down in my heart i knw that it's not worth crying over it?
or is there a lingering thought that i knw that u will still tell me all and im your best fren deep in your heart too. that the best fren i knw is still there?
that u have not changed? and is that we all have grown? is that all?

今天开心又不开心。买了很多很喜欢的东西！
一起出去的人也很喜欢！
很谈得来，很投机。是很好的狂欢对象！
漂亮，虽然花了很多钱，但是心里觉得很满足，很值得！
。。。 幸好有你，陪我分担这一切。
让我知道一切都会没事的。谢谢。谢谢知道事情的所有人，安慰我。。。
谢谢，我会没事的，真的。

See, so emo hor haha but now settle le.
i thought u din treat me as best fren... so sry that i doubted u...
i apologize... i am happy that wad i heard is not true and even more happy that i knw that u are not lying to me! i am sooooo happy.
dun worry, i will condemn the guy! i will help u and support u!

haha shiva called me leh! shiva is the boy that i once taught last year during voluntary work at singapore children society!
ohmygod, he sent letter to me and called me! my heart feel so warmed!
yay!!!! im getting happier and happier! wah!!!
i missed amos, siti and lyanna. and all the children at scs! *loves*

寻找梦想 7:32 PM

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wah why is everything so complicated.
why cant my life be a little more simple? haiz, am i really that dense?
ohgod, i dun understand wad he and wad she is thinking about...
is that called love? so confusing?
ohman, then i rather i be in love with haruma, hiro, kyou, chunxi, zheyu, syaoran, kurogane, and a lot more guys lo!
haiz... anyway, i dun care la...
throw all those things away and dun let the things that bother me bother me anymore!
i shall go and have a good time and ignore the pile of hmwk i have....
haha went to my grandma hse today and had fun with my cousins.
lols i rly did ignored my hmwk la... haha
ohwells, haha im in a very good mood now!
coz the presents i gave out got appreciated and im happy!
thats why im always happy on pple bdae de! yay!!!!!!!!
hope everyday i can be happy like this and everyone will be happy too!
必胜!

寻找梦想 9:30 PM

wah! huge huge problem here and there.
also dunno wad to do, why is my life so complicated?
first everything happen one me.... some pple say i very prominent in sch, very well-liked.
while the some pple tell me that there are pple spreading rumours abt me, badmouthing me.
then now? ohmygod smth happened again.
why are they lidat! sometimes i rly wna be a robot.
like that i can study everyday in peace and be happy forever and
also dun have to care about wad others think and wad they are gna do.
AHHHHHHHH!!!! the agony...
haiz, i juz wna shop happily.
my dad bought me a charger... hope there wont be any prob with it again...

寻找梦想 11:29 AM

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Wah! today woke up at like 6am! first day of sch hols then have to wake up so early lo.
took 30 all the way to boonlay! im like one of the first to arrive...
so i waited lo. but on the bus i think a little scary leh...
coz all guys! a lot a lot of guys and they are like all those kind of labourers...
then they like look at me weirdly, like i cannot be on the bus lidat lo.
ohman, i feel damn intimidated. ohgosh!
then at some bus stop, they all alighted then i finally can sit down...
stone all the way to boonlay... still din manage to see new RV, i din even knw where it is lo.
lols. saw huien there... haha her fren also havent come yet so we chatted.
haiz, her grades damn good, i feel so sad and inferior.
haiz, i suck.
ohwells, went there.. the bus is filled with a lot of other JC pple lo.
so we were like thinking the others alight then we alight lo.
budden tonjing was like saying wad if everyone is waiting for everyone...haha
heyy, somehow my phone charger cnt work leh.
now my phone no batt has to borrow my mum's.
dunno why my phone cnt detect leh! argh! first my com then now this!
i think that the seminar not bad la. i think that the lectures are quite interesting...
juz that too many talks le lo! haiz, i slept through 2 of them at the back...
no more concentration le... guilty~
but today i like damn suay! like ytd 13th friday de unluckiness today then gimme lidat.
at first, we went for lunch and then i din see the step and ohmygod nearly fell in front of a lot of pple! Ahh paiseh!
then during lunch, i ate some yu pian mi fen tang....
then got 2 insects! 1 sec i was drinking frm the soup then the other sec it was there le.
din knw is fly inside or inside already le lo
damn disgusting! YUCKS!
then we went to the auditorium for their open house.
saw the faculty that i wna get in and after seeing the brochures it make me feel even more wna go lo!!! yay! hope that i get good enough results lo.
then we walked up there that time, i nearly tripped... stepped someone on the lower calf...
and ohmygod la! haiz i think still got somemore de lo!
haha u knw wad... at first i ask spencer whether he got slp a not... he say he din.
immediately aft the break, he slept haah and funnily also...
i lauhged like mad... i think all of us laugh until vibrated so he woke up and he looked at me
and we both looked away and i continued laughing like mad... ahahah
aft the whole seminar end is like 5pm lo so i took mrt back to school.
wah long time nvr be cadet liao lo. so huai nian!
played and talked with my pltn mates!
i love them and missed them la. heart to heart talk and this and that.
i din even eat dinner... haha i would love to stay overnight lo.
but then my mum dun allow, i wna stay, cant bear to leave.
although we have always been in differnt classes but i rly have to say that our bond is still there lo. always there! im so happy that we are gathered tonight again.
looking at the UG night performances, it brought back so many memories...
haiz, im like i miss NCC!!!!!!
We will always be there for one another! LOVES!

寻找梦想 10:36 PM

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wah! i dunno wad exactly happened to my com la!
damn lag! i suspect got some other pple go ans use my connection leh!
ARGH! went to anchorpoint again to eat lunch with huiyuan...
haha imeating grapes now... so type very slowly haah
my hp got new games sent by tzehui! excited!
and im learning the song... first love!!!!! wooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
b4 i being buried by hmwk to death... i shall go and have fun tmr and i shall blog more tmr bah!
anticipating~
HARUMA MIURA!

寻找梦想 8:33 PM

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went for the NRP briefing today... i met all the requirements...
i have the interest and im willing to be committed to it
but im still hesitating. if every wed i have to go down to NTU, then wad am i supposed to do abt my cca? i cnt change the whole meeting time juz becoz i cnt make it mah...
and wad time can i change it to la...
that is a tough decision. ohgod
wad shld i do leh... i knw that this NRP is a very good opportunity and not that everyone can be qualified to go de lo but then wad abt my cca?
haiz... i dunno why my com keep laggin nowadays...
i scan le... no virus no infections leh
haiz, feel like slacking all day long but then hor the enormous pile of hmwk is soooo making me guilty. haiz, im looking forward to the econs seminar on sat.
haha i seem to like this kind of things a lot haha ohkay...
i shall buck up and pia and learn how to choose and decide!
hope that i did pick on the right things and that the things i pick... the benefits will outweigh the opportunity cost haha!

寻找梦想 8:44 PM

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喜欢看着天空的感觉，我知道自己有点不可思议。。。

寻找梦想 5:36 PM

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看了恋空，我哭到快要断气了。哭到有点晕眩。。。
那个男生好帅。。。 弘树。。。
可是，他却还是难逃命运，化成了天空。
他为了美嘉。。。想要把全部痛苦往自己身上扛。。。
痛。。。 我为他而痛。。。

他曾经幸福过，现在也很幸福与呢。
他们绝对不是陌生人，是一对恋人。。。爱得好深。

望着心爱的女人不能幸福，那是个差劲的男生。。。 他们都不是。

hiro... ohmygod! everyone go watch koizora!
i cry for one hour plus plus plus!!!

寻找梦想 9:45 PM

wah... you knw wad... today i reached home at like 415pm!!!
415pm!!! woots! haha if i take the normal detour home, i will like reach like 445pm lo.
budden hor i bathed and it is still 445pm! woo!!!!!!
and i ate the marshmallows that yushan aka my angel gave me!
wahhhhhh so happy today!
you knw why i reach home so early? coz ms lee ( my form teacher aka my pw teacher aka my econs teacher) haha during pw...we were all so tired all so sian and sleepy... as usual.
but today i totally feel like dozing off when ms lee came over and asked me whether im going home straight after lessons... haah im like ya......
then she say she send me home!!!! woots!
I waited for her at the side gate and we cab home! wah!!!! damn cool! super kai xin!
My mood is very good now lols. online and like only 3 pple online at first.
so happy!~
although got a lot of hmwk and have to read a lot of things and have to settle a lot of cca stuff...
budden there are still things that i look forward to during the hols.
no time to do everything but but but haha still got go shopping with frens and maybe outings!
haha and im gna cut my hair... makeeover!!! haha
i shall learn to be more and more demure haha

寻找梦想 5:03 PM

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woah, haiz, today heard the announcement then im like thinking that die liao die liao...
my hols totally gone liao...
i got CIP and outings and cca and SL seminars...
and loads and loads of hmwk. ohmygod!
how am i gna cope.
i have to write all the GP articles coz i owe all of them and then have to revise geog and
read this and read that and do this and do that.
argh! I totally wish taht i can slp till 10am every morning and that i can juz slack at home all day lo... how i wish.
but the hor, i dun even have time! i dun have time to play and relax and write my story and read my books and my comics!
argh haiz!

寻找梦想 9:32 PM

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wah! today is like damn fun wheeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahas, we went to dohby gaut to celeb qianhui bdae! We went to swensens to treat her
turns out that qianhui is actually the 1st one to reach lo, haiz so paiseh
ask bdae girl to wait leh, when i was on the...(juz board only)
then xinhui called me telling me that she will be late... then huiyuan tell me she will be late...
lols ohkay lo... haha i smsed xinhui telling her that qianhui reached le leh!
and i havent... ohmygod then i looked up and saw that shit im supposed to alight.
hahs rushed down the bus, wah scary la. today i went out of hse forgetting to bring her prezzie.
lols went back to take la of course, kena scolded by my mum. she say so impt still can forget.
lols haha we waited until like 11.15am then we went tgth... beishan and xinhui went to buy cake.
when i reach i saw qianhui behind the pillar then i went to scare her. haha so funny!
but the person said no outside food lo! ohwells... so we cnt eat the cake in swensens.
we sang bdae song for her haha like everyone there heard lol
we ordered pizza and burgers and chicked and baked rice! yay!
and ice cream! coz qianhui bdae, they gave her free icecream! so cool

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today got meeting lo... so woke up at like 7am...
wah totally dunwna wake up. so tiring...
then when i was in the toilet im heard raindrops.
the rain damn heavy, but i still dragged myself to school haha
discussed a bit here and there and ya.... reflected.
then hor we danced the mass dance and went home at like 11 plus,
at least it's quite early... alrights, i think im gna watch lian kong the movie today.
haha online of course dunno whether have a not, i have been wanting to watch that for a long long time. haha yea! and my dad at home today leh.
at night he confirm wont let me watch ai jiu zhai yi qi de...
so i shall watch online too! yay!
and tmr im looking forward to qianhui's bdae and going to mrs tan hse.
again, so near my hse! can go home straight away!
but of course i have loads of work to complete! Jiayou!

寻找梦想 12:23 PM

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omg! today is like damn nice coupled with a few accidents here and there la...as usual.
I woke up at like 6am today, then i went out of hse quite early leh.
i board 963... haha got a lot of seats but im like thinking a few stops only mah so i went to stand.
then i felt somebody standing damn close to me and his hand are like spread out behind me, holding the pole. so im like eh? then i looked to my left and looked up!
Ohmygod! i saw this damn shuai guy! at first i wna sms huiyuan de lo, but in this kind of situation and this kind of position, i totally dun dare to move haha
so we stayed in this position... lols ohkay no la. i shifted to his side a bit.
i swear abit only hor! im definitely not a stalker and im not sick!
haha lols tht guy is like wearing a black sweater and long green pants.
dunno wad school de... ahem *awkward coughs*
then the bus is like damn cold, so the windows are like all foggy foggy de.
I look to the front and i saw our reflections, and it's damn damn cool!
haha i love his height! he is like taller than me by totally a head!
perfect height! i stand there feeling so xingfu!!!!! yay!
He is kinda skinny but he got the build... haha shuai!!!
it's a wonder i still rmb to press the bell to alight but but but the driver nv let me alight!
I press bell le leh! omg! it juz zoom past the bus stop! shit!
I went frantic and pressed the bell a few more times and i panicked! Argh!
Im like frantically looking arnd and i met his gaze!
he was like giving me the err... look and im like err too.
and then at the nxt bus stop, i alighted.
if this is in some story book, then the guy will definitely speak up for the girl lo, will help her de.
but too bad this is reality la! maybe i shld add this setting in my plot haha
so that can sorta fulfil my dream lols i had no choice but to walk back to school la
told almost everybody abt this incident!
haha btw, im like seriously thinking abt my sexual orientation.
Am i straight? Lesbian? or am i bisexual?
Constance said im straight... and all those pple that i have a bit feelings for now is like admiration. and according to her is not those kind of relationship that kind of like.
haha i think so too leh, I AM STRAIGHT!
got back my math paper today... ohkay lo i guess juz that im super careless!
I AM A CARELESS FREAK!
hated myself for this. ohman, i suck! angry at myself. wna stab myself but then today i din emo alot la... juz a while. of course la coz i got motivation to complete the day of school!

Watched Suspect x with haiwei at vivo today and it's so nice so worth it!
Totally! it's abt solving this murder crime but hor it's damn cool!
Coz it's like math genius VS physics genius!
woots and the most impt thing is that there is a love story plot behing it lo.
the guy did everything to protect the girl he loved!
he loved her so deeply! so deeply that he can kill someone for her!
he tried to protect her from everything else and when he turn himself in to the police...
i cried coz it's like he set everything straight for the girl and make everything seems like is all he do one when actually is the girl who killed someone in the first place.
wah, i knw it's looks damn complicated but i strongly recommend pple to go and watch!
I din regret it and i never will! It's damn touching! me and haiwei was like 洒-ing 泪 at the end of the movie coz it was like damn sad.
the girl was guilty too... when she knw the truth that the guy actually went to all the efforts juz to keep her safe, she turned herself in too but i cried badly at that part lo.
coz it meant that wad the guy did was like to waste... haiz damn damn sad ARGH!
then we can hear sniffing throughout the whole theatre... lols all crying la...
haiz, you'all shld really go and watch! march hols i shld go and watch the drama! woots!
we saw this movie advertisement b4 the show started...
i wna watch the wads the name... err shit i forgot leh 12 rounds if im not wrong.
very action-packed! haha i wna watch looks cool!
and hor and hor race to witch mountain is up on 13th march!
haha that one is nice no doubt and the guy is shuai! lols i mean the younger one.
haha he stood in front of the car and it went smashing at him without him getting hurt at all!
Wah like edward cullen! yay yay!
haha went with haiwei to page one also at vivo. lagging b4 the movie start.
i saw twilight series and it reminded me that i wanted them for my bdae too!
ohkay... my bdae prezzie wishes are like:
~ the pair of pink rollerblades
~ the billabong hat (grey and white army style)
~ twilight series
~ inkheart, inkspell and inkdeath trilogy
~ maybe a new pencil case
~ maybe a new wallet
haha so far lidat la. later i may change again lols biut the first 4 is more or less confirmed.
hope my aunts and uncles can buy for me...

haha ohman i like vivo. a lot of happy memories down there.
always go there to eat after school... with all my frens!
Go watch movies there a lot of times also!
Go buy things there, lag there buy vday gifts last year with haiwei there too!
went with serming and zhengyang to buy farewell gift for our chi teacher last year also.
when i took the bus back home today, i looked at the vivo building and i feel omg suddenly.
watched the fountain and rmb my 16th bdae was spent at vivo too!
rmb that i met up with my frens, anna, huiyuan and constance and ate at burger king after my camp haha and received my first ever hitsugaya poster which is currently sticked beside my bed now! yay! my favourite zinc bag was bought there too! haha yay!
then at night, constance and zhengyang spent their dinner with me there too.
i still rmb that we bought jap food and went up to the sky park to eat, felt so nice.
lag with zhengyang and we walked like 2 bus stops in order for us to take bus tgth!
saw the fountain and it reminded me that me and zhengyang walked through it that night.
then when we walked through it the water bacomes smaller so like letting us through lidat.
when we pass it, the water burst up behind us! Argh! such memorable memories!

btw, i ate nachos juz now and dipped my double cheese burger in the cheese! yummy!

寻找梦想 7:34 PM

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wah, today got back 2 papers. chem and GP.
haiz haiz and triple haiz. gosh i think my report card is like damn ugly!
extreme grades lo! ohman, dunwan talk abt it le. will make me sian and emo de lo.
I think like most of the pple damn stressed up! LIKE ME!
today went to LKY school of public policy to listen to a talk! Damn cool!
haha we went there and got a lot of funny things happen lo!
We took the wrong bus the wrong turn and we ended up at HCJC and we knew immediately
that it's wrong already so we alighted... then we dunno where to go and so we split up and took a cab there lo! haha made it in time.
quite a nunber of schools went late so some dun have the seats and have to sit on the floor..
lols i think the talk very cheem lo but i can understand! yay!
i think that this talk very meaningful and NUS is so nice and huge la!
Make me waver... dunno whether shld aim for NTU or NUS...
wah, so excited lo, the lecturer comes from UK and although he spoke quite normally and talked for like 1 hour non stop but i somehow dun feel like slping.
yea, it's juz the Q&A part that i feel inferior...
all the uni students seem so clever and ask all those cheem chemm qns.
but can be understood la, they like master degree holders and PhD holders lo.
but it's still cool and i saw this guy from Canada. Spotted him when he asked a qn and i found that he quite shuai leh! Mwhahaha!
although today not very high, emotionally not very stable but it's still fun i guess.
yea, i think tmr will be better.. movie! whee!
hope my math test will be ohkay! Jiayous!

寻找梦想 9:21 PM

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ooh... today had a kinda bad morning... haiz woke up at 5am and i dun slp very well for the next hour... PE today was hell! 8 rounds outer round leh i thought i can do it de lo when i had cramp at the third round... i told qianhui who was like running beside me that i had cramp.
but i thought it will go away, so i continued running until the 5th round...
haiz then i totally cannot le and i stopped, sat at one corner alone and groaning in pain... ARGH!
then iris and sheila came and helped me abit, then my class pple started to come over and helped me and i stretch awhile and tried to stand up...
haha and i ran for half a round with everyone pushing me on but i still cnt... haiz, the pain.
then i went to rest and chloe and yimin helped me massage... god mr tan is like sadistic lo,
he poked my calf and then said wah very hard leh confirm cramp...
like erm, obviously, i cramp leh.
ohkay then i started to walk leaning on qianhui and huangyao.
climb slope lo... sian then a lot of pple at the tutorial rooms asked me am i ohkay, embarrased la.
白痴！不会小心一点吗？我背你。
dunno why nowadays this kind of words keep popping into my mind. too deeply sinked into the story books storyline haha.
today i knw who my angel is le! it's yushan! haha i got suspect her also la...lols
nice game leh i like all the gifts that my angel and mortal give me! woots!
i read qiongshan's letter than i feel damn warm and damn touched haha! so nice!

真正的爱情不就是无怨无悔地保护她，让她开心地吗？
根本不需要和她告白，不需要让她知道，全部只要她幸福就好。
只能待在她的身边和她说话，陪着她就够了不是吗？
可是，我怎么在你身上看不到这一些。。。
越来越讨厌你了，听到了你不稀罕我的话语。。。
是吗？原来，我在你心目中是这样的人啊！
我还。。。把你当很好的朋友。
没有我，你会更快乐吧？
如果我们从来都不曾相识， 如果我们从来都没有遇到，对你，对我，是不是会更好？
是我自作多情了，以为我们至少曾经坏死好朋友。
但是你也说过了吧，我们根本不熟，原来要和你做朋友那么不简单。
原来我从没有走入你心里。。。
不要紧了，我不会再在意， 不会再为你哭泣。
虽然很痛，可是还是让我们把曾经我以为很美好的记忆抛开吧。
忘记，不肯但适应开会时我们之间最好的办法。
算了，我想我应该放手，或许彼此当陌生人才是对的。

above is my opinions of several storybooks, haha wna knw more ask me personally bah!
today i think CCA not bad haha make me have hope again! whee
明天会更好！

寻找梦想 7:37 PM

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三月三日！！！！

洪正阳！生日快乐！



wah, we bought this cone thing with inspirational words on it for him and this toilet sign that is like "coz im boss thats why! "
haha i think damn cool leh! hope he will like it!
i still got buy him smth else myself... muz be smth special mah!
hahs, i saw this collection of bookmarks that is like some 泡妞窍门!
haha i knw lame but i think it's nice! haha and another one abt best frens! yay!
then reminded me of this song sang by mayday.
突然好想你 你会在哪里
过得快乐或委屈
so nice right? I think very meaningful also... :D
then i gave him a seashell that i picked up once when i went to the beach...
i picked up two similar ones and i gave him one.
haha and a keychain... i think these are all very simple gifts but somehow or rather it makes me feel a lot towards them... 特别有感触。。。 真心希望你会珍惜！
17 yrs of our life has passed lo but i think that if our lives include one and another, it will be complete haha i type until i smile at my own screen la haha lols
ohkay, im like slightly going bonkers...
today im like supposed to go for the basketball match of our sch de lo!
but then they say we cnt skip PW to go support them.. like ahem?
lols haiz, i sooooo looked forward to go support them leh...
ohwells, today i shall slack a bit la, go pack my geog file and revise geog.
it is like so the damn content loaded la, dunno how am i gna memorize for 'a's la haiz
also needa do the green rep thing tonight...
haiz and cca stuff needa settle... hmm, actually also not very slack hor. ohman!
but thurs im going to LKY sch of policy to listen to some talks... ahah im looking forward to it.
and the 5k class outing during march hols and the econs seminar on white's day!
ohya! im looking forward to qianhui's bdae this sun too! yay! throw aside all the test results, actually my life is sorta wonderful and exciting le lo.
ohkay, so i shall not complain... for today.
haha btw, i was unable to watch coz i cnt find the vids online...
why ar!? they say very touching and sad leh...
sometimes watching these kind of shows may be good in a certain way,
coz u can entertain yourself and at the same time vent out all your feelings by crying...
haiz, im weird hor haha

寻找梦想 5:57 PM

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emo-ed over a lot of things today...
saying them all out suddenly made me realised that i actually have a lot of probs leh.
sad and im totally very far away frm my dream...
not only i do not have motivation to go to school, i dun have motivation to fufil my dreams and carry on with my life and that is sad i knw.
sat through geog and emo-ed. but geog cheered me up alot really.
thz a lot of pple who tried to cheered me up... im sorta ohkay now. and i will be better tmr.
thx tzehui for being there for me throughout...
thx tongjing for noticing my change and caring abt me...
thx justin for cheering me up during geog...
thx ms tan for cheering me up too!
thx siyu...haha for emoing with me.
pple, thank you! I will be ohkay de!

我吴嘉仪一定会更加努力
不管耳边传来多背上的主旋律
我会克服一切，振作起来的！
加油！必胜！

寻找梦想 9:28 PM

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hoho woke up at like 11 pm foir both sats and sun! haha today i think i will rot at home doing all my hmwk...
lols err, ytd i went north point with my mum to shop and then ate at that special jap food centre.
i ate the house special ramen! The soup is like damn damn nice! Love it!
pity that north point is so far away frm my hse otherwise i can go and eat more often.
saw this guy that looked like ruijie... haha lols immediately sms-ed huiyuan and anna.
lols but i doubt it is la, look a little weird. oops but he is tall. i din go and see his face coz scared later ruin his bei ying image haha
then we went to popular to buy wrapping paper and i sat at some food court wrapping my cousin's bdae prezzie la! OMG! so weird and funny!
then i saw this humungous comics connections shop! haha pulled my mum there!!!!
Saw fushigi yugi! WOOTS! i bought 4 pockect calenders! 3 bleach and 1 deathnote!
got one bleach de have hitsugaya!!!!!! i love that one the most!
haha aft that then we took bus to my cousin's hse to bbq!
we down there like mad pple... haha laughing over mixing up the cups and
haha sausages and marshmallows! his cake is nice!!!
hahas i had a great time but as it is like raining, so we din have much time to roast the marshmallows and to play the sparklers. haha it was great!
yay! reached home at like 1130pm and i slept at 1am...
fun day and i wna exclaim... this is called a real weekend!!!!
although i missed ai jiu zhai yi qi ytd, but i still can make it up today!
haha i shall watch online!

寻找梦想 11:13 AM

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