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cantiaohai aka mini_ds

Oohh... haiz..and etc.
I have mixed feelings now.
Got back report card and well, not good and not bad until
i cna jump off the floor.
So...i still feel unhappy about it.
Our survey is finally out and i'm gonna ask loads and loads
of pple to do it lorh...
Going back pri school can also ask them to do! GREAT!
Nothing special happened recently though.
Juz the lame everyday life.
The HSK i think can die liao lorh...
Compared to the last time one is like super difficult can.
Still muz listen to those weird weird listening compre.
Today's assembly not bad lorh...
The speaker is like damn good can, i dun even feel like fallinf asleep.
I aspire to be like her. But oh well, i aspire to be like loads of peeps.
Nvr mind, if list, next year also cannot list finish.
coz i 1 year list one cannot ar? Hehe.
I know i'm juz being lame larh... zi4 high cannot ar? :D
ARGH! I'm still super hurt and angry lorh...
It's like obviously his fault and my mum and i have to suffer WITH him!??
Well, it juz dun make any sense!
My mum may have chose the wrong fate and life.
But wad abt me?! I dun get the chance to choose at all.
Wad wrong did i do? OMG! I juz can't stand the face of the jerk anymore.
Why bother to try to save the situation when it's too late.
Others in the same situation would probably do anything to
prevent from pulling the whole family down. But he is juz the opposite.
He is juz soooo self-centred!
I'm soooooo ashmed of him. He is the whole cause of TROUBLE!
Without him, i think we'll be far better.
I somehow hope that mum can have a choice again.
Even if i'll not be here anymore.
Yes, i'll definitely prove myself better than him!
I wanna show that no way am i gonna be like him!
I'm soooooooooooooooooooooo gonna like him respect us!
Well, on a nicer tone, I LOVE THE BOOKS!
MAJOR CRUSH! OMG! I soooo love that book lorh....
If those peeps are real than it will be super cool!
LOVE UNDERCOVER!
BITTERSWEET SIXTEEN
STEALING PRINCES
I'D TELL YOU I LOVE YOU BUT THEN I'D HAVE TO KILL YOU
CRAZY IN LOVE
These are not only romance! They are comedies.
They make me sooo happy!
And.. they are about spies and a lot more.
I'M SUPER HOOKED ON THEM!

寻找梦想 4:36 PM

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Saturday! It's SATURDAY!
Well, i will exclaim lidat becoz i've been longing for a break
these few days. I'm juz sooooo tired!
Holidays are coming and so is my birthday! Yippee!
The immigration and checkpoint authority juz send
a letter to me this morning to ask me to go there
to make my ic! I'm gonna be an adult soon.
(Although i dunwanna grow up so soon but the
thought of it simply makes me so thrilled!)
Well, i think i will be going on a Saturday!
Saturday again! Wad great affinity!
Cca was alright yesterday but due to the sc investiture,
cca was delayed so i feel that it was quite short.
Anyway, juniors' standard still quite ok, not their best but
still quite ok de. Of course i hope that they can improve more.
I see me in a few of them though.
A few of them the voice very high and i thought of wad the
seniors used to say to me.
Senior: TIMER! LOWER YOUR PITCH!
And i practised! And i did it.
Ok, maybe not as low as others but it's lower than wad i used to be
and it's such a great achievement to me! XD
Need to seriously study liao.
After that then can enjoy mah!
SO MUZ...
JIAYOUS! JIAYOUS!

寻找梦想 10:45 AM

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Went to the 7000 chinese history exhibition at science centre today.
Well, it was not bad. Took quite a number of pictures.
Juz walk around and listen to the guide talk.
I feel that it's more interesting than those in museums.
Turn out that many peeps are going and i feel happy.
Get back most of the results le, not very satisfactory but at
least i passed. Got a few careless that i wanna box myself with.
Teachers' Day is coming right up and somehow i dunwanna go back.
Maybe it's becoz time heal everything and even makes pple forget.
I dunno why but it doesn't seem natural in front of them!
I can't talk normally as such and i can literally feel the gap between us.
Well, i mean that is like confirmed since it's like three years
already. I dun mind going out with them.
I think that will be absolute fun and we can be closer
but it's juz that we thought that we understand each other
but we dun anymore. pple do change and maybe i will be
able to tolerate their pranks and sacarsm then but now, maybe i can't.
Who knows how it will turn out.
So i really hope that we will be able to know each other all over again.
Sometimes... well, i dunno how to phrase it but... you know.
Juz hope everything will get better.
At the very most, rv peeps still can go out and high the whole day.
Like we used to! With me, it will not be difficult.
And our teachers, i dun think they will even know who i am anymore.
I mean helloooo, i'm not the most enthu or the notorious one, i'm juz
some normal and random girl in her class 3 years ago.
She teaches sooo many classes and students, i doubt she will be
able to rmb. Of course i dun blame her.
Life has to go on, the Earth will not stop turning juz becoz of
me. (Hmm.. i thought i'm so ego that i won't say that.)
This shows that i'm being honest.
Actually i dunwanna go on abt the treasure story anymore.
I got the idea from the door of no return anyway
and when i reread my post, i think thats a bit lame.
So lets juz carry on with my life and stop all this hocus pocus.
Nothing much to anticipate tmrw though.
Juz the usual life routine...
I'm juz a normal kid with a normal life and i wnat things to
stay that way. being too extraordinary may not be good as well.
So, it will be me. Just me. Sounds like justea though.
And heyy... I got loads of lame jokes and some sick ones.
Dun ask me for the sick ones though coz i think i can't continue.
The lame ones are funny though. Why dun i post it here? GREAT IDEA!
BRILLIANT ME! xD XD
Doraemon asked his mother: Which hand do you use to stir coffee?
Mum: right hand!
Doraemon asked his father: Which hand do you use to stir coffee?
Dad: left hand!
Guess which hand doaemon use?
Tick
tock
tick
tock!
Times
up! the answer is....
Doraemon use the SPOON to stir coffee.
Next, A banana jump from the 10th storey, what did he become?
Tick
tock
tick
tock!
Times
up! the answer is....
A brinjal!
Bruised up banana. XDXDXDXDXD

寻找梦想 6:28 PM

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here's a survey i did. Damn nice!
1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME
Goh Jia Yi
2.WHAT COLOUR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?
Grey
3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Innocence by Avril Lavigne
4. ARE YOUR LEGS CROSSED?
Nope
5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Oats meal. ;D
6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?
Orange! My favourite!
7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?
cooling!
8. LAST PERSON YOU TAlKED TO ON THE PHONE??
Constance's mum. I called to ask for constance and she was in the shower. xD
9. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
his eyes. And perhaps his height. Or jus him!.
10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? Jiamin frm 3a. xD
11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
Okies lorh... Half sad half happy, mostly normal.
12. FAVOURITE DRINK? Orange juice!13. FAVOURITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
I don't do alcohol
14.What is your favourite sport?
Tennis (although i suck in this) and... well, all are ok.
15. HAIR COLOUR?
black with a little brown
16.EYE COLOUR?
Mostly black.
17. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Nahs. and it hurts.
18. SIBLINGS?
NONE! How pathetic is that!??
19.FAVOURITE MONTH?
SEPTEMBER! the month i was born.
20.FAVOURITE FOOD?
SUSHI!!!!!! SASHIMI! *licks my lips*
21. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Harry Potter and the order of pheonix.
22. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE YEAR
My birthday!! 4th SEP 9coming soon)
23. SATURDAY OR SUNDAY?
Saturdays! the next day is still school free! xD
24. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
Well, i think i am. if he's the one i like.
25. DO YOU LIKE MARMITE?
Not really.
26. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter! All in white!!!!!!!! (although i like spring more) xD
27. HUGS OR KISSES?
Hugs! Or maybe kisses if i can think of anyone.
28. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
CHOCO!!!!!!! *licks lips again*
29. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK?
Yups yups, then i'll feel loved!
30. Who's most LIKELY TO RESPOND?
umm. pple that are bored. XD
31. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Cynical bastards!
32. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS?
7th floor flat.
33. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
The Door of no return! Damn Cheem!
34. DID YOU WAKE UP BEFORE YOUR ALARM WENT OFF ?
Nope, unless miracles happen.
36. DO YOU MISS BIG BROTHER YET?
Dun have leh.. so sad.
37. FAVOURITE SMELLS?
Sweet! Mashmallow and dinner! *licks lips AGAIN!*
38. WHAT INSPIRES YOU?
peeps that believe in me and push me on. xD
39. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN?
Buttered! xD
40. FAVOURITE CRISPS?
BBQ!!!!! Sour and cream will be nice too! *licks lips for umpteenth time*
41. FAVOURITE CAR?
I prefer roller blading.
42. FAVOURITE FLOWER?
Lilies!!!!! xD
43. How MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
2. xD
44. CAN YOU JUGGLE
Nope, i'm not a clown and my sense of balance sux!
45. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK
Saturday!!!!!!!!!
46. RED OR WHITE WINE?
um... i'm not of age. deardear.
47. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
party and party and party! xD after that anyway coz i was in m'sia with my classmates!
48. DO YOU OWN A DONOR CARD?
Nope. told you i'm not of age le.
49. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
Aww.. can't i sleep somemore?*rubs eyes*
50. WHAT ARE YOU DOING ONCE YOU HAVE FINISHED THIS ?
Watch tv i guess. So relaxing! XDDDD

寻找梦想 6:14 PM

Well, pple have been asking me why my post all so emo de.
Then i went to blogger and look back on my posts
and realise that heyy.. there really is a big change in me, in my surroundings and
most importantly my studies.
Maybe it's becoz this is a blog and i feel that i can pour my soul out here.
Even though it may get absorbed or sucked away.
Part of my soul may be lost, but i'm still here.
Perhaps i'm too sick and tired of potraying myself as the mad
and cheerful and dunno wad me in front of every1.
i noe, i noe, thats the real me!
I hate this emo me as well. Budden i doubt that every1 can stay cheerful 4eva.
Heyy, i need time to be emo de.
one thing 4 sure is that i can't emo in front of anybody,
so i juz have to emo in front of my blog le.
Shall we begin with a treasure story?
Let's start. Be sure to tune in to every episodes!
Episode 1:
A girl named ... um wad shld i call her?
Melanie then. i <333 this name dunno why.
She's an adventurous girl that likes to search 4 treasures.
She keep maps and ancient coins.
All in all, she's an extraordinary kiddo.
Unfortunately, she is a girl with a sad life as well.
Her dad left her and her mum. He's a gambler and lost
everything they had. She hates him! To the absolute core.
All her dad did was drink or sleep.
Her mum had to slog her hearts out day and night
to provide her with three meals and education.
She hated this life, she envied the others and she wanna be normal.
She was a normal girl in front of everyone
but she shed her tears quietly every night.
She's under huge amount of stress and she can't stand seeing that jerk's face anymore.
So she decided to revenge.
She set out fights and gave up on herself.
She was sent to a girls home but she escaped.
Melanie left all her money for her mom and encouraged her to leave her dad.
She set out on a journey to search for a long lost treasure in LA.
It was juz a legend, a myth but she wanna risk it, she got nothing to lose.
Then without a warning, she's gone, from this very earth.
Evaporated without a single trace.
xD
So how's the first part, pls stay tune.
Till i post again! :DDDDD

寻找梦想 5:25 PM

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Wah... i can't stand it anymore.
Can't stop feeling that i'm dying.
The though of wad if my GPA doesn't reach the standard!
I practically can drop off dead immediately.
Well, something that is keeping me happy all this
while have been the books that we borrowed from the library.
Perhaps i dun quite like the ending of a couple of books but
it really keep me high and squishing.
Guess that's the alternative world they keep talking abt.
At least i can juz leave all my worries and troubles aside first.
Well, guess that i've to endure through everything.
All i can do now is smile and smile and smile bah..
Hope everything will take a good turn from now on.
I really can't take anymore blows.
And i dunwan my form teacher to ask me wads wrong with me anymore.
I wnat him to stand a distance away frm me and giving me a
look of disbelief and feeling proud all the same.
Wonder will that day ever come.
Nothing much happen these few days lorh...
I think something funny might have occured
just that maybe i am soo overwhelmed by sadness
that i dun rmb a single thing.
Who will be that person who can bring back me and my memories?

寻找梦想 11:12 AM

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Hi peeps.
Well, quite sad recently but still there are other things and peeps
to cheer you up even though some let you down.
Today was super shuang in pe lesson!
We played floor ball and guess wad?!! I scored!
Not only that lorh... It's like the goalkeeper (which is serming)
shouted "jiayi noob".
Well, dunno whether is used to it, i'm not angry or feel anything larh...
but the ball and my stick doesn't feel that way.
The ball went in straight after he shouted!
And i think he was too busy shouting at me and didn't notice that
i had the ball and preparing to shoot.
he didn't expect to go in! (well, neither do i)
He didn't even have time to defend and before he knows,
everyone was cheering for me and
after i stunned finish, i started screaming and cheering as well.
That was like i'm super happy lorh...
I know that pple can say its taiko
and it is true but i still feel great.
Especially afteer so many blows, a few happy moments won;t harm my miserable life.
I think that i was quite dead today lorh...
Dunno why but like cannot high.
And i think a lot of pple quite pissed with me, so
i think i shall keep to myself and not probe a single thing.
There are still tests coming up though so your wish me luck.
basically., i feel that the juniors were quite ok today.
I'm quite pleased with their standard.
And pt, i think that it was alright too.
So, if any juniors are reading this, jiayous! I support your! ;)

寻找梦想 9:20 PM

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Heya... ndp parade over liao...
Saw rv chorale and at first i dunno de then i saw loads of familiar faces.
Especially Zheng yang's!!!!!! So many times larh... hehe.
Didn't go class outing yesterday and i think it was a pity.
Like all class outing i cannot go lidat leh...
So sad lorh...
Haiz... i'm a busy person! hahas.
Anyway, nothing much happen leh...
I thought got loads of funny things happen de but suddenly i forgot already.
Well, i rmb a few though.
My mum and i were on the bus and we heard cats meowing and we
thought there really got cats! It seemed so real.
But in the end, it's juz some1 ring tone.
Lame rite?? I know.
Then, i dunno why i kept knocking to other pple so i had
to keep saying sorry and supressing a laugh as well.
Then something very funny happened.
I was talking and playing with my mum and i suddenly
pointed on the floor and said: 'there!'
The auntie beside me turned and looked at where i pointed
which is nothing! And all of us laughed like shit.
ROFLMAO!
Okkay. Holidays like pass like a WOOSH!!
And school days pass like a tiny snail crawling from Singapore
to American with a 300 tonnes heavy shell!
ENDURE!
JIAYOUS!

寻找梦想 11:44 AM

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Well, juz tag on serming's blog and it make me wake up.
Really. I wrote: I'll not be beaten easily de! Coz i'm frm NCC!
So i'm so gonna fulfil that! Coz i'm proud of ncc and i wnat nc to be proud of me too!
Well, i know that i can do it!
Today is the national day celebrations.
Actually it's juz sports day larh... And it sooo freaking long larh...
Pegasus came in secong afterall and i was gald.
Although i am like not very high and um.. ya.
Saw mr teo run as well, and i was getting quite excited!
Juz sit there and play and chat lorh...
Watching them parade somehow made me regret my decision of not joining.
But nvm, i support them mentally.
The most omg part is that they took picture in front of me and jesslyn
and both of us felt so left out.
But as i said, we are with them, mentally.
So i dunno really mind, juz a momentarily sadness.
And i went out with janice and fengye to vivo after sports day.
Met quite a number of familiar pple though but i juz cannot rmb whether
issit them or who are they??
Quite enjoyable. Long time nv really nv happily go out le.
Friday got class outing and i really dunno whether i can go a not le.
OMG! Haiz...

寻找梦想 4:53 PM

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Yesterday was ROD, and i guess it really didn't turn out as wad we expected.
The dance was quite ok basically but i feel that it's a little luan.
Haiz... i seriuosly dun like the community singing to be cut off.
And... i wanna spend more time with the seniors as well.
I really feel very sad. Esp when we hug them, when they come off stage!
The exchanging presents also.
I dunwan them to go, for that, i rather i always stay as a cadet.
No troubles, and i can enjoy every moment of ncc.
Even if they pump us. I rather coporal punishment was back.
Yes, no matter how bad it will be, i'll endure.
Well, guess that this week really suck!
Guess wad??? I failed my math.
And i dunno why but i juz broke down completely.
I really dunno why, juz feel like crying desperately.
I'm like soooo weak can, i feel ashamed of myself.
I shld have the nc power!
Guess that i'm still... haiz.
Chem was all right. At least finally got one test that i say all right le.
i think i'm gonna die of the stress larh..
It's like there's nothing more in life for me to anticipate anymore.
NOTHING! Juz tests and tests and some more tests.
Well, i've got nothing much to complain about juz that yesterday i saw
the cadets playing and i really wanna join them, not as a spec but also
as a cadet, their frens!
Hahahs... but i did quite a few honorable things during the act.
Quite wei feng! Hahahs.
ok... so i'll juz go alone and dwell in my own misery...

寻找梦想 10:21 AM

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Haiz... well, the auntie never called me up and it's actually on sat.
This sat. Seriously, i rather she call, i dunwan to receive a call frm dunno where
asking me to verify myself and i will know that i'm in trouble.
ROD is coming and i think i will be very sad de.
It's like the seniors are sooo nice to us...
Our dance i think it's quite ok!
But it's the first time that i am complaining about too many actions.
But i like it.
ROD is this friday le. I somehow dread it.
Still quite amazing that we took over.
And that we are sorta the most senior batch.
Well, juniors basically still ok but... hmm...
actually i not much to comment larh.
I'm not the pc, i dun have the power. I'm not the in charge.
Well, but at least i can still express my views bah...
well, i thought i got loads to say.
Maybe i have, juz dunno how to phrase it perhaps.
So forget it...
%$#@!&^**^%#*^$#()@@%^*())^#@!!!
Dun be mistaken, thats not vulgarities.
They juz represent the words that i dunno how to say.
Have good things inside too!
TEST TEST TEST everyday.
Math test juz pass and i think that i dunhave much confidence.
And physics... i think i can fail le bah...
SHIT! God damn it larh...
I dunwanna fail leh...
So tmrw got chinese and the day after next got chem.
I dunno whether to laugh or cry now so i'll juz remain expressionless.
This is not exactly a very happy week though.
Hope next week will be much better.
But most days are holiday! Can wake up late! YIPPEE!
Today got the morning programme come to our school and somehow i
found myself at the ground floor, preparing to sing the school song
in front of the camera. And guess wad i'm in the first row and somewad in the middle.
That's like OMG larh...
Haiz... i think no one saw me bah...
Those are at work are at work and those that are in school are in school.
So i'm pretty safe!
Ok, wish me good luck for all the tests then.

寻找梦想 8:14 PM

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