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cantiaohai aka mini_ds

Tonight, this post.
It's the last post of 2010, and it's the 700th post.
SO COOL RIGHT! (Anna said I will do this, so I did.)
I shall post a few new year resolutions for 2011 before 2010 ends.
(Btw, I am at huiyuan's house now.)
Though the turn up rate for the sleepover is rather pathetic,
but I still feel rather pumped up because of it.
It's like... It's the last day and we are still together.
I know that it sounds cheesy and all, but that's the name that I've thought a long long time for the facebook photo album!
(Provided that we took any pictures, we took none so far.)

New year resolution:
1) Find a job. A good one.
2) Start on my writing.
3) Spare more time for myself. (Go to secret place regularly for inspiration. It's the place with the things that allow me to calm down and think.)
4) Keep my temper in check, and unlease all my patience.
5) Cherish my dear ones.

寻找梦想 11:24 PM

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我今天在意本书里读到的，觉得很有意义。

佛说，
前尘百次回眸，
换得今生擦肩而过；
前尘千次回眸，
换得今生相知相识；
前尘万次回眸，
换得今生携手白头。
上辈子他们缘浅缘深？
究竟彼此回眸了多少次？

那么，要做姐妹要回眸多少次？
我认为，男朋友就像是身上的指甲。
女生会花尽心思点缀得五彩缤纷。
当指甲脱离时，当下会感到撕心裂肺的疼痛。
但是，断掉的指甲还会重生。
犹如失去的男友，在心痛过后，可以再找新的。
但是，姐妹淘就像手足。断掉。。。就变成一辈子的残缺。
所以，我认为前尘要相爱一辈子，今生才能成为最亲的姐妹淘！

寻找梦想 9:39 PM

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Ohkay, today is a rather eventful day.
Met tons of people today, people that I know and people that I don't know.
Saw a rather stylish guy at work today.
He is 4 years younger than me. *coughs*
Me and haiwei both took note of him:D He is kinda cute, I have to admit.
Lols and both of us met him again at Junction 8.
I was telling my hubby<3 that if only he was not with his parents, we can go and take a picture with him.
Not that I am stalkerish or anything, but such a cute guy doesn't come by everyday.
Hmm, then guess who we met?!
We were drinking our fabulous KOI and walking rather aimlessly, while someone suddenly tapped on my shoulder, and I turned...
MRS TAN!!! :D
Haha guess she was out with her family shopping.
Chatted with her for a while, and I missed her!
She is so nice:D Haha we shall go her house bai nian again! YAYS!~
Bought necklace with haiwei at Diva! Shall wear it tmr too<3
Went to the library again. Though I have like 11 books sitting at home.
Well, didn't find anything that I want though. All the books that I want are on loan!
*groans*
So, we went home after that and I changed to the North-East line at Dohby...
And guess what?! Another fabulous incident to make this nice day even more special!
HAHA I saw this super super shuai guy!
He is super shuai ohkay! Really really damn damn shuai!
I am definitely not exaggerating!
他的身材中等，不会说很高，但依我准确的推断，应该是介于 the upper range of the 170s.
不是很健壮，但是曲线很分明！
浓眉大眼，超浓的睫毛，高挺的鼻子，分明的轮廓，深邃的 facial features!
而且又有点混血的 feel~
我敢保证！他看起来绝对像是从杂志里走出来的男模！
本来。。。刚上车的我在打量站在我旁边的很高的男生，正觉得他长得还不错的时候。。。
一转头就对上了那个 potential male model 的眼！
哇！虽然我承认我时常都有在注意这些，但是这是我第一次碰到那么帅的耶！
眼福饱到够本！~~~
(不准你们说我花痴哦！他是真的真的很帅！）
这种人，我看。。。可能就是十八年才能看到一次吧。
呵呵！我好久没有这样的感受了呢！
我使用了多大的 effort 才把我的视线从他的身上离开。
然后告诉自己要潇洒的走出 mrt! 绝对不可以让他发现！
I am quite pleased at the end of it. I stepped out of the mrt without a backward glance!
(Well, have la. But is way after that.)
让我对现实里的男生增添多一点点希望。
总而言之，今天算起来还真是不错呢！:D
And I saw xiumin at the vivo's bus stop with her mum!
Lols! So 巧！And we chatted till my bus came and I got squashed all the way home!
But not bad la~~~ Though I know that I will forget how the two guys looked in less than a week, but at least I've seen it:D

寻找梦想 7:21 PM

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There are certain awkward phases that girls are bound to face when growing up.
And I was just thinking about the phases that I've went through,
and was rather amazed by the changes.

有人说过。。。在中学时期的男生经历的生理变化是最大的。
那么，在中学时期的女生经历最大的变化，便是心理上的。
处事，态度，在那短短四年里，将会经历无穷的改变。

Phase 1:
(13-14 years old)
Feels terribly awkward and embarrassing if pulled out to shopping by mothers.
Especially when mothers asked you to try on loads of stuff.
Along with the encouragement of the too-friendly salesperson.

Phase 2:
(14-15 years old)
Feels like dying when buying lingerie with mothers.
Feels even more awkward when the salesperson wants to measure your size.

Phase 3:
(15-16 years old)
Feels shy and act weirdly when the salesperson is a guy.
Regardless of whether the guy is good-looking.
More of uncomfortable than shy actually.

以上情形纯属本人意见和经历，如有雷同，纯属巧合。

Haha thinking back..
Especially when I see teens nowadays experiencing the same thing as I had...
I will smile to myself and think: Those were the days.
Sounds old right? Haha, but guess I am rather old. LOLS
Now, I have gotten past all the three phases.
And the change in me has been rather drastic. I don't really feel embarrassed by all the situations mentioned above anymore.
But there are still embarrassing and hilarious moments that I have while interacting with others that will somehow make me cringe and wince when I think about them.
Well, everybody have their moments~ :D

寻找梦想 6:58 PM

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I am in no position to apologize.
I just feel sorry for myself.
Why can't I be a little bit more aware and a little bit more observant?
Why can't I be a little bit more of control of my own feelings?
And know exactly what I want?
So that I won't hurt the ones that I hold dearest to my heart.
I've never intented to leave.
But all these seems like feeble attempts of excusing myself.
Too feeble.
I can't ask for any forgiveness.
Because there is nothing to forgive, becuase they understand.
It makes me even more guilty when they understand so well.
They should not understand me, they should not accept me!
Again contradiction overwhelmed me.
That, of course, is not what I truly want.
But, I feel that it is truly what should happen.
So, I know that I am blessed.
And from now on, I keep in mind that I will never make these mistakes again.
So long as they are here with me, I will not let them slip through my hands again.
And henceforth, I promise.
With all my heart, and even with a dagger pointing to my throat, I will never let them slip away. Never ever.
It is my blessing to be able to find them in my life today.
And I hope that even when I die and move on, I will be able to bring this blessing to the next lives I have and find them again.
And not be too absorbed in my own world, that I neglect theirs.
And not think too much about the pessimistic point of view, and doubt myself along with the others that love me.
Sometimes I get too carried away in my insecurity that I forget that they will always be there for me.
Insecurity blinds me more often than I would like, and I lost the light and warmth that they provided for me.
But I always knew, and I know that I always will.
Know that they believe in me, and they are willing to take me for who I am.
Someone not perfect, someone flawed.
And I am glad, really glad.
So, from now on, I shall try my best to erase the doubt in me.
To earse the pessimistic self and simply indulge in the faith that they fill me with.
Because, only then, will I be able to be with them, completely.

寻找梦想 9:10 PM

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昨晚。深夜。我独自一人坐在电脑前面观看了穿越时空的少女真人版的电影。
剧情竟然和漫画，动漫里的截然不同。
刚开始是有点失望的。毕竟我很喜欢漫画里所描塑的浪漫，又单纯的爱情故事。
还有它那带点悲情，和不完美的结局。
电影的节奏虽然有些慢，但是参合了更多的细节。
以致内容变得有点复杂，要到后来才能够明白，才会看到漫画剧情的些许身影。
不过，结尾却让我哭得停不下来。
即使当我恍神的爬上床准备睡觉时，还是流着眼泪的。
其实他的结尾。。。还蛮能够预料的。
从我看日本电影的经验来说，就已经知道结局大概是怎么样了。
但是没有想到电影里的小小细节能够把感情拉扯到这般幅度。
穿越时空。。。
两个不属于同一个时空的人本来就不能够在一起。
但是，连回忆都不能留着，那就显得更加凄凉了。
那么他呢？需要亲手消灭他最爱的她和他共同的美丽回忆，然后看着她忘了他，继续着她的生活。
那样的他又是抱有什么样的心情回到未来呢？
那么，在天国守护着她的他呢？只有他会了解吧？事情的真正由来。
即使她已不再记得他们之间的回忆，但心还是记得的。
所以她看他曾经拍的电影时，才会不知不觉地哭了。
看着樱花的她，其快乐无比的笑了。
正是因为心里记得有着那么一个他的存在吧。
未来的樱花。。。他们真的是一起看了呢！


21 things you don't know about Jesse McCartney

1) Currently, he wants to shake his booty to Beyonce's song.
2) His musical inspiration comes from Elvis Presley.
3) Describe his album in three words: Fun, Sexy, Rhythmic.
4) Celeb crush: KATY PERRY (T.T)
5) Most embarrassing on stage moment: Fell head first on a 7 foot drop, in the middle of a really sexy song.
6) Pre-show warmup: Ha! HAAH! HAAHHHHH!!!! (It's really hilarious!:D)
7) Dream artist to work with: Steve something (i couldn't catch LOLS)
8) Favourite song to sing in the shower: Teenage Dream (He said that's the only song that you can sing when you naked!)
9) Favourite thing to do on a friday night: Go to a big sushi dinner with sake and wine and friends.
10) Favourite band: Youtube (I dunno why I love the way he says youtube!:D)
11) Favourite snack food: Twinkies
12) Favourite line from one of your songs: I don't speak Spanish, Japanese or French, but the way that body's shaking definitely makes sense. (Body Language)
13) Favoutite guilty pleasure: Chicken nachos on a sunday night watching football, while lying on the couch.
14) Favourite on-stage moment: Performing for the President of the United States.
15) Writing or performing: Performing
16) Rock & Roll or R&B: R&B
17) Acoustic or electric: Acoustic
18) Acting or Singing: Singing for now.
19) American Dream or Exotic Escape: American Dream
20) Edge of your seat drama or laugh till it hurts comedy: Edge of your sear drama.
21) Girl next door or Hottie down the hall: Hottie down the hall.

Sighs! Looking at Qns 15 to 21...
I like writing, R&B, Acoustic, singing, exotic escape, laugh till it hurts comeday...
I only got 3 ans same as Jesse! >.<
The one that hurts me the most is that he chose hottie down the hall!
Sighs, well at least he is honest about it.
Gosh! I love him more and more, the more I look at him! ^^

寻找梦想 10:40 AM

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Ohmygod! I thought I have gotten over him!
Thought wrong didn't I?
他吃喝嫖赌，又吸烟，又没有以前那么 fit, 又变得越来越像 Leonardo DiCaprio.
唱歌的时候常常把手放在敏感部位上。。。唱完后还装酷。。。
He is everything I don't need.
But goodness me, someone please tell me, why am I still in love with him?
Why am I still swooning over him when I watch him perform live?
Why do I still get jealous and angry when I see the female dancers touch him?
Why do I feel so sad and agonized when I hear him sing about his ex?
Why did it hurt me so much when I hear that he has put in so much love into her?
Why am I still watching him and downloading his songs in the first place!
Oh Jesse, 饶了我吧~~~

Went to BookFest today!~
And I love it! There are tons of books that I wanted to buy!
And tons or sale!
But in the end, I only bought 2.
But it makes me happy enough!~~

寻找梦想 8:09 PM

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Went to surprise huiyuan yesterday!
Hehe bought cake and tidbits at JP bright early in the morning and we sneaked up to her house. I was sooo excited!:D
Sang birthday song out loud outside her door.
She was damn stunned!
I am proud of myself! I still called her before we went up, to make sure that she is at home. Mwhahaha at my cunning-ness!

Had some alone time today.
Felt so refreshed now.
It's been a long long time, since I sat down and read a book while having a nice, hot steaming cup of coffee.
Wanted to go to 秘密基地，but if feels weird to go there alone.
毕竟，每一次都是和她去的。
So I went to harbourfront's starbucks.
It freaked me out a little when I saw so many people at the shopping centre.
I mean why aren't these adults working?!
But thankfully, starbucks is rather empty.
So I got a huge cup of mocha, settled on a high chair and started reading:D
I shut everything out for that hour plus.
And I felt so happy after I left starbucks.
Like I picked up a part of me:D
自己一个人独处的时候，还真是舒服啊！
什么都不用管，偶尔封闭自己也不是一件坏事。
有时间思考，细细品尝美味的咖啡，任故事剧情的漩涡把我拖进虚幻的世界里。
Went to the bookstores in harbourfront and vivo.
Page One is hiring! And I applied for it!
好希望可以受聘！很喜欢那边的气氛。一走进去就超有 feel pa 的。
可以在里面呆超久超久！
Went to apply for MJ too. That was totally by accident.
They were having sales! Buy 3 get 1 free! I am soooo tempted!~
I saw tons of DVDs that I wanted!~~~
Shall continue persuading my mum! 21 bucks for 4 discs?! Like how brilliant is that?
Haha then I saw the board that they are recruiting.
Ahwells, Page One is the priority though. *prays*
Haha perhaps I should try out borders too:D

Going to Suntec's popular bookfest tmr.
This is the life that I am pursuing.
在被人眼里或许有点无所事事，但是每天都能做自己喜欢的事，成天被书环抱，就好像在天堂一样！~
好喜欢这样的感觉！悠哉啊！悠哉~

今天我读的书，一般。
剧情普通，文字普通。但是。。。里面提到了一件事。
提到了男生校服上的第二颗纽扣。
毕业的时候，和喜欢的男生索取他校服上的第二颗纽扣，因为那是最贴近心脏的。
我想要他的纽扣。可是人家都不肯和我拍照了，又怎么会把第二颗纽扣给我呢。
即使他不知道其中的含义，但是对于如此莫名其妙的要求，他一定会拒绝吧？
或许，没有更好。或许，可以更容易忘记。
毕竟，我喜欢的只是他的小小一个部分，那个只展露在我眼前的部分。
唉！要找到一本好书，还真是难啊！~
或许。。。是时候拿出我的私人笔记本，重心开始创作了吧？
想着想着，手就痒了！
现实里不存在的完美男主角，在我的笔下复活吧！:D

寻找梦想 8:37 PM

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"Waiting for you is like waiting for a rain in this drought.
It's useless and disappointing."

I heard of this phrase about 6 years ago.
And I never thought that such a heartbreaking phrase can be applicable in my life.
It just gets so tiring, fighting against intuition.
Someday, I bet, someday I will succuumb to it.
I usually act on my intuition, no matter what trouble it leads me to.
But for you, I am fighting within me.
Deep down, I know that I shouldn't trust you just so blindly.
Within me, I know that you are not as great as you try to shape yourself to be.
Once and again, your flaws expose themselves right in front of my eyes.
But everytime, I deny it.
The angel in me has been screaming at my denial, screaming to tell me that she is in pain, and that I should avoid you in order to avoid pain.
But again and again, I have placed myself at your mercy.
I placed myself in a position, vulnerable to your actions.
And, I regret it.
The first time, I convince myself, I let you make it up to me.
I forgive. I forget.
But the scars in me are evidence of your acts.
And even though I no longer remember what you did to hurt me, the pain I felt before stopped me, pulled me back whenever I lost control and moved closer to you.
The scars kept me rational.
I don't believe in sweet-talking.
But I was foolish enough to fall for it.
I let you persuade me, I let you convince me that I am someone in your life.
Long before, I knew that I am not anyone special.
That, lessen my pain.
But then, you have to come in and tell me how important I am to you.
And so I believed.
But how important exactly? Important enough to speak your thoughts freely in front of me?
Important to only contact me when you need me?
I know whenever I am weak, you'll be there.
But in the times when I really needed help, where were you?
Important enough to neglect?
Important enough to shirk responisbility?
I know that you've helped me.
But is it plainly because you were there by coincidence?
Just happen to be there?
是我太天真了吗？只是一昧的相信。
可是，慢慢的， 我对你的信任被你的过度自信给瓦解了。
一点一点慢慢的流走了。
I've let you in too far.
让你看到了我丑陋的一面。我的嫉妒心。。。无理取闹。。。蛮不讲理。。。还有我最自卑的。。。恐惧。
让你知道得太多太多，多到我也有点害怕。
那应该是我信任你的心开始动摇的证明吧？
是不是逐渐的我就会疏远你呢？
我的固执。。。不知道你是否有体会过。
我是一个不会主动的女生，我催了你两次，I prompted you twice.
And I won't do it again.
And the next time you come running towards me, I will hesitate before taking a step towards you.
It will take me a while for me to warm up to you again.
I am sorry that I couldn't be as spontaneous as the rest.
And I have never love you in that way so I couldn't give in to you unconditionally.
Yes, I may be selfish, but you are not exactly the selfless person that you claim yourself to be.
Maybe I should not cloud my eyes anymore and should let my intuition take charge again.
Perhaps then, that will be the best protection that I can get.

寻找梦想 7:06 PM

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These few days... Makes me think too much. Way too much.
My life suddenly just revolves around Bella Swan, Jacob Black and Edward Cullen.
And I started the talking to myself thing again.
Ya, freaky huh?
At first, I couldn't stand another moment of it.
But then, hasn't this escaping into other world kinda thing always been my trait?
So that I don't have to focus on my problems.
I can focus on other people's problems.
I can bring myslef to feel the pain that others feel, but not the one lingering in me.
I never thought that it would be so unbearable.
But I talked to you.
You don't know how much you meant to me. More than you will believe.
Talking to you somehow makes me feel myself again.
You caught me before I was swept away by the whirlpool of thoughts.
I thought it will be unnecessary for us to meet again.
Perhaps, leaving everything as it is now would be the best choice.
Guess I was wrong.
Talking to you, chatting, talking about nothing important made me feel your importance.
Pulled me back to the world I feel so comfortable in.
Talking to you made me realise that I can still survive without the silence around me.
Though somehow, I've gotten used to the silence, too much for my liking.
It makes me feel connected again.
It makes me want to see you again.
And because it's you, I have the confidence, that silence around us will be comfortable as well.

寻找梦想 12:15 PM

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Woah! It's amazing, although today is only the 8th, it feels a long time from prom.
平常我都很不喜欢离开 chalet 了。
今天更依依不舍。以后，要想这样再聚在一起应该会很困难吧。
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6th Dec 2010

Woke up about 730am in the morning to attend the sph scholarship talk.
Then rushed to meet the rest at 12pm at Pasir Ris.
Ahems, me and anna even skipped the reception for it, and guess what?
We were the first to arrive. *sighs*
Haha, met up with the rest and take all our luggage to eat lunch at white sands.
Then... checked in and the real work starts.
Gosh, make up for the real thing!
But guess my makeup is not obvious enough in the lighting in the ballroom >.<
Ahwells, prom then passes in a flash.
I barely eaten, was busy taking photos, especially towards the end.
I didn't really pay attention to the games and competitions on stage.
Didn't bother about the lucky draws.
Basically it was just photos, toilet, photos, toilet, and more photos. :D
当晚，发生了让我很自豪，但也很自卑的事。
不过，大家以后要再见面的几率真的很少了吧。
所以，我是认为应该留念一下的。。。
Cab back to chalet and pwhaloar!~~~ The fun truly begins!:D
haha played circle of trust and i think i got a little drunk.
Dun really rmb what happened, except that i did quite a lot of my 口头禅 of the chalet! whahahaahhahaahahah:D
So me went off to sleep at around 6am in the morning...
Didn't really have a good night... or should i say morning?

7th Dec 2010

Anyways, woke up at around 10 plus and went to pool!
Haha i decided not to embarrass myself in front of everybody,
so I politely refused the game. LOLS
Then went to eat at Just Acia, haha didn't have much appetite.
Practically passed half my meal over to the guys.
It's the lack of sleep, I know. What else can it be?
Wanted to go to kbox, but it was too expensive.
Seriously?! But I would still love to sing with them!
Haha that just gives us another reason to meet up again! YIPPEE!~
Anyways, we decided to go bike.
Haha I was a little nervous coz the last time I was on a bike was like a year ago.
Well, that time I did manage to get on the bike, but I was super wobbly.
So, i decided to try.
Starting was a little tough and I was really wobbly.
But I am really glad that cycling is not exactly a skill that you can forget.
It's like imprinted in you.
Hmm, guess that is not a very good word.
My body remembers the way, and I was up on the bike and going!~
Felt really accomplished and happy!
hehe, must thank anna and zhengyang for spending like many chalet hours last time to teach me, especially for me to overcome my fear. (which is a humungous one)
And jennie and serming this time round, for staying with me.
Even though I kept stopping and was going kinda slowly...
Ohkays, so I am able to cycle, but I was still having difficulties turning.
I need a huge space to turn and I am super conscious of my surrounding.
The thing is, the more conscious I am, the higher tendency for me to clash into other people. Haiz...
So I was training how to turn, and then time is almost up for us to return the bikes
and it was beginning to drizzle.
I turned, and I turned into some patch of grass.
I thought I will be able to ride through the patch of grass.
Guess I overestimated myself...
Tripped over many tree roots, and the next moment I know, I was lying on my left side of the body, flat on the ground.
My body registered the pain first and I couldn't even stand up.
Tears just spilled out of my eyes and seriously, I hate myself for being so weak...
I saw the blood flowing from my leg and I felt faint.
Gosh. It was rather gross. Wonder whether I did leave a blood trail behind.
(So, here I am now, at home, bearing with the pain on my leg and looking at the horrendous scars. And have to endure the nags of my parents. Ahh!~~~ haiz... It looked like I self-tortured btw.)
So, serming helped me push my bike back and I was limping quickly back to the kiosk.
Was rather freaking out, becuase no matter how many times I have fallen,
I have never scratched myself so badly before.
Ohkay, then jennie came running towards me and we made our way back to the chalet.
I don't know what is going to happen, basically I just felt sort of dazed and panicky.
Anna went out to help me buy some sort of antiseptic and I was sitting on the toilet bowl, in the chalet, with tons of people crowding at the door...
At lost, same as me.
I heard many suggestions, and they get worse.
I was beginning to really freak out, when anna came back with some oil and bandage.
I cried before the oil even touched me. Yes, constance is right.
I am more afraid of the idea of pain than pain itself.
Well, how am I supposed to control my tears when I hear gasps everywhere?
So, I went to wash my wounds, and came out for the disinfection process.
Well, I am not exactly sure how painful it was because I hyperventilated.
With tears flowing at the same time, and many people shouting all at once...
I was in a fluster and then I couldn't catch my breath anymore.
Sighs, I've made quite a scene, I believe.
And yes, of course I am ashamed of it. I should have been stronger and braver.
The tears shouldn't flow. Haiz.
One big thanks I have to give, is to give zhengyang.
I know he won't read this, but I haven't figure out how to thank him yet.
Wanted to treat them to popeye's mash potato. But we all ended up eating there instead... So, next time i guess.
Haha he is more concerned of my leg than I am.
I have to thank him for the constant reminder that my leg is injured, and
I should take note that I don't swing it all around and hit other things.
And have to thank him for keeping me calm, and leading me.
谢谢哦！~
Of course, I have to thank anna for helping me treat my wounds.
我是怕到~~~~~~ 谢谢你陪在我身边。
And also the many who didn't really say but still, I can feel the concern in your eyes and actions. People, I do appreciate it~ <3
Ohkays, so then I went to bathe (ouch!) and ate BK.
And we head on to Changi Airport to send off Jifang!
Hope we can see each other again soon!~~
YAYS!~ I love the airport, though my leg ached kinda bad.
Ahhwells, it's nice that we get to go there but there is limited time that we can stay there if we want to take the public transport back.
And I didn't do the feel pa thing there too. ohman!>.<
Head back to chalet and watched dramas, KO-ed at about 3am and woke around 9am.
Didn't really sleep well either because I was rather bothered by my leg, afraid that it will touch the bed sheet or something.

8th Dec 2010

I don't like it that chalet passes so fast.
I love to just hang out with them.
And I love the feeling of not having to rush home.
Basically, we can just relax.
Sighs, although chalet passes so quickly, prom seems rather far away.
It didn't feel like a 2-day-ago affair, to me, it feels like 3 weeks ago.
Don't ask me why, because I don't know either.
So we packed our stuff, and were ready to leave.
Went to grab brunch and watched Rapunzel!:D
Before that, we went on the tiny ferris wheel and the 2 cabins were like far far away and we couldn't take picture of one another.
Rapunzel was great! But was quite a cliched Disney fairytale.
Sad to say is that I fell for it, completely.
How can I ever believe that there is no happily ever after in Disney fariytales?!
I am dumb, and can't believe that my tears were wasted on this.
God, haha didn't really wanted to go back, I want to loiter.
But I don't want to give my parents another reason for nagging at me again.
So I left home obediently.

Folks, this will not be the end.
4I clique still has a long way to go!
Xmas party to attend, (Ohkay, I shall plan a christmas presents exchange party then!)
movies to watch, (Pirates of Carribean) trips to go on together.
Many many more! We must have chalet every year k?
And every year shall be as fun as the previous one!
I love you guys tons and tons and tons and many! :D <333333

寻找梦想 7:01 PM

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Far East Plaza yesterday and bought my pretty pretty dress!
And also an extra nice jacket to go with it.
Honestly, I am rather happy with the things I have bought.
But... I've heard that tons of people are wearing until damn formal! >.<
Er, *stuns*
Ohkay, but I guess I will stick with what I have.
More shopping today.
Quite heartache for the makeup. I have to keep chanting to myself that
"This is a long term investment!"
Well, I think I should try and get used to makeup and all.
Since it's part and parcel of interviews and jobs.
Hehe! I am getting very hyped up about all this preparation:D
Also, I finally caught HARRY POTTER today!!!
One movie off my long long list! :D
But I guess I will have to watch the rest of the movies online, since I am going seriously BROKE! Ahh, I can see all the money flying out of my piggy! T.T
But Harry Potter is definitely a must watch for me!
I have never missed out on any harry potter stuff before, i think.
And after the busy-doing of prom, I can finally go pack my book shelf,
and start some serious reading!
My beloved books, here I come! Yeehaa!~~
Again, Harry Potter series is a must. I won't get sick of it,even though I think I have read the 1st three books over 10 times. Haha lost count:D
Should go to the bookstores someday to aim for more books!
Haha! Then perhaps I can make it in time for some xmas presents requests!
I love this december holidays!
Because I have tons of reasons to go shopping <3!
Christmas is just around the corner, and my mum haven't done christmas shopping yet!
Woohoo! I can offer to help her! (Y)
And! Next year's chinese new year is pretty early as well!
Which means SHOPPING AGAIN!
My life is full of fun, joy and laughter!
More exciting plans coming my way, and I gotta feeling that everyday is gonna be a brilliant day! :D

寻找梦想 9:05 PM

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