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cantiaohai aka mini_ds

Well, school starts and guess wad???
I feel that somehow with school going on, my life doesn't seem that tough anymore.
I even got time to slack around and stuff with bio lesson and so on.
I cannot say that life is getting better when it is still the same
old boring one, but it's definitely improving. I think.
Keeping myself busy is much better than being lonely.
A surprising news though: I am mc for speech day.
Dunno why i got chosen in the first place as i got sore throat and stuff.
It's not gonna get better this way.
Searching for lianzai again. It's really a very nice web lorh...
Can read until you mad diao lorh...
Nothing much to say.. Juz that i think presenting is more
ok than actually doing the project leh.
A little depressed nowadays.
Sometimes really can high... Dunno why.
Dun worry peeps, i will get myself back de.
You will see the crazy jiayi soon.
Yups.. soon, juz that i dunno how soon is soon.
I need a push from the back to bring me back.
I juz had that helpless feeling and i am lost somewhere
in the huge forest so who is there to give me a helping hand?
Any heroes? Peter pan? Souma kyou? Doraemon?
I dun like this feeling...
It's like you are at the edge of the mountain and that anytime
you might juz fall off. No security.
Can i scream into the air and let myself go free.
Sometimes i really wanna become a gust of wind and
be gone forever.
Maybe...

寻找梦想 6:05 PM

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Haiz... tmrw school reopens le and i totally heck liao lorh...
Dun care anything le. Well, perhaps a bit.
Coz i'm here to write abt the eng reflection lorh...
Actually i digressing liao lorh...
Nothing much to talk abt. But my sore throat
still make my voice weird weird de leh...
I am bored at home lorh... Nothing to do.
I'm still sad. x(

寻找梦想 12:54 PM

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Haiz... came back from spec course le.
Budden the result not that satisfying leh...
Lemme blog about it bah...
First day...chloe and i reach there super early and then
we sat there with the other queensway girls and i saw a couple of my primary school
friends. Couldn't recognized in the first place.
Then we went on the bus going towards pasir laba camp beside sispec.
I really dun understand leh..
If they want us to march there very often, why dyn they let
us sleep at sispec???
Okies larh... Pasir laba not bad larh.. At least got mattress not sponge.
First day they revised with us wads gonna be tested on the third day.
Basically got trainfire and ifc...
Then not much le. well, the next day we march
to sispec to listen to different talks and such.
Third day is the test le.
I super stressed up can... At first i failed stripping, then i failed assembling lorh..
Then all the others like so pro and i got really depressed.
Haiz... really enthu doesn't mean that confirm get the best lorh...
I think some of us deserved much more.
pity that most of us didn't get the chance to prove ourselves.
It's really a bit unfair.
Well, we will have to accept wads in store for us isn't it?
Dunwanna blog too detailed abt it.
It's not exactly a happy thing lorh...
Got live shoot yesterday and i hate myself.
This can be the first time i shoot that well, but
i screwed it all up coz without sandbag my arms tremble like mad le.
IAIA some more. Make me all panic...
Got 6 out of ten.
With sandbag, i can surely get marksman de.
haiz... then today also sick cannot go for parade rehearsal.
Hope they let me participate in the parade though.
Hope so.
School is reopening soon and i'm still struggling with my work.
I'm totally dead.

寻找梦想 2:53 PM

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Heyy.. here to blog about the 2nd day of my kayaking course!
Well, i'm not aching all over juz that the shoulder muscle a bit strained.
Cool rite??? Yesterday was raining almost all the time larh...
Sometimes drizzle then stop but got once was heavy rain with lightning lorh.
But we still carried on.
I can kayak ok now and i can kayak in a straight line.
My capsize is also okies liao leh...
Actually it's really not very scary larh...
Um... at first we juz kayak around and learn the classic draw and a few more strokes.
Then we went for lunch and after that we muz learn the rescue mission.
Hahas...it's like one person muz capsize that the other 2 muz help the
person to get back to her kayak.
This is the part when it was raining like mad larh...
Then my eyes were clog up with rain water.
When iris capsize, we dun really know wad to do
and further more we were being washed out of the
are out into the sea leh... With two kayaks and one overturned one.
The pedals are with me and we dun have anymore hands to pedal.
So we had no choice but to shout for help lorh...
Then the instructor came to the rescue.
I capsize really all right and i was being rescued all right as well.
*Appluase for me*
I decided to tag today as i will be going to spec course
from tmrw to thursday and i won;t be able to blog and sms
you peeps! So your muz miss me okies...
Oh ya, i nearly forgot to mention... I was really accident prone yesterday.
First, i accidentally scratched my leg with my own pinky nail.
Then everything seems to go wrong.
Everyone's kayak kept bumping to me and a major hit
nearly make me capsize. and i mean NEARLY!!!
Then got scratched on my arm by somebody's pedal.
Haiz rite???
And my ear got blocked after i capsized.
And i'm hearing echo in me whenever i speak.
Sir was soooo mean to say that i'm brain dead and that i can hear
echo inside me coz my brain is hollow.
And it definitely is not lorh...
Hmph! Mean lorh...
Anymay, wish me luck for spec course!

寻找梦想 11:20 AM

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Wah.... I'm like aching all over can... And i mean all over lorh...
Got kayaking course yesterday.
And it's like i'm very scared already when i heard how the first batch describe to me.
And i'm not a very good swimmer mah.
So i really very scared that i'll drown larh.
When we first launch the kayak, it's still quite alright de.
Until, one guy didn't balance the kayak properly and dropped into the water.
That makes me really really scared larh...
I'm like practically trembling when i got into the kayak.
Then, we have to kayak out to sea a little so as to form a line.
And that was terrible lorh...
It was very difficult for me to keep the kayak going straight so
i like going round in circles and going in the other direction.
I very scared larh... then it became alright when one
instructor came and sorta push back to line lorh...
Haiz... after that we are supposed to be kayaking to another beach.
But i still cannot control my kayak and i'm always straying off course larh...
It was horrible and i am among the few that lag behind.
After i reached the shore, i felt very demoralised.
It's like other pple can do it, why can't i???
Well, thats why i told my myself to buck up.
I sat with my platoon mates and we were talking when a guy
suddenly capsize!!! I dun mean the drill but it's
really suddenly flipped over when we haven't learn all the drills
and wad to do during emergency that kind.
So, we were all shocked and very scared lorh...
But that guy is all right.
Then, we learnt the capsize drill.
I very scared leh... And the first time was super uber scary.
I was rocking and rocking the kayak and then i was not prepared at
all when it flipped over.
I intended to rock a few more times de, but i think i over do it,
so it filpped over. So, i really did capsized!
Then all the water juz rush up my nose and
i couldn't breathe as i didn't take a deep breath!
I dun care le! I kicked and struggled myself out of the kayak and surfaced.
But that means that i never do the capsize drill properly
and that i need to redo.
The second time was all right.. I did ok.
After that, we had to kayak to another shore to go for lunch.
This time i kayak ok, but still a bit lag.
Then we went to beach road for lunch!
I didn't know that beach road is like so near to kallang lorh...
After lunch, we went back to do a bit more kayaking.
And i super lag again. HAIZ...
The instructor taught us a few more strokes and we kayak out to sea to practice.
Then it was time to go home.
Although i'm not very fast at kayaking, at least now i can try to
control my kayak a bit le mah...
We went to bathe and packed up and it's like 4 plus...
We decided to go eat lorh...
At first we saw that there are buses along the nicoll highway that
we could take home but we dunno how to cross so we walked on.
We reached another bus stop but it do not have those buses.
So we walked on and decided to take mrt.
We walked for like 30 to 45 mins to reach kallang mrt station leh...
I thought maybe we overshot kallang and ended at some other mrt.
But it seemed that we make a huge detour lorh...
As according to janice, their walk is only 15 mins.
So i dunno wad to do next sat. Take cab or walk???
We went to tiong to eat.
Ya, and we went home super uber tired and aching!
My upper arm is aching like mad lorh...
And i'm really sorry to my classmates as i cannot go to chalet today.
If i go, i think i will probably crawl there and asked everyone to help me
massage!!! The course is tiring but i muz admit, it's still fun!

寻找梦想 11:06 AM

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I'm at kexin's house now... doing geog project... haiz...
very pathetic leh.. I really dun have time liao lorh...
Then it's like i dun have time but i also dunwanna do hmwk.
Die lorh...
Nothing much happen lorh.. It's like my life is getting more and more boring and
spec course is coming. I'm getting so nervous...
And tmrw is kayaking course lorh...
Actually i'm very nervous and scared.
I also dunno why, scared that i'll drown maybe.
Budden i think it's supposed to be fun lorh.
But i think all the fun will be gone when i have to wake up so
early and this time on thursday, my whole body will be aching.
Haiz... guess that i'll have to bite my teeth and pull through it.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I still very scared leh..
Well, nothing much to say.
Just wish me luck bah.

寻找梦想 12:50 PM

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Hahahahahas...x)
I'm at jennie's house now waiting for constance to do our chinese proj.
Well, since we are not starting on any work yet, i decided to crap first.
So wad shld i crap about leh...
Um... i wanna die le larh. it's like i only got 4 days left to do all the projects
and the homework and stuff.
Oh... i think i said this before rite??? but nvm...
I dunno wad to write leh...
wah... long time never change skin le.
So probably i will change bah.

寻找梦想 10:31 AM

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Haiz... It's like wadd??? Holiday being bombarded with homework???
Well, i started some, but its still like moutain size???
Still got loads of projects as well! Like wanna go out to play also cannot... HMPH!!!!
Went to Serming's blog and it's like so cool can???
Toshiro SO the NICE CAN??? SO SHUAI4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yesterday went to zhaowei's house to do eng proj.
but we played more than we do.
We play daidi and slap jack. Slap jack is soooo funny larh...
I laughed like mad and sorta " drool" all over the place.
Well, cannot blame me rite? I was eating ice and they make me laughed so all
the water came flowing out. It's very funny by the way.
We played slap jack for an hour and a half lorh...
At first like say play half an hour then drag and drag and drag. hehe.
Well, nothing much larh... Finished san guo yan yi though and
i think i will forget everything when school reopens leh...
And CONGRTULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fran got 2nd sergeant.
Although she is not here to see, i still wanna congratulate her.
She should be on the plane flying to USA bah... UBER COOL!!!!!!
She has very good standard, it's natural that she get 2nd sergeant.
But me... haiz. think about it very sad le.
I dunwanna know what i will be getting. But i will definitely put in my best.
My whole effort and my whole soul into it.
JIAYOUS JIAYOUS JIAYOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wah... my dear dear platoon mates say the kayaking course until
i very scared leh... Especially the capsize thingy.
Hope i survived though.
Seems that my whole last week is being occupied leh...
pple got 4 weeks holiday i only got 3 leh...
Okies... Last week mon to thurs i got spec course.
Friday got life shoot leh... Life shoot leh..
Then sat got ncc day parade. morning till night leh...
After that still cannot rest leh...
Sunday my going to married aunt is dunno gonna do wad then all
of us muz be there. Guess wad i have the next day: School reopens!
Wad a joyous holiday i have. NOT!

寻找梦想 11:12 AM

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Well, i am certainly getting a bit worried on the rate i do my homework
which is super uber slow. But i really dunwanna do leh... Haiz.
Yesterday went out with constance and haiwei to do our geog proj.
We went to west mall first and it's quite okies with the aircon and nice nice shops.
Budden after that we went to beach road.
And it was hell!
I didn't expect so many pple to be there and i nearly got heatstroke.
It's super uber hot lorh... Its like you are a bun and in the oven..
STEAMING HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, most of them are quite friendly larh... But some is hm...
We spent quite long time there and haiz...
After that, we were still wondering how to go to bugis and
i've got no idea at all.
So i called my mum and she suggest that we go to Raffles Place mrt
to take to Bugis but the bus was very long and i'm feeling
giddy and have a headache!
Finally, we decided to not go to Bugis as it is quite late as well.
We took 100 and constance wanna alight at commonwealth.
Actually i can juz go home with that bus de.
But i am going to my grandma's house and it's at Ang Mo Kio.
So i decided to put a test to my memory.
My mum and i used to take the train to my grandma's house at Raffles.
So i alighted at the place that i rmb going with my mum.
When i was juz about to cross the brige, it was under construction and
i was stunned. But nvm, i walked on and i started to panic.
A lot of places are under construction and i'm definitely not familiar
with them. Juz when i thought i was lost, i saw a white building!
It's the mrt station but it's still quite far away.
But i'm feeling slightly more assured. Then, i even saw the
shortcut my mum used to bring me.
I was OVERJOYED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Whee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haiz... Adventure is over and i have to face the cruel reality to do homework...

寻找梦想 12:09 PM

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I'm at home doing nothing again. well, not exactly nothing.
I just finished the set of harry potter books again as i got nothing better to do.
Then i went to have a nap and snooze on.
Being dragged awake by my mum, i am here trying to do ss.
Which i doubt will be completed bah. My mum juz bought me a new mouse
and new ear phones.
And uunfortunately i pulled a muscle in my left shoulder while
i'm installing the new mouse and it is still achimg now.
Actually today i'm supposed to go shopping with my couisns at jb
but my mum keep nagging that i haven't touch my homeework
and how tired i will be tmrw. So i have to give up this chance grudgingly.
Haiz.. so here i am... being bored in my room.
I like my mouse though. It is white with a black splat and a girl on it.
First look at it and i beg my mum to buy.
She suggested looking at other varieties first before making a choice but
i insist it so she got nothing to say.
Actually i'm planning to buy an orange one but the design
did not fascinate me much. so..
I'm going to do the geog project tmrw before going to my grandma's house.
Hope the whole thing can go on smoothly tmrw.
Need to buy a few things as well.
I cut my hair today, from the length of half my back to shoulder length.
I cut my precious hair for the spec course lorh...
So that it will be easier when i wake up in the morning.
I'm getting quite tensed up already...
When i'm at the hairdresser's there is some sort of pot that dropped on the
floor and splattered the floor with soapy water.
Luckily i'm at the far end so i did not get a splat. Phew!
Hope pple will not be shocked with my hair though.

寻找梦想 5:55 PM

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