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cantiaohai aka mini_ds

Percy Jackson.
It's good, but it's not fantastic.
There is a plot, fortunately. And it leads me on.
But, the language style is not really to my liking.
And with the prophecy and the oracle and the chosen one, it reminds me of harry potter.
But somehow, I prefer Rowling to Riordan.
And I am even more certain of that when I started on the third book.
What's with him and Jesse McCartney?
"Ugh, Who picked the Jesse McCartney? Green Day is better."
It's not exactly great for an author to show favouritism.
I mean the Greek myths and stories are interesting enough,
you don't have to add in this 'spice' to liven up the mood.
Because it just makes me want to flush your book down the toilet bowl.
You are risking this with many Jesse's fans out there.
You can't blame me for saying that it's no wonder that these books didn't get too famous.
Well, but now they are mine.
These five books now sit in the shelves that hold many of my proud collections.
And I am not saying that the content isn't good.
Just the style.
Yes, it kept me reading on. I've been reading three books in three days.
Details, description are a little lacking.
Which explains the less than satisfying thickness of the book.
But I am not agreeing that quantity equates quality either.
I am just a little frustrated at the rate at which I get through the books.
And it's not that I can control it either.
I want to know what happens. In the end.
What's that major plot that's harbouring.
So before I finish it, I shall refrain myself from judging it.
Although I think I most probably did already.
Maybe I am just neutral. After reading it, I don't have the ohmygod-the-book-is-so-good-i-feel-like-i-am-in-heaven-whoosh kind of feeling.
Unlike Harry Potter, Nicholas Sparks, Jodi Picoult etc etc...
But still, it's good.
I smile, I read aloud. I imagine. I anticipate.
That's the best I can wish for I guess. It's not everyday that a good book lies in your lap.
Oh, and I happened to hear Hero by Mariah Carey in the supermarket this morning.
How apt.


There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your sould
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

[Chorus:]
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

[Chorus]

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

[Chorus]

寻找梦想 4:47 PM

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Are dreams ALWAYS the opposite of reality?
I had a weird dream last night. VERY weird.
First, I dreamt that I was being kidnapped.
By a freaking scary and ugly woman.
Who wrapped me in a huge transparent plastic bag and brought me on a travel bus.
(So, apparently I was some merchandise to be sold.)
I never got to know where I am supposed to be sold to because I ran away.
After we alighted from the bus, she asked me to ride a bicycle with her.
So while she climbs on the bike, I take off in another direction.
Then...
Suddenly I am in my school uniform in RV's hall, waiting for my results.
Dunno for what reason.
Bad lighting, bad printing, bad eyesight.
I couldn't see my grades clearly.
So I was trying my best to decipher the alphabets for most of that dream.
And with the help of I-cannot-remember-who, I knew my results.
I shall not say it out here. It's confidential.
Hmm, I sure hope that the kidnap will not happen in reality.
But, please let my dream of my results come true.
Let it be a foreshadow of reality.
Pretty please~

寻找梦想 3:48 PM

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Bleagh.
Got sick again.
I think it's the I-don't-care-I'm-gonna-spam-myself-with-popcorn-and-nachos mindset
that worsen the cough and inflamed my throat and taa-daa led to a fever again.
It's like deja vu.
Gah.
But I rest over the weekend, and I am back for work this week.
Monday was horrible.
I was only beginning to wave my monday blues away, when the print turned HUGE!
AT THE LAST HOUR!
Goodness me, no matter how I chionged, I can't finish 200 plus pages in an hour.
So, might as well slow down.
LOLS and then miraculously everybody left home earlier.
So I am the only one in my department OT-ing.
Hmms, that's a first.
Today morning was terrible as well.
Flooded. And quoting my colleague: Drowning.
Yes, pass me a straw please. XD
But then SLOWLY, it subsided and I caught up with the timing.
When I guess this is possible partly because of my lunch is bread in the office.
No appetite. Weird taste in my mouth.
But the taste is almost gone, so I can go for normal lunch tomorrow!
HURRAY FOR ME~
*Prays, for so many things I need to pray for, Prays*

寻找梦想 2:46 PM

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Today's workload is manangeable.
I am thankful.
I was reading my archives these few days.
And I see the childish me appear again.
And I've got half the heart to delete all my archives.
Because there are some past that I don't wish to remember.
But, I read on more, and suddenly I feel that won't deleting those archives be like deleting my memories?
They are the records of my past. Pleasant or otherwise.
Recording the events, the people I love and the lies and sadness I felt before.
Though it's filled with mistrust and hurt, but it's filled with my love as well.
And I just came across a post talking about a guy.
A guy that is my type. And he talked to me in school.
But I don't remember. Who is that guy and what exactly happened?
Will that happen again 10 years down the road?
With me reading my archives again, and not knowing what I was talking about.
Not knowing, not remembering the people that have once impacted my life.
Who is he? What did he say to me that only I comprehend?

寻找梦想 2:18 PM

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Horrible day today.
The amount of print is normal, acceptable.
But the unexpected problems make time run even faster.
GAH. First, the alignment runs.
Then the paper jams.
Then we run out of paper.
Then the alignment runs again.
And the paper jams again.
And I have no idea why my cough is back.
And I am spamming water like mad.
I ate nasi lemak btw. Which, again... I DON'T LIKE! >.<
I don't eat that kind of fish.
So basically, my nasi lemak is just otah and ikan bilis.
SIGHS. I can't seem to satisfy my craving for popcorn at all.
Just when I am going to eat it today, my throat killed me.
BLAH!

寻找梦想 3:56 PM

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HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!~
And HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HAIWEI! <3

Today is valentine's day, but nothing feels different.
Hmm, there is TITANIC tonight!!!
Should I stay up and watch?
But if I do, my monday blues will continue to tuesday.
Sighs, I hate mondays. Gah.
Took a sneak peek at the report of my workload for the next hour.
Ugh, I guess now will be my only free time.
Bleagh. Don't the people have life?!
Stop submitting the certificates! It's valentine's day!
LOLS a bit no link, but yea.
MONDAY BLUES.
DATE!!! <3

寻找梦想 9:44 AM

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Chiong-ing through the papers so that I have time for lunch.
Pia-ing at the very last minute so that I can go home on time.
Freaking out when the paper jams in the printer.
At lost when I couldn't find the things that I want.
Exasperated when I have stamped wrongly and I need to reprint.
I could get used to these.

Humming to Jesses's songs.
Dancing in the printing room.
Leaning over the partitions and talking to everyone in the department.
Shouting across departments to reassure them that I've eaten.
Sneaking out to get hot water for my tea.
Joking about and grumbling when my supervisor teased me.
Smiling when the guys freak out when I offered my help in their manual jobs.
Giggling when I got caught slacking.
I could start to love these.

Nearly scalded myself with the tea when I tried to balance the cup while opening the door >.<
But, it's fine. Doesn't hurt a lot.
My colleagues are trying to force me to drink some chinese medicine called 24 herbs when they heard me still coughing.
My supervisor even offered to treat me.
BUT the mad glint in her eyes told me that she obviously have a motive!
Heard that it's extremely disgusting, though it appears to be effective.
I immediately declared that I am well already! LOL

Got harrassed by some weird stranger on msn.
Blocked and deleted him.
Why do I keep attracting this kind of weird and desperate sickos?
Why can't I attract shuai and quiet and poised guys?
I saw some singapore mediacorp artiste He Tian Ci while I was eating yesterday.
Err, ohkays. No one walks up to him or recognizes him.
Maybe they did. But, like me, no big deal.
It will be a different story if I am in LA and I see Jesse strolling by.
Sighs.

Went to town yesterday.
Had a great time. Had a great meal. DAMN FULL.
Drank Koi while waiting. Chatted with the OCBC promoters.
Started with her asking me where did I get my koi. LOL
And a credit card promoter at chinatown mrt approached me like TWICE?!
Though I didn't satisfy my craving for Italian cuisine, Din Tai Feng is not bad:D
I didn't get to indulge in marvelicious cream either.
Hmm, neither did I buy the blouse that I fell in love with.
Good control or what huh.
I am going to put that blouse to the one week test.
Osmose is having a 50% discount storewide.
I walked in because they were playing Jesse's Just so you know.
HAHA and I walked out when the song ended. XD
I WANT THE PEDRO'S 89 BUCKS NUDE-COLOURED HEELS!
(That passed the one-week test ok!)
I am so going to 313@Somerset again!
I WANT TO SHOP!~

寻找梦想 10:22 AM

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A rather crazy afternoon today.
I was like dealing with 200 plus pages of papers in an hour and a half?!
So, I decided to dapao my lunch.
Otherwise, I really cannot finish T.T
Hmm, nasi lemak not really to my liking.
I do not like nasi lemak fish. And chilli.
Ah wells, so now when a slight breather came, I decided to go wash my pretty purple flower cup and drink my tea:D
But then I poured the tea leaves in, and the smell is DISGUSTING.
Sighs, I should really go and hunt for NICE tea bags and coffee bags.
OH. Then at the pantry... I pressed, but nothing came out.
I am not sure whether if it's out of water.
If it is, I have no idea how to boil it.
And... If it isn't, I have no FACE to go and ask my colleagues how to work it.
I am through with that.
I have had enough shame when I asked how to open a rice cooker and got laughed at by my uncle and my mum like FOREVER.
Oh, let it pass already.
Hmm, so no tea then.
I am crazy about Jesse. AGAIN, I know.
I watched his AOL session of I told you so like more than 5 times in a row last night.
It's awesome. He's awesome <3
I love it when he sings a certain word:D
And he uses that word pretty often:D
Makes me feel that he is singing to me~~
What? A GIRL can dream, can't she?

寻找梦想 2:38 PM

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First day at work after chinese new year and the illness.
I have so many things to be thankful for.
From now on, I will be on my own.
Sure, people pop by and ask how am I coping.
But, the bulk has to be done by me, myself.
I guess, the reason that I am still hanging on is because this job gives me great accomplishment.
Hmm, I guess I have nothing much to complain about then.
Oh! And... the people here are really kind of nice:D
My supervisor... If you do your work nicely and stuff, she is really nice and fun to be with:D
She treated me and another colleague who left to lunch last week.
It's really expensive because we ordered quite a lot of stuff.
I offered to share it with her like contribute my share for the other colleague's farewell.
But then she says it's on her as I am a xiao mei mei.
Haha I guess being called xiao mei has its advantages as well luh:D
Today, company got give ang bao!
10 bucks leh! :D Woohoo!~ So generous:D
And today, people kept asking me whether I am ohkay, as in health wise.
Even the other department also started asking.
Lols it feels great to know that there are some who miss your presence.
The situation goes:
I cough, cough, cough...
"Aiyo, ohkay ma?"
"You ohkay not?"
And so on luh...
And my supervisor lend me her cup and gave me one of her high class tea bags.
WAH! Damn nice leh! I was like drifting through the clouds when I drank it.
I shall go and buy some tea bags and coffee bags too!
And I shall give her one that I find nice too!
Ohman... My salary please appear in my bank...

寻找梦想 2:41 PM

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生平第一次去了急诊室。
心脏猛烈的跳动着，不知道是因为害怕，还是因为温度太高了。
感觉自己好像昏睡了一阵子才被拖去医院。
在德士上有很多混乱的想法。
是骨痛热症吗？ 手下意识的摸了一下大腿被蚊子咬过的痕迹。
会烧坏脑袋吗？是不是像电视那么播的，发高烧至四十度就会变智障？
需要打针吗？需要抽血吗？需要住院吗？
呵呵，是啊。想太多了啦！
只是气管发炎，导致发烧。
发现我的气管很弱。去年也曾经发生类似的事，只不过没烧得那么厉害。
那位医生人也很好啦。一直安抚着我不安的情绪。
也明白我不想要住院的心情。
所以配给我一大堆药后，我凌晨一点半到家继续昏睡下去。
经过这两天，我才真正明白什么是吃饱睡，睡饱吃。
只是我吃得很少，睡得特多。
可能是那个抗生素药性太强，让我一直有想吐的感觉。
舌头上的味觉好像都消失了一样。
喝牛奶，喝不到牛奶的香醇。
吃鱼肉，吃不到鱼肉的鲜美。
无奈。
从医院回来的那个晚上，睡到一半，还跑到厕所吐了一番。
咳嗽药水，喝了让我马上 KO.
快疯掉了。
唉！因为这样我还错失了星期天再去打麻将的机会。
真是可惜啊。
在家里那么久了，就更不想去上班了。
不过，该面对的，总得面对啊。
还有，这一病，让家人朋友担心了，不好意思。
我会尽快好起来的。没事了。

寻找梦想 7:45 PM

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It feels so weird, this cny.
It doesn't feel like cny at all.
Everything just feels... too normal.
My mood, the festive season blah, i don't feel it.
Yes, we go about doing things that we do every cny, but somehow the feeling is just not there.
But I am not saying that I didn't enjoy it.
I got loads of hongbaos:D and I play tons of mahjong too!
Though I lost quite a lot this year.
Still nursing the hole in my wallet T.T
And I ate loads of goodies, so much that I am on the verge of sickness.
Or should I say that I am already sick?
Should I then be glad that the flu bug caught me after the cny?
But there are still tons of goodies waiting for me at home >.<


It simply warms my heart when the little ones wound their hands into mine.
And then smile up at me, as though I am their world.

I received an email that makes my heart missed a beat.
I get paid for writing?!
It's not a huge sum of money.
But for people like me, it's the notion that counts.
Yes, fancy that coming from me.
But isn't that another step closer to what I've been working so hard for?
So I should probably totally get my ass down to that favourite tree of mine and start writing.
Perhaps, I shall make do at home if I get MC.

寻找梦想 9:18 AM

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