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cantiaohai aka mini_ds

The War thus begin.

寻找梦想 10:59 AM

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Panic Attack.
I am totally freaking out now.

I have to cool down.
Oh God!

寻找梦想 8:31 PM

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项羽平！帅！
梁志豪！可爱！
好喜欢这两个大男生！
竟然能够爱得那么深，那么体贴！
他们的爱会让人祝福，会让人微笑！
会让我再度燃起希望！等待属于我的草摩夹，我的金淳熙！
让我重新相信，会有那样的男生出现！
他们连吃醋都那么可爱，表白都那么感人！

昨夜，我竟然听梁志豪的真心话感动到哭了！
典型的可爱好男人！
满满心欢喜！

寻找梦想 11:58 AM

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你管得太多了，越界了。
是我做得不够明显，还是你太笨？

寻找梦想 9:18 PM

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她好漂亮哦！不管什么角度都很美丽，很妩媚呢！


心情跌落低谷，忍耐着，不让自己哭出来。
因为，大家都叫我不要哭。
心情虽然很不好，但还是得强颜欢笑。
在别人面前装出一副无所谓的样子。
如果，你真的想要让我开心，请你带着我走到一个无人的地方，让我对这蓝天，尽情大哭。
如果，你不想让我身心疲惫，那么请你不要再逼我微笑了。



Saw a cute Japanese couple on the bus today, when im going home!
So cute! Typical cute Japanese guy and girl!
Woots~~~

寻找梦想 8:31 PM

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Read my most recent post, and realised that what i meant to phrase as happiness came out to be emo-ness.
Am i that sad inside?
Am i avoiding that problem so well that i have forgotten that it existed?
I thought everything was fine.
And then i began to look back.
I am only fine with certain people.
People that i can trust and i can be myself at ease.
I do not have to pretend, and i do not have to accomodate to the wishes of the others that i do not really care about.
I want to be with my true friends, those who accept me as who i am thoroughly.
And then i realised, i am beginning to shut myself away.
I want to be alone.
And i want to mug.
I long to mug, to dwell myself in the notes, notes and more notes.
Because, by doing so, i feel that i am actually doing something.
Isn't it the same 2 years ago? And 6 years ago?
Is it the exam stress?
Or is it so coincidental?
Every year when i am having some major exam, i will be facing with some friends or relationships problem.
Then i have to shut myself away?
Well, I dun mind actually.
Sometimes, i am so tired that i long for some time alone.
Some quietness.

But, i still long for some fun.
Some hanging out with my beloved friends.
Shopping too!
I wanna watch Shrek Forever After, and i have gotten the approval to buy the Rubi Shoes!
Go with me?

寻找梦想 11:53 AM

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爱情总会让人冲昏了头。
尽做一些让人意想不到，也让自己意想不到的事情。
把对方的喜好，变成自己的。
把对他的体贴，包装成不同的样式，想不被他发现。
只想让他沉浸在自己给予的温暖泡泡当中。
也不需要让他看到自己的笑容，只需要看到他的笑容就行了。

金淳熙也是这样。
即他之后，我又看到了另一个浪漫，发自内心的爱情故事。
那么的伟大，那么的幸福。
我看到了他的诚意。
原来，项羽平也是这样。
从我懂事以来，这两段爱情是我看过最经典，最美丽，最无邪的了。
我以为，那种感受只有在淳熙身上，那么完美王子的身上才找得到。
没想到，今晚让我从另一个男人身上看到了那种气息。
那种，不需要任何回报，傻傻的爱。
对方的幸福，就是自己的幸福。
这种感觉，只有他们两诠释得最好。

今天，我又看到他了。
这样下去，真的不行啊！
我明明知道不可能，明明知道那是比梦还更难实现的，
但是心里激荡起的涟漪，不是我所可以控制的。
看到他静静的，独自一人坐着，望向落地窗外的景象，我就好想过去和他一起发呆。
可是，往往，每当我回头，他都已消失无踪，和他的公主远去。
可笑的事，他的公主是我的好朋友，看到他们，我的心里会莫名的画上一道疤。
然后默默的，独自一人用泪水，企图掩盖疼痛。
然后继续当我的鸵鸟，拼命的想要逃避，不去证实那个问题。
等我发现时，它早已开始萌芽，根深不见底，无法拔取。
那，希望我们能维持现有的关系，至少在可以微笑的时候，微笑。

寻找梦想 9:58 PM

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I realised i blogged quite a lot this weekend.
Perhaps it's becuase i have extraordinary huge amount of things to comment on.
Hmm, browsed through some pictures of Souma Kyou just now.
And realised that I still feel the same way i did approx. 5 years ago.
"Can't believe that i still want you"
Then i went to facebook and browsed through a couple of pictures of my primary school best friend.
Well, you changed a lot.
And, it's just... I somehow lost the connection.
What will we do if we meet again?
Do you miss me the same way i missed you?
Well, there is just this sense of unfamiliar-ness.
I don't know.
Sometimes life just doesn't feel right with some people missing from our lives.

寻找梦想 8:16 PM

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Woke up at 7am today. So proud of myself to be able to force myself out of my beloved bed so early on a Saturday morning.
Went for the Economics Seminar today.
Well, i guess it was all worth it.
The speakers talked about several issues that were rather relevant to out syllabus.
That's great!
Although i will appreciate more examples from around the world for me to apply to essys.
Oh well, me and anna went to Anchorpoint to have a small lunch.
Haha because both of us ate a little too much at the reception.
Hehe, the reception was nice with little cakes and sandwiches! :D
So we weren't that hungry for lunch.
Went for a little shopping as well and saw a pair of shorts that i quite liked!
But it is 39 bucks! AHHH! Why wasn't i with my mum?
But, it is a little too expensive for a pair of shorts i guess.
Hmm, i cannot deny that.
But i still fulfil a bit of my shopaholic self by buying 2 pairs of extremely nice earrings!
Felt so happy, although i am seriously in a deficit now.
i have to put up my pockets and held on to it tightly for the rest of the month!
Ahh, ohnos! but i spent it on things that are so worth it and made me happy.
So, i am without regrets!
Yeehaa~~~

寻找梦想 8:20 PM

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Frills and Ribbons. Light colours.
This season's fashion.
ohmygod! Looking at all those fashion walkways and the pretty pretty clothes,
just makes me feel like shopping!
And! When i was buying Mothers' day presents on Thursday, i saw this nice shorts in PMK! I wanna buy! But anna dunwan share with me!~
ANNA!~~~~
Buy 2nd item for $10 leh!
Buy with me la! I want!~~~~
And i saw super nice shoes at RUBI!!!
Pink and white stripes with ribbon! PRETTY!
I WANT~~~~

Everything just gets even more complicated.
Everything i do just don't seems to be right.
这些都不是我想要的，其实我也很为难。
当你两面都不讨好的时候，该怎么办呢？

寻找梦想 8:28 PM

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LOVE JUSTIN BIEBER TTM!!!!
FTW!! So what if he is younger than me?
He's IMBA! He's got charm! And he is cute!
Ohmygod! haha ftw!!!

Slightly more relaxed this weekend.
Although i have 2 more tests to go next week.
Well, at least econs and chem SPA is over.
Hmm, and can't wait for tmr!
What with the relaxation at my favourite place and celebration at night.
It's gonna be wild!!!

寻找梦想 1:23 PM

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