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cantiaohai aka mini_ds

我很混乱，这到底是真的吗？
心里面，什么滋味都有。。。
怎么办，我很害怕，陷下去了会受伤。。。

寻找梦想 7:56 PM

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当我不再对 4i 有所留恋，这应该对别人来说没什么影响吧？
可是我又可能不留恋吗？
我流泪的时候还会有人为我擦泪吗？
真正的朋友还在吗？
我看重的人也同样的吧我看重吗？还是纯粹是自己的一厢情愿？
在我最有需要的时候，你会再给我一次拥抱吗？
我可以。。。 那样去相信吗？

寻找梦想 7:59 PM

haha, pple i am in school now and i feel weird.
it's like this com is not mine lidat lo. Is this my com at all? haha like isnt my com at home? haha
ohwells, i guess i will be bringing it too tmr as well although it indeed is heavy.
and i totally lagged away today.
i regret, yes i do. i regret not doing my podcasts.
and lets not talk abt math test and juz leave it to fate bah.
i went bras brasah complex ytd, and a lot of funny things happen lo
it's the sticker story!!!
I bought my laptop cover from the damn damn big popular!! ORANGE!!
then i went national lib to lag a while.
and a guy came to me with his cover filled with stickers haha
and he asked me how he looked haha and im like quite straightforward lo.
i said: you look funny!
haha then actually is like some confidence proj so i donated 50 cents and took one sticker off his face and then it's now on my wallet haha
then even the sticker is abit like orange colour lo.
hoho... alrights, thats abt all lo.
and im blogging kena caught by ms lee oops

寻找梦想 4:00 PM

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stayed at home today all day long... lols i slept until quite late...
i juz dont feel like moving and doing anything today lo
so i ended up slacking quite a lot today.
watched spongebob today! finally... otherwise i sat always go out and miss the slot.
haha hmm, but i did math revision today...
dunno why i feel kinda relaxed (which is kinda worrying)
oh, perhaps is the topics are like kinda recent and they are still fresh in my heads.
but i think i will have to pia a bit tmr...
although im going out tmr... ahh there is simply not enough time!! -.-
gosh, my mum persuaded to go grandma's hse with her...
wells, i said ohkay on the condition that she buy my laptop cover for me.
i spotted the orange one. mwhaha DEAL!
lols ya, talking to constance on the phone makes me think abt 4i again.
haiz, the highness. me and constance shall go bras basah complex someday! woots! mwhahas

4i pple, listen up! i shall book all of you to go watch HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE!!!!! we muz watch together!
haha got trailer tonight!

寻找梦想 7:56 PM

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ooh today very happy leh coz today i wake up that time is bright bright morning.
like nv done that on a school day lo.
haha then when i go to take mrt, everbody stare at me lo like im some spoilt brat that pon sch lo.
haha anyway, im not ponning, haha did quite a number of funny things there.
i had fun lo! still had starbucks coffee... woots!!
got pics, but not with me now lo. haha but i love today!
i went bras basah complex and i found TREASURE!!!
budden i din buy coz go china buy is still cheaper lo.
but i left part of my heart there...
argh!

寻找梦想 9:10 PM

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tmr i dunid go sch! haha can wake up one hour later.
i think i go there also slack de leh.
oops and got math test next mon.
budden now got quite a lot of things to look forward to...
outings and outings and yippee
juz jiayou lo...
hehe and i dun think that i can do much of my PI today.
die

寻找梦想 9:26 PM

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dunno wads wrong with me today, dun rly feel like eating anything...
and i got the sudden urge to learn jap.
well, i have been wanting to do that for a long long time budden now i feel it even stronger.
i wna learn japanese and go to japan!
i want it!
ohya, today got hse meeting lo... ohkay la din rly get forced by mr teo...
budden haiz, im still in competitve run la... sai la every year lidat de lo.
at first nearly got dragged into cheering de lo.
got dragged over a distance over the hall lo...
thought the pple dunno me well then i will be safe le lo.
thought that i can finally participate cross country as a normal person... but still got dragged in..
haiz, ohmygod i love japan!!!
argh!!! *loves*
i love the language to the country to the shuai guys!!!!

寻找梦想 3:38 PM

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wah, today im like telling everyone abt 阿呆。。。
budden hor, i suddenly got the impression that it is still im my drawer leh.
ohmygod, i shall go and check later.
if it is still is, then im like emo-ing for a long long time for nothing.
tell pple, they will also laugh lo.
haha today i became the vendor for selling pens lo.
dun say my frens feel weird, i also feel weird lo.
haha but for the full colour set of the pens that my mum is gna give me, then i shall 努力。
haha but aft this one more round of the selling, i dunwan sell le.
rly very weird la... lols then nothing much le lo.
tmr no edit, so at least i can pia all my hmwk.
nxt wk needa bring laptop to sch, dear lappie, dun lag hor :D
then this fri i going the geog gis competition to support them.
nvr go sch the whole day! woots!
but i will miss chem prac... argh! will make up on tues. ohman.
die so late somemore. i wna die, juz kill me 阿呆。。。

寻找梦想 8:05 PM

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haha i reach home at like 5 plus today coz i consulted ms lee abit on my pi.
then, she said she can cab me home budden i wanted to go home with siyu else she go home herself meh hahas see im so nice!!!! (i knw im totally zi-kuaing!!!)
i miss 4i.
now it's appearing to me more and more that im actually missing 4i a lot.
i miss the classroom, i miss the atmosphere, i miss the laughters, i miss the teachers and i miss the people, 4i people!
They are the one whole big group of pple that i can be arnd with as me entirely.
i am soooo comfortable with them that i can totally be the crazy me all day long without them glancing at me weirdly.
i dunno, it's just not the same.
5 mins together with my old beloved 4i pple, i can chiong into the laughing madly mode.
and i miss this me... laughing like some maniac...
5k says that im mad, says that im crazy, but thats not the craziest of me.
and i miss the super crazy me that will only surface with 4i pple arnd me.
i dunno, i dun exactly feel out now or outcasted or anything.
it's not that. 5k is great, we have fun together.
maybe it's the fun that i have 5k that reminded me of the fun i used to have with 4i.
and the fun suddenly shows me how different it is.
i love 5k... great class really, but i cant help but miss 4i...
how i wish time can fly backwards...
时光倒流~~~~~~~~~

寻找梦想 7:32 PM

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dabian, im hurt! am i that insignificant...
为什么事情总是那么的不如意，那么的伤人。。。

寻找梦想 1:21 PM

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today's weather is like a little too hot for my pleaasure...
im like perspiring even when im sitting down and practically doing nothing...
haha lols today i went for meeting. haha ended up with me and sheila only...
and my studying period was gone becoz shiyuan cnt make it.
ohwells, so i went home and scared my mum, she din expect me to go home so early u see...
and my com is up to smth again... haiz, sian la.
ohwells... i did a bit of work today but yea yea, the uaual distractions.
oh, today when i flipped through the newspapers, i realised that the sniper is NC16.
so that means that i watched my first NC16 movie!!! woots!
devoted to huang xiao ming and edison chen!!!
ohkay... i still feel like watching movie! with all the pple i loved!! <333

smth i thought abt while doing my chem tutorial

哭泣
还有什么意义
没有任何决定
可以让我回到过去
那些有你的回忆
难道永远只是梦境
回想起的快乐
有悲伤参杂在一起
眼泪慢慢往下滴
模糊了你远去的背影
你没有任何回应
让我始终搞不清
这一切到底是真实的
还是全都只是一场游戏

寻找梦想 8:17 PM

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haha i watched the sniper today! it's like damn damn nice!
edison chen is not exactly the main lead la, but then huang xiao ming is damn cool!
the plot is not juz like some police show lo...
it's unexpected... u wont knw wad happened, till they showed it to u...
no prediction at all! it's damn cool...
although the 2 male lead died in the end, including huang xiao ming...
but i think huang xiao ming in this show the character development not bad
haha he play the role quite well. haha although the good guy and bad guy died, but edison chen survived lo. like he is the last one to shoot, so he killed huang xiao ming... although with the help of ren xian qi la. lols
then like edison chen surpassed them la...
haha but they are all pro lo...
they talked about breathing techniques...
then reminded me of the days when i was holding a rifle...
haha my shooting sux, how to become a TOP SHOOTER la!
lols anyway, i LOVE this show! haha and the guys!! YIPPEE!

whenever i walked past, my heart aches actually...

寻找梦想 9:18 PM

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today i think edit quite slack lo. then im like sorta guilty coz like nvr do anything lidat lo. sad and so troubled lo.
haiz, we went to watch the math of floorball team against netball team!!
screamed until im like almost hoarse now!
but im very high and agitated throughout the whole match!
haha floorball won! woots!!!!! 9-4!
ohmygod! im so happy for them! CONGRATS!!!!!!!
im impressed lo, they played quite well haha the way they dribble the ball haha
is like so good la, can feint the movement de lo...
haha fengye asked me whether i wna join tennis.
im tempted but muz see whether will clash with edit a not lo.
haha edit is always my first priority!
no geog and i slept for half and hour haha felt pumped up after that lo!
haha
ohmygod, i din manage to blog abt smth ytd...
haha school montage came out ytd then i like ask some of the pple whether got see
my article, the one that i wrote lo.
but before i can rly ask, got jnrs and a lot of pple came to tell me that im on the cover lo
haha ohmygod! i was like so stunned la!
even mr wong recognized me and told me abt it lo!
argh! i was wearing a mask leh, dunno why im still being recognized so easily. haha lols
but see my name on the top of the article i wrote was still smth nice and happy!!

阿呆，今天下了好大一场雨，是你在想念我吗？

寻找梦想 8:28 PM

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今天的云朵很漂亮，有散散的，也有 solid solid de! 看着看着都会着迷呢！

看到彩虹，心也笑了。
在云朵当中，有七彩的颜色，染红了你的小脸。
虽然只出现短短的时间，让我看到了，便是一天的幸福。
这样透过天空让我感受到你的心情，让我知道你的存在，让我知道你一直都在。。。

我看到了你给我看得彩虹，虽然我没有拍到，但是还是好开心！
argh, dunno why cnt upload the pics i took. haiz...
sian la

寻找梦想 8:26 PM

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ohkay, i shall blog abt ytd stuff la. i ytd went out of my hse at 815am then i went home at like 915pm!!!! lols more than 12 hours leh... hmm.... 13 hours to be exact!
i went to my geog teacher hse! at sembawang lo and im late for like 15 mins! argh!
haha i go there is nothing to do de lo. i went there to play with her rabbit.
coz the rest of them went there to do GIS project so im like the only one slacking there.
i played with her rabbit! super cute! haha then i saw it shit!!! argh! and i saw it ate the shit back!
argh! it did it twice lo! then im like totally err diao! then hor, ms tan very very nice! she treat us pizza yays!!!!!
haha then im so gna blog abt this man!
i saw three shirts that i super like! but the price also super high la.
got one grey one not bad... 33 bucks still acceptable! woots bring my mum there nxt time.
ohmygod! im gna die! it's weird collar de! damn damn nice! im in love haha
then then then i saw another yellow shirt! it's those kind inside still muz wear smth de.
got a lot of holes but the sleeve very big! argh! it's damn damn nice!! 49 bucks! argh!
ohman, then still got one 披肩 pink colour de! ohman can wear it in anyway i like! 39 bucks!
haha but i think i will go bugis to see got similar and cheaper ones a not lo!
haha now money and style is all matters lo.
i shall strive to become a 便宜服装达人！
haha ohkay la, then i went to my grandma hse and then lagged there and i realised that now, currently, im pia-ing my gp again. the podacsts sux argh!
haiz....

朋友。。。 就是在你又需要的时候，陪在你身边的人。
那么，有没有人肯留在我身边？
为所有的一切，我会，一定会去努力。

haiwei, you danced beautifully today! today got syf dance preview. ms tan rly nice lo. let us off 15 mins earlier and let us go see the preview.
yr 5 the dance is super nice!
有感动到我耶！我的心颤了一下！加油！

寻找梦想 8:18 PM

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and so it goes...

寻找梦想 4:26 PM

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i am disappointed. i guess i can say that.
ohmygod, i juz watch the drama for like 10 mins and i immediately turned it off la
ohman, i watched the drama of koizora...
and i can say that it sux. the guy is not shuai at all la.
and the plot is freaking the same as the movie!
no wonder the movie they change the make and female lead. no wonder the movie was so popular lo.
ohmygod! wad a huge difference la! haiz, i got half the urge to delete the episodes from my com.
i wont watch it anywhere!
i will only watch the movie with haruma miura!

寻找梦想 3:10 PM

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我。。。我不知道。我不知道自己的决定是否正确， 也不清楚会有什么后果。。。
但是我知道自己可以克服的！真的可以！我可以走出来的，然后迎接我的一片蓝天。。。

刚刚看到广告，有一部电影今天上映了！神枪手！有我喜欢的男主角演！
哈哈！好像看哦！有没有人要陪我看呢？
这个星期天要去 ms tan 的家！好兴奋！好期待！
还有还有，更好玩得等着我！
today get back report card. so-so lo. not very good but ohkay la.
wad else can i say leh. lols just work harder nxt time round lo.
juz that im grateful and thankful that i got participate actively in class lols
my econs grade is much better than wad i expected lo! woo! jumped a lot of grades.
but im still not very happy with my grades! jiayous bah!
went tio IKEA to eat hotdog with siyu and wuyi during my one hour break.
totally rushed back le but haha i think quite fun also! luckily im not late for geog lesson lo.
tests are like coming up again. argh!
waited for pamela for half and hour and then we went to stick the clealiness grade thing.
lols see im so nice! mwhahas
想念阿呆～

寻找梦想 6:03 PM

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我好差劲。我一直都没有发现我的阿呆不见了。陪着我，和我玩的阿呆不见了！
还有还有，我发现我对镇人越来越有兴趣了呢！我喜欢三浦春马，还喜欢上了戴阳天。
呵呵！还是第一次喜欢上新传媒的男艺人呢！
ohmygod, today abit paiseh, i waved to someone then the person nvr see...
hmm, i wave until quite 夸张 some more. argh!
but then when we walked closer he saw la, so it's alrightie! but then then ahem is there la....
and then i told myself it's ohkay and walked over with my head held high...
although it does disturb me a little but i tried to push it out of my mind.
hmm... then nothing much happen today lo.
our sch got this YOG launch and then ya, ended damn early and our mathe teacher went for band syf so we are like slacking!
haha but still have make up in the end lols.
i got PE at like 1240pm because of the YOG, Napfa some more.
haiz, i was feeling terrible then, damn pain la! ahh!
i told myself if my situps cannot get a then i dunwanna do le.
but in the end i made it! haha! i was so happy with my results for napfa this time round. but got regrets here and there la.
haha my 2.4km run got 14.50, not bad la not bad.
because i din feel very well at that moment also and i walk a lot! i mean A LOT~
a lot more than usual lo, i ran with tzehui and i lagged at 4th round le leh.
the trial i ran with her also and i only lagged at the 5th round and i only walked for a minute or so and my timing is 14.49.
haha but this time round i definitely walked more than 2 minutes and yet my timing abt the same. ohmygod shows that i ran quite fast this time round.
i immediately went to the toilet to rest and sit down there at the toilet bowl.
i very long time nvr lidat le leh, last time was sec 2 that time. exact thing happened. i went toilet too. haha
then hmm, situps i did 31 juz nice A, and i still got a lot of time to spare! yays
then hmm, wad else? ohya! my only regret! standing broad jump!
from p6 to sec3 i all get A de leh. last year i only jumped 178cm. my first B lo.
depressed, i was sooooo determined this time round.
i flew out almighty and landed on 181cm... zzzz still a B la!
then i bounce back and jumped out again, but then 175cm and i used up my two trys. sad.
then hmm, sit and reach! im proud of myself all right!
i got the best ever! 50cm! haha i took a deep breath and i pushed with my eyes closed and
haha i opened and i screamed! 50cm! haha yays!
then, inclined... 18 juz nice A also. no point doing more also wad haha
then shuttle run, i think i run until damn funny.
first time round, i fumbled when i picked up the thing and i got 11.8s, i sprint until i scream lo.
haha C!!!! haiz, i decided to do again haha and i got 11.4s!
i think my expression show that im constipated lidat! lols coz i hear pple laughing and i laughed too. but it's a B at least.
so all in all, GOLD!
i should jiayou for cca also!

寻找梦想 8:32 PM

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i wake up in the morning feeling so sian.
ohmygod! i dreamt! i dreamt that im wearing the ring of koizora!
haha at first i got a lot of things to blog le leh. but then hor, i lazy wait for my com to load la...
so hehe all forget liao lo.
oh, sat i went to my cousins' hse for his bdae party... lols it's a total computer nightmare!
all of them juz stuck there gaming leh!
leaving me alone with this small small cute LUCAS!
his cheecks are like so ohmygod!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im like super addicted to haruma now... i am afraid that i will not like any more guys anymore except for haruma la of course! im afraid.
pia-ing hmwk all the way last night... sian la totally la.
im so happy. haha

寻找梦想 3:54 PM

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原来，我真的很爱哭。

寻找梦想 2:22 PM

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悲伤，难过，很不开心，很不甘心。
只有真正失去过，才会了解到失去珍贵，宝贵事物的痛心。
沮丧，
躲在角落画圈圈，和画荷包蛋。。。
失落。。。
或许很多人都会说我太夸张了。。。
大喊大叫的，但是那真是我的感受。在那一当下，我真的很想撕破喉咙。。。
不在我的身边了。。。
应该永远多不会在了吧。
会想念，就让他留在我的会议当中。。。
让他沉淀到我心里深处。
悲伤过后，我还会看到他对我的微笑吗？
他还会在吗？她，峨嵋怎么可以这样！
那么有纪念价值的东西。。。
信息或痛者。。。
好疼。。。

寻找梦想 9:06 PM

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ohho! haha today nothing much la... but at first i thought everything is finally ohkay le budden...
argh! im getting stressed up again. there is simply like no time for everything.
ohman... haha today at my hse there, i got into the lift then had fifth floor i think got one guy came in too! ooh haha quite shuai wor! im like wow!
then he went out and i went out too and we were like walking in the same direction
then im like staring and staring and staring and then he took out a cigarette and smoked!
he smokes... so i immediately held my breath and deviate my path. haha
today got PW makeup lo... wah tired thought today no geog then can go home early for once.
but no lo! haha saw zhengyang and we lagged and talked! hehe he needa start cca
so i heck a bit and juz talk with him... :D
lols then go home that time, juz nice see ms lee flagging a cab.
haha we were like ooh-ing at her then she ask me whether wna go home!
i screamed yes and ran to her! haha woots thank her a lot!
then lidat lo... hehe nothing much. i got a couple iof things to buy...
i think im rly a shopaholic leh sometimes...
i rly feel like shopping! woots!

寻找梦想 8:22 PM

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ohmygod! i felt like blogging one line again haha but today i got smth to say!

寻找梦想 10:05 PM

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