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cantiaohai aka mini_ds

i hate lying to her.
and i hate the guilty feeling that i have after i slacked...
Zzz

寻找梦想 9:00 PM

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TWILIGHT!!!!!
TWILIGHT!!!!!
TWILIGHT!!!!!

ohmygod! i got my twilight!!!!! yays!
and i bought my fav strawberry cheese cake!!!! :D
went to crystal jade to buy it today! and all the nice and cute cupcakes!
haha lols
celebrated my 17th bdae!
and my cousins are sweet!
bryan asked: do u have a mp3?
me: yea! but i mostly listened to my phone.
Bryan: why? is it because it's spoilt?
me: no... but the ear piece is spoilt. u wna get songs frm me is it?
then no reply.
but then when i got home and opened the presents.
ohmygod! they rly bought me an earpiece!
and i got my twilight! and an esprit wallet!!!! ohmygod!!!
haha HIGH!!! and haha of course my first bdae prezzie of the year: bof posters!
lols ohmygod! this bdae is turning out great
and i believe that it will be better on my official bdae!!! :D
loves everybody!

寻找梦想 9:59 PM

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只有在那一种男生怀里才会幸福。
而我依然相信那样的男生还是存在的。
会为了女生，不惜一切。
为了心爱的人付出所有。
因为她就是他的全世界，全部的全部。

寻找梦想 1:28 PM

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喜欢那种被人重视的感觉
喜欢那种有人等我的感觉
喜欢那种扑去抱住好朋友的感觉
喜欢那种互相坦白的感觉
喜欢那种被人喜欢的感觉

真的只有在经历过黑暗过后才会更加珍惜每一束光。

寻找梦想 8:59 PM

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我发现每当我就要走到悬崖边缘，就一定有人会用力把我拉回来。
thankgod and fortunately... 这样我才不会失神的踏空，
就此失去一切，放弃了全部。。。
原本以为自己变得坚强一点点，但是原来我还是那么的脆弱。
一碰，一个问候，就会让我哭出来。
原来悲伤的情绪可以那么汹涌让我想要有自己一个人的感觉。
独自一人坐在诺大的课室里，安静的全部只剩下我的抽泣声。。。
有了大家的鼓励和支持和拥抱，我会加油的。会勇敢的！

寻找梦想 9:32 PM

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i dunno wads happening to me haha
i like slipped more than 6 times today lo!
ohmygod la! scared me to death and also scared the others arnd me too.
i still rmb got this instance that i wna jump down the stage...
but im a little afraid coz of my court shoes and stockings and skirt...
then finally when i decided to jump, got this jnr suddenly walk past...
then my body cnt coordinate well, like wna jump then dun jump lidat.
then nearly fell down the stairs...
ohmy... then the jnr still attempted to catch me... paiseh la argh!
i tell u...
is the court shoes that make me wna fall every time lo!
i slipped on drains! dropped the food, poured wated into my own sleeve...
accidentally skipped a step and haiz... screamed.
so many so many things!!

寻找梦想 8:57 PM

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烦！烦！烦！
so many things to do!
so many things not done!
lemme just drop dead

寻找梦想 8:40 PM

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ohmygod! wad exactly is wrong with me?
我今天才意识到我一点女生的矜持都没有。
i saw this dunno which country artistic looking guy on the mrt.
and ohmygod! the body proportion he has is like PERFECT!
the 修长的身形，完美立体的肌肉。ohmygod! make me 欣赏 throughout my entire ride.
haha and 我竟然有那种想要扑上去抱他的冲动。
smth is wrong with me, seriously.
thank god my consciousness wins over my subconsciousness.
but seriously too, this kind of body doesnt come everyday.
pity his looks are just slightly above average.
ohmygod! haha!

oh! today's competition was alright. i din perform as well i guess.
coz i din rly have time to finish my entire idea.
so i sorta rushed through at the end and my design sux.
i am always not that artistically inclined. ohwells. haiz!
but im glad i went becoz it's real cool! and i can write long and nice
stories again! that's defintely smth! haha

went to buy anna's and alex'a bdae prezzie!
personally, i like anna's prezzie a lot! coz it's so cute!!!!!
im like telling my mum, can i keep that for myself and go buy smth else for her next time? but i decided not to coz yea, i dun have any more time to go out actually.
Ion Orchard is huge la and ohmygod! at TAKA i saw this pretty pretty
music box with mickey and minnie on swan lake theme.
IT'S GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im like squatting there and staring and staring!
ohmygod but it's 66.90! my mum will nvr let me buy!
it's the perter pan situation again.
dunno like abt 3-4 years ago, i saw this peter pan snow globe in action city!
and i was bugging my mum to buy for me. but she says too ex...
and my mood jus dropped but true la, it's 99.90!
ohman but it's rly gorgey!
but i also bought myself a nice file today! haha :D

寻找梦想 9:56 PM

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i feel so happy now!!!
it's like it's fated and like my worries poof are all gone!
haha i knw that im going to have a special and different christmas this year!
all are confirmed and im totally looking forward towards it.
i knw it still got a long way to go and promos are like already staring at me
right in my face, i still cant help but feel excited!
Dun you, anna? haha

i have this creative writing competition this sat
and im again feeling quite excited about it too.
i quite long nvr use chinese liao leh!
but yes, i still love it and i hope that i will have inspirations on that day. :D
wish me luck on getting closer to my dreams! <333

i felt that he is drifing away and i cant seem to pull him back
because i have no good reason to.
i knw that he is popular and i knw that i cant keep him
becuase he belongs to everyone of us and not just me alone.
but i dun rly feel that kind of connection with him anymore.
is it just me, or does he feel it too?
that slowly, we dun have any common topic...
but i hope that this will not turn into a sad story
because i still like him and i still have trust in him.
i cant be selfish and demands him to stay by me only right?
i have no right to do that.
i dun think he even knws that im talking abt him.
he doesnt even visit my blog, so he wont see this anyway.
haha i will jus have to take a little time off my busy schedule for
all my friends lest they drift away from me! <333

getting past the week and i feel tired but glad and happy! :D

寻找梦想 5:53 PM

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虽然觉得有一点可惜，有一点遗憾，
但是抚摸着那光溜溜的书面， 闻着扑鼻而来的新书香， 我心里还是有许多许多的感动。
毕竟是第一次，虽然离我的梦想还很遥远，但是至少接近了一点点。
我好想继续把我所有的机会，
证明我的实力。加油了！吴嘉仪！

haha i fell today la...
ohmygod damn hilarious de lo...
i slipped off the small flight of stairs along the corridors.
my brain totally registered the fact that im gna fall
immediately when my feet cant feel the ground.
but my body is no longer in my control lo.
my body juz let myself fall lo...
haha my hands din even obey the command of going to break my fall.
so haha i landed on my butt and i screamed and i ended up juz sitting there
and laughing like mad. I laughed till i teared la hahah
believe it or not, im still laughing now lo!
haha

寻找梦想 8:54 PM

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one moment im happy, and another stressed.
i juz wished that there will always be somebody there beside me...
whenever im in need and whenever im scared.
i dunno how to face the darkness alone tmr morning...
i knw it's juz me but yea, im that timid.

ohwells, 有些哥哥真的会欺负妹妹，
但是我还是相信哥哥的本质，
会帮妹妹出头，给她依靠的好男人。:D

寻找梦想 9:32 PM

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ohmygod! tell me in which way did he change la...
still the same old demanding freak!
ohmygod! to think that i have tried to accept him!
NO!!! NEVER!!!
it's precisely from all these small details that can tell a person from the inside
and he is rotten from the inside!!!
no matter how he tried to change, it's still the same!
jus ADMIT IT! it's not gonna be any better
coz u juz suck! get that?
ohmygod, i feel so terrible screaming all this, but u knw wad
u are the one who shld feel terrible!
it was u who ruined my life! it was you that bring tears into my wordl!
it is u!!!!!! u!!!!!!!!! FREAK!
i cant believe that i lived with u for 17 yrs!
and i cant believe i used to lie in your arms and snuggle!
because u bring shame to me!
U CRASHED MY WORLD!!!!
but thanks to you, i am rebuilding it now and i found a lot of dreams...
But still, u suck!

寻找梦想 9:51 PM

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i dunno wads wrong with me la...
today got this book club thing with a couple of 5L pple
and mrs constance...
haha not bad la, the more we talked, the more i found out how bookworm i am.
i am actually excited about this entire thing and
the assignments that we are supposed to do...
i think this is like the only thing that i look forward in school now...
pathetic and sad right?
im feeling abit hollow inside...
time pass so fast that im scared...
i shall mug like mad and cry like mad...
i know! i shall watch koizora every week so that i can cry to relieve stress.
ohman, wad has the world become???

i know i can be closer to him...
and i know that he is good natured deep down
and i clearly knows that i have been touched by him a lot of times...
i shldnt have abandoned him, i shldnt have let the quarrels get in the way...
he is the closest i can get le bah...
他的那种隐藏在心里的温柔，嘴硬又心软。。。
那不都是我要找的吗？
从现在开始，我要对他多微笑！成为他世界的一部分！
哈哈！说的有点恶！:D

寻找梦想 8:14 PM

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i knew it i knew it!
都是错觉啊！
ohmygod! im like clinging on to life for the mere sake of weekends.
im sleep deprived...

寻找梦想 7:57 PM

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blogger is back...
haha at least the format looks normal but the font still abit weird leh

他的一句问候会让我笑一整天，
糟糕了，不可能吧。。。
这么快，那么没有理由？他完全不像啊！
可是那种舒服的感觉又怎么解释呢？

原来会骑脚车的男生那么帅
原来会游泳的男生那么帅
原来有修长身形的男生穿什么都那么帅
原来会打鼓的他也很帅呢。。。

不知道啦！好久没有这种感觉，都不知道是不是了。
潜意识说是，但是自己却觉得没有。
憋着，苦闷着，有点想吐的感觉呢。

寻找梦想 5:41 PM

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i know,
i know that the guy that i like is somewhere deep inside you,
but i can't wait for you anymore,
because waiting for you is like waiting for a rain in this drought.
It's useless and disappointing.
我就知道是错觉了吧。。。
这种时而心动，时而没感觉的心情，绝对不是喜欢。
或许，是你心里深处的那个角色深深吸引了我。
或许，是你人太好了，抵挡不了你的微笑。
我现在明白了。

寻找梦想 7:06 PM

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wasted my time away on slacking...
i shall see how long my good mood can last.

寻找梦想 7:35 PM

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i tied my hair brillaintly today.
i dun bear to pull it down haha will i be able to tie lidat tmr? lols

寻找梦想 8:04 PM

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很失败啊！
一点动力都没有。。。
又那么容易分心，完蛋了。

ohmygod im like so happy!!!!
i knw 2 of my bdae prezzie today!!! haha
THANK YOU TZEHUI!!!!!
you bought smth that i like a lot!!! ohmygod! *loves*
din knw u rly take note of the so many books i read! <3333
THANK YOU JUNAN!!!!! you bought me smth that make me damn excited too!
din knw u rly rmb which guy is it and find them for me!!!! <333
and both prezzies im getting them early!!!
YAYS YAYS AND MORE YAYS!!!
ohmygod i LOVE them all!!!!
BEST!!!! THANK YOU!!!!! *loves, loves and more loves!*

i juz watched Disney Little Mermaid and it totally rocks!
i bet like more than 10 yrs nvr watch le lo
im like relieving all the emotions i used to have!
i felt like a child watching all that!
yays i guess i need a lot more happy ending fairy tales in my life.
Prince Eric <3 Princess Ariel!
Prince Derek <3 Princess Odette!
These fairy tales juz make me feel so much better!
it's like in this real world, im lost, forgetting that there can still be happy endings out there.
and these very fairy tales reminded me that no matter how bad times are,
there are bound to be happiness. Every princess can find her prince!
and i feel so pumped up, so happy aft watching!
Ariel is my favourite Disney Princess! <3
it's perfect!!!!! someday i'll be part of your world!
it reminded me how carefree i used to be and how happy i was.
so, i gonna be that me...
the one that lives in a fairy tale, my fairy tale!

寻找梦想 8:59 PM

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as guilt spreads out...
i feel bad and ya, im not cut out for this kind of thing.

寻找梦想 9:18 PM

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trust, true friends
i believe that this is the best decision i have made.
the coin speaks the truth.

寻找梦想 4:25 PM

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ohmygod! they grew up!
so fast! i feel so detached.
what i remembered was that they were only sec 1s!
and now! proud of them!

jiayous ncc!<333

寻找梦想 8:07 PM

i feel damn disturbed...
i sat on the metal fence, waiting and i felt an uneasy stare
i looked up and i saw the face
unfamiliar and scary face
and he stared back right into me
uncomfortable
he peered down...
and insticnt told me to jump
i did and he stared even harder
and i feel even more scared, more uncomfortable.
although there are so many people around us
but i got the feeling that he can look right into me
right where he want to see
that makes me even more scared
then some pple blocked his view
and i felt more reassured
but then aft a while
positions changed, we board the bus
and he was close.
and he gave me that feeling again.
he tried to peer again, changed here and there
and i felt intimidated.
i should have slapped him right?
he is either mad or perv or simply despo but i think is all!
damn it!
im mentally disturbed!!!

寻找梦想 7:35 PM

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have you missed someone b4?
how can anyone missed someone that badly.
dun even realise that u missed him that much until u prick the wound in your heart again.
and it hurts, a great deal.
just like the sword is still in there, unable to pull it out.
then after the heartbreaking pain, it fades and became numb.
so numb that u din even realise that actually the wound has been always there.
hidden, afraid to be touched, afraid it will ache again.
is it really fated for us to be apart?
am i destined to always look at u frm the back and only from the back?
i missed ur voice, oh yes i do.
i missed the fun, the laughter that we had.
i missed u being beside me, tolerating all my nonsense.
why is it that this has happened?
i got so much things to say, so much things to tell u...
so much... i missed u and i rly wna be with u...
but i guess tht's only a selfish dream of mine.
that can only remain as a dream.
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.

grow up guys...

寻找梦想 6:12 PM

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我发现再会欺负你的哥哥，只要是哥哥都还是会对妹妹展露温柔关心的一面。。。
整天骂妹妹的哥哥， 在她生病的时候，还是会主动关心她，摸摸她的额头。
只要是哥哥都会袒护妹妹的吧！
真是好啊！只要是哥哥都会照顾妹妹的。
在身后微笑着看她迷糊的举动，嘴里虽骂她笨，但心里却笑得很甜。
哥哥都是那样的吧。。。

他的挥手和微笑。。。
我真的好没抵抗能力，我好开心哦！^^

寻找梦想 6:41 PM

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i rly do study better at night...
i wna go see the smiles which will brighten up my day!~

寻找梦想 11:54 AM

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he lives just to love her.
and he understands that he cant be the one living with her.
to be able to keep a life long promise and protect the girl you love is not easy, but to be able to let go is even harder.
that's true love!
how painful is it for him to choose to leave her...
he clearly knows that he will not be the one to go to forever with her.
so for her happiness, he choose to give up.
he choose to go, for her.
even though he is a robot, but he is definitely not programmed to do this.
he teared, he loved, he pained.
night <333 riiko
their love is inpenetratable by others, becoz their love is so pure, so deep, so true...

TENJO NIGHT!

寻找梦想 1:15 PM

我好像对笑容很阳光，很温暖的人特别没有任何抵抗能力。
为什么看着他们我就很开心？
他们简简单单的一句话就让我感到很温馨？
或许我真的很容易被感动吧。。。

寻找梦想 12:08 PM

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