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cantiaohai aka mini_ds

Had BBQ at my aunt's house on Saturday.
Yup, my paternal side with my 2 female younger cousins.
Wah, their BBQ high class one neh!
Premium lamb ribs are fantastic!:DDD
That scene made me think about snippets of Nicholas Spark's stories.
Grilling steaks at the backyard, overlooking the ocean.
Woah, it can be done in Singapore.
Provided if you had the money.
I roasted a few marshmallows only because most of the adults there dislike sweet stuff. Ohwells:/
But I won 20 bucks on mahjong!:DDD
Woah, I only brought 4 bucks there and totally CANNOT afford to lose!
I thought with that 24 bucks, I will be able to get past a week without having to visit the ATM.
I was wrong. So so wrong.
Me and my colleagues went to some korean restaurant on Monday.
18 bucks flew away.
Get past the week. My foot.
Sighs, but I have to admit that their kimchi soup is nice<3

Went to my maternal side grandma's house to celebrate my youngest cousin's 3rd birthday.
He love Thomas the Train so much that the entire cake is made out of it!
LOLS and naturally, the present we bought him... Is also Thomas the Train!
HAHA -.-
Hmm, had an argument with my mum on Sunday night.
Jennie and I were discussing about going to NTU's union camp.
I know if I fit that in my schedule, my calender will be damn packed and I don't have time at all to prepare for Uni.
I KNOW.
But apparently, my mum thought that I was insisting to go, so she got all pissed off and fed up.
And being almost that time of the month, my tears over-flowed.
I have no idea why she is being such a b****. HO! >.< but it's true.
I didn't do anything wrong.
Well, I think she feels that she didn't either.
Everything is alright now. But I just feel very wei qu...
Sighs, parents are... parents after all, I guess.

Hmm, in my faculty camp package, there is this entry pass to some club in Clarke Quay.
And since I won't be able to go to Union Camp, I think it will be great to use that enty pass to club.
But the people in my clique like abit reluctant.
I think asking my faculty people will be more appropriate, since all of them will have the entry pass.
But, but, but... HO! I dun even know them yet!:/

寻找梦想 3:35 PM

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-Saturday-
Met up with my paternal side cousins.
I have to admit, the elder sis is totally a replica of me.
Doesn't she feel irritated being compared to me all the time?
I sure am.
I mean, why would she wanna be my shadow?
Sure, outshine me. But is that really what her heart desires?
I mean where is she going to go after she outshines me?
Is she seriously going to compare herself to me for the rest of her life?
Oh, but the little sis sure is cute.
SHE IS CRAZY!
(That's why we click so well, we laugh together for no reason at all:D)

-Sunday-
Rot at home and laze around and basically doing nothing.
Nope, not even watch movies online.
I just finished up the rapist accusation book. Finally.
It has brought me so much pain. Because I hate accusations.
That guy is innocent and he got framed for sexual assualt twice?!
How can anyone, ANYONE take that lying down?

-Monday-
Medical checkup at NTU.
Woah, I was getting kind of panicky and jittery.
I hate medical checkups.
Got there and had to fill in some forms, and I realised need to pay 28 bucks.
Thank goodness we are allowed to use NETS, I only have 19 cash-.-
Then went for height and weight and eyesight test.
I think I screwed the eyesight test. Needa change specs I think pfft:/
Then we waited for about one hour to go into some room to see the doc.
The doc took my blood pressure and asked me to lie on the couch while he poked my tummy and use some hammer and hit the joints all over my hands and legs.
*Feels weird totally, and he lifted my shirt up to poke my tummy while Anna said her doc left her shirt on, so makes me feel even more weird*
Went for the urine test and x-ray.
Urine test is kinda easy, just that the nearby toilets are all under maintanece and I had to make a detour-.-
X-ray is uncomfortable.
Because we are supposed to wear the gown and the gown only without ANY upper body wear.
And we have to walk a short distance from the toilet to the mobile x-ray station in that gown.
Hmm, I was totally hugging my bag close to my body.
*Feels insecure*
Then after that is taa-daa, done!
Went to eat Swensens for lunch, SALMON BAKED RICE~
And shopped around a little.
Didn't buy much though, just a shirt that I kinda regret now and a really nice scrunchy!:D
(I bought the scrunchy partly because I feel bad. Because I knocked over one whole stand of clips in HELEN, ho >.<)

-Tuesday-
Back to work and feeling ultra sian...
Ate some special sotong ball noodles for lunch, quite nice:D

-Wednesday-
Had mango eggcurd for dessert *yums*
But the end result is an extremely bloated stomach.
And I couldn't run because I got dinner date:/
Went out with Anna and Constance to plan the overseas trip.
Clementi mall has become my second home seriously. LOLS
Borrowed 5 books and I practically have to hull my bag home. Heavy Ho!
Ate Ajisen and we managed to save a bit of money with my colleague's VIP card:D
Decided on 4D3N Hongkong trip. SHOPPING!~
*Prays that faculty camp don't land on that week*

-Thursday-
Had my favourite chicken noodle for lunch today.
And we passed by Spinelli and decided to sit down for a cup of coffee!
So me and two of my colleagues went to sit near the window and sip our coffee and chat and laugh and ENJOY LIFE!
And my colleagues wanted to treat me to some korean restaurant on my last day!
My response: Eh? 最后一天不是应该我请的咩？
She said: 没有啦。你的钱留着上大学用吧。
感动-ing!~
我会好好珍惜现在的时光。因为当我下一次踏入职场，再也不会有人把我当成可爱，没威胁的小妹妹看待。
也不会有人以淳朴，真切的态度对待我了。
所以这一次，我会铭记在心。
把这回忆带在身边一辈子。
Great<3
But one of my colleage came into the printing room to cry today >.<
I totally didn't know what to do.
Judging from her posture, she is hiding from the rest.
So I am not sure whether I should go up to comfort her or just pretend I never see.
So while I was having this internal struggle and before I could do anything, she left.
Sighs, have to thank hubby for giving me opinions about the issue<3
And hubby, take a deep breath, chill k?
No matter what, believe that everything will turn out ohkay in the end.
And even though things might not turn out the way that you want, remember to always find the bright side to everything ok?
LOVES YOU MAX~
On another note, met up with mum for dinner today near my workplace and she bought a shirt for me:D And we shared KOI!
HOORAY for her though we quarreled over a bug last night.
Something about the myth that bugs are our ancestors coming back to visit us and me always screaming for her to catch them.
Whatever-.-

寻找梦想 9:04 PM

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Lunch was good these few days.
Had mini steamboat today.
5 bucks for 2 prawns, squid slices, fish slices, mushrooms and loads of veggies.
And herbal soup base and rice.
Great deal! (Y)
2nd supervisor didn't come for yesterday and today.
Though she is very nice to me and is part of my usual lunch gang, I somehow feel relieved when she is not in the office.
Then I can read my book openly :p
Oops, and I can chat and chat with the rest non-stop, without her staring.
Haha:D
Oops, and after lunch we started talking about dresses.
LOLS and flooding me with comments about how short my dress is.
(we got really kinda high)
Sighs, they started laughing at the 2nd supervisor.
Not the mocking kind though.
Just something about someone offering a seat for her on the train.
Though I didn't say anything, I listened and laughed...
Gosh. *feels bad*

Registered for NTU and booked the medical checkup!
Going there on monday with Anna~
But I hope there won't be any blood tests...
*dizzy*
Mum went CPF Board today to ask for her SingPass.
I shall apply for the CPF education scheme tomorrow night.
And still wondering about hostel.
FREEDOM! INDEPENDENCE! But living out on my own?! pfft>.<
And thinking about taking up jobs during uni...
I seriously can't stand the idea of going back to the allowance system.
Shall pia and try to get the scholarship next year!
THAT'S MY GOAL!~~~
And thinking about taking up business as a major? minor?
Freak, brain, stop thinking.

Stopped watching skins.
I dunno why. No motivation to watch.
My interest burns up damn fast huh?

All in all, feeling great coz I ran on Tuesday.
And I can feel my stamina getting better!:D
And also looking forward to dinner tonight! (Y)

寻找梦想 2:42 PM

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Being natural with him, is natural.
I guess.
It made me think quite a lot.
Think back to the dream that I held on to so tightly before.
Guess we are kinda similar in different ways.
Still, I can't chase that lingering thought away.
And so, I chose not to think about it.
I chose not to think about how many more times, how many more people he did this with.
I chose to ignore.
Ignorant for me, has always been blissful.
Dreams huh?
Do we have the courage and what it takes to pursue them?
Or are we really going to turn our back on our dreams for the money?
Materialism, I can understand that better than he does.
And I can better understand the emptiness that fills me after retail therapy.
Quoting Rebecca (confessions of a shopaholic): "When I shop, the world is beautiful. And then it's not. So I have to do it all again."
But, I am not truly happy.
Happy on pay day, but for the rest of the month?
For the rest of the month, the happiness I seek cannot be found in the material welfare I provide myself with.
But our passion, our dreams seem so far-fetched and impossible to reach.
I guess I am always able to fall into you because we are so similar yet in so many different ways.
Listening is one aspect, understanding is... hard to come by.
How long has it been since I have talked to someone with a passion? With a dream?
A lifelong dream.
And someone who understands the feeling of not being able to commit.
Not being able to reciprocate to someone who is pouring their heart out to you.
Because we may leave and never meet them again.
(I am leaving in a month's time.)
Because we are not whole anymore.
Because both of us have people we love, and they have taken up so much of us, that we are unable to find soulmates again.
How can we seek for soulmates when we couldn't be theirs?
When we are already soulmates to the so many we love.

寻找梦想 9:36 AM

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Yesterday was kinda crazy again.
And I learnt that being stubborn is not going to change things.
The submissions are still coming.
And I still have to deal with that huge stack piling on my table.

I BOUGHT THE FRIGGING EAR PIECE!

Like finally.
All thanks to my colleague who helped me find the shop that sells it.
It's black and it's 18 bucks.
You don't know how happy I was to be able to plug in to 987fm this morning.
I heard Enrique Iglesias! <3
Before, I feel so disconnected! Ugh!
Great, that kept my mood up a little yesterday when the flow was shuuupa!
ROFLMAO!
And my colleauge waited for me to knock off:D
When apparently everyone has already left and I am still pathetically chiong-ing...
So sweet of her!!!~~~

Fell asleep really early last night.
Was a little disappointed when okto didn't show Animal Night.
(I think I got the timing wrong:/)
But I settled for a glass of coke and Nicholas Sparks' The Rescue.
It's awesome! Totally got feel!
COKE ADDICTION!
(The caffeine totally didn't work on me, I KO-ed at 1030pm lols)

Woke up and picked out one nice set of clothes!
I am wearing the Everlast tank top that haiwei gave me with the black cardigan I bought at JP with a white puffy skirt!
Yes, though I stay in the printing room all day, dressing well keeps my mood high up in the sky!
Am looking forward to the dinner gathering with clique this coming friday:D

Oh and I mentioned the issue about shortening my contract to my supervisor.
She agrees with me and so it's just the letter now, and the one month notice.
Then there will be nothing between me and NTU.
Oh, of course there will be the overseas trip!
WOOHAA! Life can be fun when you think that it is.

寻找梦想 10:40 AM

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Ohmygod! I went to watch Lion King today!
IT'S AWESOME!!!
The 100 plus dollar ticket is worth every cent!
The singing, costumes and props are IMBA!
Ohmygod! Especially the singing. I was so touched I have goosebumps all over my hand!
IT'S AMAZING!

I want to keep this memory alive in me.
That I will be able to look back and still sigh in satisfaction when I speak about this musical.





Circle of life and Hakunamatata was done really well!
And the young Sinba sings beautifully too!
I am really very impressed!
I think young Sinba's "Oh I just can't wait to be king" was done well too!
I was in awe and amazement the whole time!

I would want to watch it again definitely.
Maybe 10 years down the road, they might do a tour again and I will watch it again.
No doubt.
And it's almost full house today. I bet everyday.
They are really professionals who did a wonderful job.
I was so touched when they end, that I cheered super loudly!
When the characters came out to take their bows, I think that's the most satisfactory moment for them and also the moment for me to show my appreciation.
I am so happy to see that Lion King has been so familiar to us that a lot of people are singing along.
Especailly for Hakunamatata!:D
And they tried to incorporate singapore's culture into the show by adding chinese and dialects which adds a certain spice to it.
The effects were great too! You hear "Awesome! Cool" echoing all around the theater!
*I love the elephants!*

I love the Marina Bay Sands shops!
Fendi, Emporio Armani, Prada, Chanel, Gucci, Burberry etc.
Ohmygod, one day. One day, I will be able to walk in all of them and buy them! :D

Had dinner with my aunt's family at Ichiban Sushi.
And invited them to my house for a short visit.
Lols and getting excited because tomorrow I am going to watch X-men First Class and also go to the book fair!
I love this weekend! YEEHAA!<3
I don't think I can sleep tonight.
There is simply too much excitement and I am brimming with awe and happiness!

寻找梦想 10:45 PM

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Woah. 1st June already.
Suddenly felt like posting this because my colleagues are starting to mention about me leaving the office.
Has it been almost 6 months already?
I can still vividly remember the day when I first started work here.
Afraid, lost, alone.
And suddenly, I realised how much have changed.
And these bonds and friendships that I have forged, cannot be snipped away as easily as I used to think it would be.
Of course, everything has a downside.
My job is not at all a happy and smooth one and the people here are not the ultra friendly kind either.
But they did try to make me part of the family.
Making me laugh when the job was tough.
And chatting with me when I had nothing to do.
It's this peace that makes me look forward to the ending of every problem.
And it's them that encourages me on and pushes me forward when I feel like giving up.
I will be starting college.
A different world from them.
I will be going to NTU Mass Communication. Full stop.
Nothing can change that now.
And I don't want to change it either.
Talking with my colleague just now made me realised how lucky and fortunate I am.
To be able to pursue what I like at an advanced level, and come out to work in that arena.
She... She's a lot similar to me than I thought possible.
She has worked in a production company before and listening to her speak about her work with such passion and happiness, it makes me wonder whether I could be like her.
Why did I waver?
Is this my passion?
Yes. It is.
And I hope that one day, no matter how difficult my job is, I will be able to share with the others with pride.

寻找梦想 3:26 PM

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