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cantiaohai aka mini_ds

Well, yesterday was really a very sad day for me.
I also couldn't find the correct words to describe it.
Maybe i'm juz a complete failure.
I've never experienced this before and it hurts.
To you, it may be a miracle that i'm blogging about emo
stuff but actually i feel emo quite often too,
just that i dun show or tell.
I can be outcast coz of my ego and my zi4 lian4.
And maybe my madness. But i'm not sad as thats me.
And i'm not gonna change who i am juz becoz you dun
like me and ask your friends to outcast me too.


But this is not the case, my efforts had gone down the drain.
It went unnoticed.
It was blamed.
By my best friend. She doubted me.
I dun blame her, coz it's my fault and she did nothing but juz stand
up for her best bud. It's cool, yeah.
But my heart was still broken, it was still hurt.
I had nothing to hope and juz wish that
you may forgive me and lets be friends again.
I'm sorry. I dunno if you will be reading this, but
i still wanna let you noe, i didn't do it
on purpose. I hope you really can forgive me
and please dun be angry.
I dunwanna lose anyone.
If it was me who have done wrong, juz tell me.
I will change, i will try.
I wanted the friend who could chat with me
and console me back, i want the friend who can be high
with me to be back.
i dunwan to walk past you and act as no one existed.
I dunwan that to happen.
Where are you? Will i be able to find you again?
Will i be able to catch back the balloon that has flew
away from my hands?
I dunno the answer.
But one thing i noe for sure, If i ever did,
I'll never ever let it go again.
Give me a chance.
Sorry.

寻找梦想 5:14 PM

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