Friday, March 21, 2008
I realised that many pple are emo nowadays.
But i dunno whether i am emo or am i losing the smile?
At first, i am still trying to cope with everything and try to be myself.
But maybe with so many things happening, i am even losing that bit of me.
Smiles, are so familiar and yet so not familiar.
I am afrad, very afraid that one day the smile that hangs on my face will not be recognised by me anymore. I am scared tat i dunno whose that smile is someday.
I am always the one asking pple to relax and chill and be there for them.
But me? Who knows. Probably it's becoz i can't say it out.
I dunno how to put them into words.
Will saying them out makes me feel better?
I am actually dying of sadness, bitterness, hateness and stress.
Is that considered as depression?
I dunno, Wads wrong with this brain of mine?
When im with my friends, i can still smile.
As they were the ones who make me forget all those things temporarily.
When i am alone, all of those juz keep on flooding out on me.
Maybe someday, i may drown. Maybe then, there will be no more troubles.
When will i be normal again?
寻找梦想 8:41 PM
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