Tuesday, March 09, 2010
I felt naked
and every moving sound startled me.
I looked up
only to see my refelcted self
and ponder
over the unanswerable questions.
Why do these emotions
carry me to the land of nowhere?
No one knows,
neither do I.
I am left vulnerable
out in the open
where coldness covers my exterior
but deep inside
do I still feel the warmth of passion
or has the light of fire begin to die?
Do you not know?
Or are you doing it on purpose?
The words you say, the action you do,
pierce me with every wound deep in my heart.
First, you tried to dominate over my thinking,
always feeling that you are the right one.
I know that you only treat friends that way so as to make use of them.
I know.
I can tell that i am not your bestest friend.
And i don't want to be.
Because being beside you just saps me of my energy.
I am tired and i feel my temper rising.
Am I not making it obvious enough?
For you to realise that i am shunning you?
That i do not want to be anywhere near you?
And yet, the almighty self that you claim yourself to be, fails to acknowledge that.
I just want some peace.
And that totally seems impossible around you.
You attack me, at my most vulnerable areas.
Stabbed me hard, and left me to bleed.
Expecting me to be always by your side
when you don't even treat me with sincerity.
I am not your friend, I am not your sidekick.
I back down not because i agree, but because i want to save this friendship.
I tolerate, but that doesn't mean that you can push over my limit.
Yes, you. I am talking about you.
I guess a lot of people already knew who i was talking about.
Some may feel unexpected.
But take a closer look, and you can see.
We were never close.
Fate brought us so far, and yet we chose to distance oursleves.
We are just not capable of being friends.
Just acquintances, that will be all.
So shut your non-stop, irritating mouth and stop hurting me!
寻找梦想 8:35 PM
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