Sunday, May 16, 2010
Read my most recent post, and realised that what i meant to phrase as happiness came out to be emo-ness.
Am i that sad inside?
Am i avoiding that problem so well that i have forgotten that it existed?
I thought everything was fine.
And then i began to look back.
I am only fine with certain people.
People that i can trust and i can be myself at ease.
I do not have to pretend, and i do not have to accomodate to the wishes of the others that i do not really care about.
I want to be with my true friends, those who accept me as who i am thoroughly.
And then i realised, i am beginning to shut myself away.
I want to be alone.
And i want to mug.
I long to mug, to dwell myself in the notes, notes and more notes.
Because, by doing so, i feel that i am actually doing something.
Isn't it the same 2 years ago? And 6 years ago?
Is it the exam stress?
Or is it so coincidental?
Every year when i am having some major exam, i will be facing with some friends or relationships problem.
Then i have to shut myself away?
Well, I dun mind actually.
Sometimes, i am so tired that i long for some time alone.
Some quietness.
But, i still long for some fun.
Some hanging out with my beloved friends.
Shopping too!
I wanna watch Shrek Forever After, and i have gotten the approval to buy the Rubi Shoes!
Go with me?
寻找梦想 11:53 AM
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