Saturday, July 10, 2010
I lost the motivation all of a sudden,
and I feel stark naked in the middle of nowhere, lost as the time wheel turns.
Felt like I have been left behind.
I miss all the others around me.
Ironic.
That's because I feel so far away.
Searching comfort in the never-coming-true fairytales.
Dwelling in the worlds that do not record my existence.
Evangeline... The second star to the right...
Can't believe that although I seem to have lost hope in the reality,
I still believe in the many heroes in my life that I have no chance to reach.
I don't know why am I feeling so angsty these days.
Is this late puberty???
Oh my, that had better not be it.
I am losing my inspiration as well.
The ideas that came, are just not as brilliant.
I am reverting to the most original, the start of it all.
Where simple motions touched my emotions,
where simple words stir my heart.
I hope sincerely that this will bring the long lost me back.
I am sick and tired of stereotypes.
I am different, I am unique.
And I don't fit stereotypes, stereotypes don't fit me.
I guess this is all part and parcel of the process of finding myself again.
It didn't seem so difficult 6 years ago.
I guess, things change, people do change.
But deep down, I know that I am still there.
I am just waiting for it to resurface again.
And I believe it will, eventually.
Even if the road in front of me may be covered in darkness, I shall persever.
Because I still believe that fairytales and dreams really do come true after all.
寻找梦想 7:54 PM
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