Tuesday, August 17, 2010
If you want us to mug, you should stop spamming us with lessons!
I am so overwhelmed, that i find no time at all!
Not that I am complaining about extra lessons,
they do help me clarify my doubts and allow me to revise some of my concepts.
But I have been seriously neglecting my geography and economics.
Not that I have been focusing on my chemisty and mathematics.
Oh goodness.
I am just so sick and tired of the routine that I am falling into.
I wake up, feeling stressed.
I go to bed, wanting to cry.
I can't even dream those carefree dreams anymore.
Perhaps I have been incepted, no?
Everyday is a torture for me as I watched the dates fly past.
Teachers stressing, parents stressing, and now what? Peers too?
Jolly good, ain't it?
I stare at the calender blankly sometimes, looking at all the days gone,
my mind equally blank.
I dread every morning, I dread every night.
I look at my work and I want to cry.
But I've locked all those negative emotions away.
Somewhere deep, somewhere secret.
Locking the truth that I once knew, and chose to forget.
How I wished that someone would so kindly come up and tell me,
that the world I am living in is not real.
And that death is the only way out.
The only escape.
Then I will gladly wait for the train that is going to take me far away.
I hope I know where the train is going to take me.
But yes, I don't know for sure.
And yes, it doesn't matter.
Because I will be free.
And then i can hope for every paradox to occur.
And someone to take me by the hand, and to show me that I can.
And that there are no boundaries, if I believe.
So, here I am still holding on.
To that one tiny ray of hope.
And wait for someone to believe in me, when even I have lost faith in myself.
寻找梦想 8:07 PM
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