Saturday, March 05, 2011
Whoa. Yesterday was whoa.
I was super stressed up in the morning, but I forced myself to stay calm.
As promised, I went to the library.
Did manage to borrow a few books and read a teeny weeny bit.
I didn't really freak out until I was sitted in the hall, listening to the principal talk.
And I was clutching Anna's hand, and tears begin to well up.
What if I didn't do well?
How am I supposed to face my loved ones and how am I supposed to face myself?
What am I supposed to do?
But I wiped the tears away (though it kept coming), and held on to Anna for support.
Going jellies lols
After the talk by the alumni and the principal, telling us how well we've done.
I was kind of like in a daze.
Will I be included in their excellent performance?
Ya, that question pops out quite a lot.
And then they went through the statistics with us.
And yes, RV did well.
The percentage of As are higher than national levels for most of the subjects.
So are the percentages of passes.
That was the first wave of relief.
Second wave came from the 99.7% passes in GP.
Then came the 7 distinction list.
To admit, and to confess now. My heart dropped like a sinking Titanic when I didn't see my name.
But then, a nudging thought came:
How could I ever get 7 distinctions?! My math can get B can um-chio already lo!
Then the sinking Titanic began to rise above the surface just a bit.
Third wave of relief swept me when I saw the 100% passes in geography.
Then we are supposed to go and get our results.
I dragged my feet and hesitated.
But still, I know that I have to face the music.
So I went to queue.
Watching the many faces, the ones smiling and jumping up in triumph.
The ones crying bitterly with disappointment.
Yes, I am afraid. Very afraid.
Then came my turn.
My form teacher was staring at the paper and nodding.
But the only thing that I registered was that he was going to put the paper right in front of me and I WILL see every grade!
And that's when I lost it.
I snatched the paper from him and slammed it down on the table, face down.
But it's redundant.
My form teacher ever so kindly told me all my grades.
Gah. But thanks to him too. I gave him a: ARE YOU SERIOUS?!
Then I jumped up, grabbed my things, apologized to my chemistry aka my co-form and ran towards tzehui crying.
I cried and I cried. And I haven't even take a look at my paper yet.
Haha after I finally mustered the courage to flip open the paper.
I saw another pleasant surprise.
It's good, I guess.
My results are not the best, not really beautiful.
But it was within my expectations. Sort of.
And even my co-form came over to comfort me.
So, I have the Gods for watching over me.
And I am thankful.
I may not be the best, but I know that this is enough for me.
And I did my best.
A little tinge of regret and a little bit of disappointment.
But still, the thrill is greater. The comfort, the relief.
I should be able to get in, should be able to choose.
I may not be top, but at least I made it, so I should be happy right?
Called at my mum. She was freaking out too.
She was afraid that I will be too upset.
But, I am fine. Just a little too agitated.
Went to Huiyuan's house with Constance and Jingyuan, and we just sat there talking and discussing about university courses and future prospects.
Now that my results are able to open more doors for me, I am wavering about the mass comm thing. I want to try out for environmental engineering.
Perhaps, go to NUS and see what geography-related courses they can offer.
Thinking about taking scholarships from PUB and URA.
Mr Teo called me! Blaming me that I never go and find him.
Ohkay, talking about pangseh-ing. AHEMS.
Lols then we chatted abit, seemed to me like old friends. Wow~
Crapped a little with him, and I genuinely felt happy.
There's a long road, still to be completed.
Still a long way for us to go.
Still, there is faith to kept, and hope to be held on to.
Huiyuan's parents are simply so nice! They congratulated us and treated us to Thai Express.
THANK YOU!~
Had a nice celebration last night.
And I am really thankful.
And have to thank my friends and families and colleagues for their concern via calls and smses.
And sharing the smiles with me.
I can't really sleep last night because it was all a little too dreamy.
That the thing I was worrying about so much is over already.
Within minutes.
I told everyone that I am envious of Anna's results.
Who wouldn't be? It's the most beautiful thing on earth.
I know you will get egoistic seeing this, but still...
CONGRATULATIONS~
Happy for you, girl:D
Let all of us hide the sorrow of this day. No matter what regrets and disappointment.
Hide it, and focus on the smiles.
And bring that to our future, the one looming.
The one we are pursuing, and step forth to welcome our dream.
Great job, everybody. We have done well, all of us.
寻找梦想 9:34 AM
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