Saturday, April 30, 2011
Reading books is one huge interest of mine.
I love to just sit there and read and read and read.
Of course, I still love to shop and talk too.
One sad thing is that I haven't written for a very long time.
My inspiration just flew out of the window.
And I am through sitting here waiting for it to fly back.
Because apparently, that's so not happening.
I have to go find it, and I am not opening any windows again.
That is, if I find it back.
1) Run
2) Read
3) Daydream
4) Relax at secret hideout
Uh huh, OL life is so not going to get my inspiration back.
Yes, even though my calendar is filled with dates and outings, but still nights are not enough for me.
I want the whole day free.
To be able to wake up in the late morning, breathe in the fresh air and wonder how beautiful any day is. And go wander around parks and bookstores.
Do you have any idea how blissful that is?
Now I do.
Woah. Woah. Woah.
I just refuse to believe it. I don't want to know, seriously.
So long as the letter doesn't reach me, I am so gonna heck.
If it reaches me, well, I...
I am so gonna freak.
I freaked already, by the way.
Dilemma, dilemma, dilemma.
I laid out all the pros and cons for those three, and I ignored the obvious biasness.
I chose to ignore the answer that my heart is whispering to me.
No, strike that, my heart is yelling it out at me actually.
I dunno why. I just need that last, extra certainty.
Well, you gave me half of what I needed.
You pointed this fact out to me.
The fact that deep down, I already knew what I want.
That I have already made the decision.
You knew me best, I guess.
Only you realised and noticed that.
I look forward to it.
To everything.
To back to school, back to studying.
And with you in this package.
Time has never flown so fast. I dunwanna wake up and realise hey, 3 months passed and I practically threw my life away, wasting my time!
Seriously, just for the money?
This is a really important lesson for me.
I am really not cut out for admin. And this, amazingly, helps me in my decison making.
Well, a little.
I love today.
Going back there after so long.
Meeting up feels so natural and comfortable.
I will always be me around you.
No need to pretend, no need to create polite conversation, no awkward silence.
Woah, I long for that so much.
Uh huh, that's why I arrange so many dates right.
To get away from the "serious" me.
So, being with the people who know me, and still love me for it...
I can, just be me.
寻找梦想 9:42 PM
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