Saturday, May 07, 2011
It's great to be able to wake up on a late saturday morning.
I sacrifice too much.
How long have I been not doing that?
Yup, three and a half months.
It's a blessing to be able to wake up at 11am on a saturday and watching spongebob while having my breakfast. (Y)
Usually, my saturdays only start at 5pm due to work.
It's fantastic to be able to start today at 11am:D
And I watched Message in a Bottle.
It'a amazing that I didn't cry, since my tears went free fall when I was reading the book.
They were quite subtle in the movie about the grieving parts.
But somehow, I dunno how, but somehow this show aid me in my choice in university admission as well.
I begin to question myself: Where do I belong? What is my true north?
To be able to enter the prestigious, number 1 university in singapore and come out to work in a specialised arena, earning big bucks...
Or to enjoy what I am going to learn and not dread work for the rest of my life and still earn enough.
Perhaps, this way I wouldn't be top-notch and exceptionally specialised.
Perhaps, this way I wouldn't be a millionaire by 50 but I believe I can earn enough to manage my finances and on top of that, be happy.
To many, the answer to my question may be obvious.
But they didn't know how that prestige blinded me.
I was what, 1 of the 50?
I managed to squeeze into that competitive spot and I am going to turn it all down?!
For what?
I can be one of the most significant and impactful people in the world.
Out there, making a difference.
But what difference would it make if I will always hold one small regret in my heart.
Will I be truly happy, knowing that I have let my dream slipped away?
To me, this decision is important.
Because I am choosing a life here.
To me, there wouldn't be a bend in the road to turn me out of this.
I wasn't able to see it then.
But I am seeing it now.
I can foresee myself, in that near future.
Learning and doing what I love.
And relief swamped over me when I finally acknowledged the decision deep within.
And now I know.
I can have a lot of interests.
But I have to recognize my one true passion.
And when I did, I know where my true north is.
寻找梦想 12:16 PM
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