Thursday, June 09, 2011
Being natural with him, is natural.
I guess.
It made me think quite a lot.
Think back to the dream that I held on to so tightly before.
Guess we are kinda similar in different ways.
Still, I can't chase that lingering thought away.
And so, I chose not to think about it.
I chose not to think about how many more times, how many more people he did this with.
I chose to ignore.
Ignorant for me, has always been blissful.
Dreams huh?
Do we have the courage and what it takes to pursue them?
Or are we really going to turn our back on our dreams for the money?
Materialism, I can understand that better than he does.
And I can better understand the emptiness that fills me after retail therapy.
Quoting Rebecca (confessions of a shopaholic): "When I shop, the world is beautiful. And then it's not. So I have to do it all again."
But, I am not truly happy.
Happy on pay day, but for the rest of the month?
For the rest of the month, the happiness I seek cannot be found in the material welfare I provide myself with.
But our passion, our dreams seem so far-fetched and impossible to reach.
I guess I am always able to fall into you because we are so similar yet in so many different ways.
Listening is one aspect, understanding is... hard to come by.
How long has it been since I have talked to someone with a passion? With a dream?
A lifelong dream.
And someone who understands the feeling of not being able to commit.
Not being able to reciprocate to someone who is pouring their heart out to you.
Because we may leave and never meet them again.
(I am leaving in a month's time.)
Because we are not whole anymore.
Because both of us have people we love, and they have taken up so much of us, that we are unable to find soulmates again.
How can we seek for soulmates when we couldn't be theirs?
When we are already soulmates to the so many we love.
寻找梦想 9:36 AM
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